Janet couldn't believe she hadn't said anything earlier; her stomach had multiple bruises on it her back was slashed in a cross pattern from where she had been whipped, she was sure at least one rib was cracked, her wrists were bruised consistent with being held down, and one seemed broken, the cut on her face whilst not serious needed stitches, or at least stereo strips
"Ok, Sam, Can you take you trousers off please" Janet knew sexual assault was unlikely with the Gould being Sam's mum and female but she still had to check, in any torture case
Sam did, there were more bruises consistent with being made to kneel at the back of her legs, but nothing serious, Janet was relived, but didn't show it keeping her professional mask firmly in place,
"Right first X-ray, then we'll stitch the head and your back then plaster your wrist,"
She signalled for a nurse to take her to X-Ray, Sam was silent pondering the day, it had been such a shock, seeing her mum, she'd mourned her, and now, it was confusing, even if they did get her back would she be ok
Sam went through the motions that the nurses told her but her mind was elsewhere, back on the planet, with her mum, she'd made a vow she wouldn't rest till her mum was de-Goulded and she was going to stick to it
Janet was concerned not only was her friend hurt, 2 broken ribs and a broken wrist as well as the flesh wounds she was withdrawing, her attempts at conversation were ignored,
"Sam look at me" Janet commanded
Her head turned slowly
"I know today has been difficult, but you got to talk to us" she pleaded, taking Sam's hand in her own,
"Janet, who can I trust if I can't trust my own father?" Sam asked
"Sam you can trust me" Janet promised
"No, your bound by the military, patient confidentiality doesn't really apply, if I can't trust my dad, and my God Father, then who can I trust?" she repeated, her feelings of betrayal coming to the forefront
"Sam, they did what they thought was best"
"Even when I knew about the Stargate, the Gould they still didn't trust me enough to tell me, and with Orlin, nobody believed me, not even you, can I go home now?" She yelled, trying to deal with too many recent events, her mind spinning with confusion
Whoa way to change the subject Janet struggled to keep up
"No I want to keep you in for at least 24 hours"
"Please, I need some space, to think, re-evaluate things, please" Sam begged, which was rare for her,
"Well," Janet hesitated but saw Sam's face that said if you don't let me out I'll go AWOL
"So long as you're not alone, and no driving"
"Ok" Sam tried to hide the grimace of pain as she leaped off the bed too energetically her arm in plaster made it harder to change but she still managed it refusing Janet's help,
"Careful, now I want to see whoever is staying with you ok"
"Sure" Sam agreed not really listening
"And no working in your lab," Janet warned knowing that is what Sam normally did when avoiding her emotions
"Yes mum" Sam mocked, rolling her eyes
"I'm serious Sam; you should really still be in the infirmary,"
"Ok, Ok, no working, no driving, whoever takes me home has to have a word with you first, got it"
"I'll pop by yours later"
"Right" Sam left quickly
Who to persuade to take her home, Teal'c, Daniel or Colonel O'Neill, well not Colonel O'Neill, too awkward, Daniel would pester her with questions, Teal'c would sit there in his quiet manner, right best bet Teal'c, moving towards his quarters, she decided even Teal'c would annoy her right now, she needed to be totally alone, but where, signing out she reached the surface, although it was almost winter, the fresh air was a relief,
she started walking, she didn't know where she was walking, and had no awareness of time it was perfect, here she could reflect on her mum in peace, the good times they'd had before she'd "Died", then the thought crossed her mind, what had her mum suffered for her escape, she knew the Gould had the power to cause the host great pain, she stopped walking, engulfed in pain and sadness, she should of waited fought them all, brought her home, instead she'd broken the golden rule, she'd left someone behind, she felt sick, she knelt down on the cold ground, when had it started raining she asked herself not that it mattered nothing mattered anymore, the people close to her had betrayed her now she'd betrayed her mum, she started sobbing letting out all the pain she had held inside for so long,
Inside the base a frantic search had begun, concerned about Sam, starting when Teal'c, Daniel and Jack had popped by the infirmary to find out why it was taking so long, Janet informed them she'd sent Sam to find one of them, a quick call to Hammond confirmed he hadn't see her not surprising really, phoning the outside gate, no sign, so they were now searching the base, with no luck
Jack remembered when the Crystal Charlie was there all he wanted to do was to get out of the base, but not drive, he headed up to the surface, confirming with the Guards Sam had signed out over 2 hours ago, leaving a message for the others that Sam was on the surface
Heading up he started walking around it was really raining now, he just hoped Sam had a coat, spying a figure hunched up on the floor, he ran over, it was Sam! She didn't have a coat dressed in a t-shirt, not noticing the rain had frozen and the Colorado winter was in full blow as snow filled the sky, the icy wind howled, taking his coat off he wrapped it around her, she didn't seem to notice him touching her but she was frozen, her skin with a bluish tinge,
"Sam, Sam listen to me we have got to get you inside"
"No, I can't, I let you down" Sam fought weakly against him,
"Sam you haven't" Jack had no idea what she was on about or how any of this was her fault just knowing he had to get her inside
"You called me Sam" she realised
"I guess I did"
"Am I Dying?" she asked suddenly, spacing out
"No" he said wondering where that came from, fear gripping his heart as he wondered what she knew that he didn't
"You only call me Sam when I'm dying" she changed the subject, he struggled to keep up like Janet earlier, Sam's mind making huge leaps as she struggled to piece together the recent events
"Jack, why didn't they tell me?" his heart went out to herm he reached out glad when she accepted his hug,
"I guess they were scared"
"Of me"
"No, about the consequences, the repercussions, you thought your mum was dead, you were moving on with your life, to tell you would have achieved nothing"
"So you think they were right" her voice rose angrily, she pushed him away moving clumsily to her feet
"I didn't say that, but I can see why they did what they did" Jack joined her, stepping towards her, and holding her steady
"I'm cold" She said burying into his chest,
"Come on let's get you inside"
She stood up leaning on him as he guided her down the mountain, arriving near the entrance they saw a very worried, Janet Frasier
"Uh oh, if looks could kill," He whispered, seeing Janet very pissed off
"Sam what the hell were you thinking?" she asked furious
"Cold" Sam muttered
"Janet" he called Sam collapsed as he held her and lowered her to the floor
"She's burning up" Janet had run over as she saw Sam go down, and instantly put her hand to Sam's forehead, feeling the heat rising off Sam she knew it was bad,
"Let's get her inside, now she motioned for some SF's to help carry her,
"You too, you're soaked through" she gave him a glare hoping he'd follow orders
"But Doc" more out of habit than anything
"No arguments go" it came out slightly harsher that she had intended, he winced.
"Sir Yes Sir" he saluted standing to attention
She smiled as she ran behind the airmen following them down to the infirmary
"M…..m" Sam muttered
"Sam hold on" Janet ordered
"H….t"
"Its' okay, just please hold on" Janet begged, trying not to cry
"Ok" Sam promised Janet desperately hoped it was true
Sam drifted into unconsciousness welcoming the blackness; the pain couldn't find her here, nothing could
Janet wiped her forehead, and went out to meet, 5 anxious males outside
"She is going to be ok, an infection, caused by the cold and her injuries I've started her on broad scale antibiotics,"
"Did she say anything?"
"No, she is still unconscious"
General Hammond stood next to a frozen O'Neill, whilst a recently arrived Jacob stood anxiously waiting to talk to his very annoyed daughter, Daniel and Teal'c stood also worried about their friend
Sam was feverish, and despite what she'd said earlier Janet had to admit, Sam wasn't going to make it, unless, of course, she ran outside an idea in her head
"Can you use the healing device, please?" she begged Jacob needlessly
"Yes" he said already pulling it out of the pouch where he kept it on his Tok'ra uniform
"General" she checked as a second thought
"Permission granted"
"Colonel go and change" Janet ordered suddenly noticing he was still wet
"But" he protested wanting to make sure Sam was actually ok
"Go" she ordered cutting his losses Jack left mastering the 2minute shower and change, returning in time to see Jacob work his magic
Jacob stood over Sam, and let the warmth glow,
He moved the device up and down finding the main source of the infection he managed to fight it, then moving to the broken ribs, next the arm, and the other general bruising and whip marks feeling disgusted at the treatment of his daughter
Finishing he swapped back to Jacob,
"Selmak says there was a lot of damage but nothing he couldn't fix" Sam started to come round
"M…u…m." she muttered
"Sam" Janet said
"Sam honey its me dad I'm here"
"pis, ..ff" she muttered still not opening her eyes the anger evident in her voice, everyone looked at Jacob curious to how he would react
"Sammie" he tried again
"Id, u ….lied"
"Sammie I had no choice," the regret reflected in his voice
"Always choice" she was coming around more, as her voice got stronger so did the emotions mainly anger,
"Sammie, I didn't even know about this program until I joined with Selmak, and when I did, it was believed by the that she was dead, I didn't want to put you through it I'm sorry as a Tok'ra I read every report for a hint but there was nothing"
"Not dead" Sam muttered
"I know, we have to do everything we can to free her, together," he stretched out his hand hoping she'd take it,
"Together, Sam agreed, finally opening her eyes and grasping his hand, everyone else in the room releasing the breath they never knew they were holding
"One way or another" Jacob agreed
Sam sat up; Janet took her blood pressure, pulse and temperature
"Everything is normal"
"So we can go back" Sam asked hope sparkling in her eyes
"Whoa Carter hold your horses" Jack said
"Sir imagine if Charlie was alive on that planet don't tell me you'd leave him there any longer than necessary" Sam shot back spitefully, Jack's face went ashen
"Sam" Jacob chided, Sam blinked,
"Sorry Sir" she realised how harsh she had been still she had got her point across and that was the main thing
"S'okay carter" he accepted
"Sam is right we need to move before she leaves" Daniel argued knowing what it was like to have a loved one at the hands of the Gould
"Ok let's go and plan this" Jack consented Sam leapt off the bed feeling fine now the healing device had done its job, Janet still watched her carefully knowing Sam wouldn't say anything
They walked to the briefing room where a plan was quickly hatched, Hammond gave his permission and it began,
The MALP rolled up the ramp entering the wormhole it triggered the grenades to be launched the Jaffa around the gate were taken out as the 5man strike team consisting of Sg1 and Jacob who with precision accuracy took out the remaining Jaffa they then ran down the hill hoping they hadn't been seen so the blue light didn't get them, unfortunately they were wrong, Jack felt in engulf him as he thought for the second time that day Cp
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