Oh wow another update. This is the result of working out and not feeling sleepy past midnight...ya end up feeling like posting something.

For the people wondering about the mustang..that will be answered soon enough. Patience. A girl can only tell so much of a story at a time.

Enjoyyyy whats on Kelsey's mind.

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Kelsey left school after her confrontation with her friends. She couldn't stay there. Near them. She drove around the town, trying to clear her mind of guilty thoughts and figure out what she should do. It would only be a couple of hours when the girls would tell Spencer. Kelsey is sure they will tell her if she keeps getting deeper. What will she tell Spencer if, more like when she confronts her. Kelsey imagines Spencer's face when she hears what she is doing and the thoughts that might go through her mind, just brings more guilt to Kelsey's heavy heart.

Kelsey ends up at Baryll Park. The last time she was there was when she kissed Spencer. Coming back to the park felt uncomfortable and just wrong. Its not because she kissed Spencer. It was because it reminds her who she was and some good memories. Kelsey felt she wasn't worthy enough because she has fallen so far.

Kelsey parks her scion in the parking lot. She lets out a long low sigh. When did life become so sucky? Kelsey leans over and opens her glove box. She reaches deep in the box and pulls out a bottle of Jack Daniels.

'This is how far I have fallen. I've fcking been drinking.'

Kelsey steps out of the car and walks over to the Jungle gym and sits on the blue metal steps.

'What am I going to do? If I don't stop dealing my life will be empty. If I stop, I have to find a way to get more money. He gave me until Sunday. Sunday. Today is Friday. The clock is ticking. I am 500 dollars short. How the hell am I going to get that kind of money in 2 days. If the asshole didn't slap fcking interest then I probably would of had 50 bucks left to pay.'

Kelsey lets out another sigh.

'Let's see I stop dealing and borrow money from Ellie..who am I kidding, She doesn thave 500 dollars. The rent and bills are due soon, damnit.'

Kelsey looks at the JD in her hand. She takes off the cap and brings the bottle to her lips and stops. She glances down at her jean pocket and the square lump that is her phone. The ringtone goes off, Where'd You Go by Fort Minor.

"Where'd You go

I miss you so

Its been forever

Since you've be gone.

Where'd you go"

That was the ringtone she set for Spencer. Spencer was calling her.

Kelsey lets the phone keep going off. The chorus of the song plays over and over again. The guilt inside Kelsey keeps growing. In her mind, she didn't really deserve to talk to Spencer. She let her down.

'Oh no, the girls told her. I let her down. What would she think of me now?'

The phone stops ringing. Kelsey lets go of her breath that she didn't realize she was holding. The phone goes off again. She is calling again.

'To pick it up…don't pick it up…pick it up…don't pick it up…Pick up the goddamn phone Kelsey!!'

Kelsey takes out her phone from her pocket and answers it.

Kelsey: "Hello?"

Spencer: "Where the hell are you?"

'Oh god, they told her.'

Kelsey: "Why?"

Spencer: "Hayley called me…"

'Oh god oh god oh god'

Kelsey: "Look Spencer I can explain-"

Spencer: "Yeah, You better explain to me why you ditched school."

Kelsey lets out a sigh of relief.

'They haven't told her yet'

Kelsey: "Uhmm. I just decided to leave."

Spencer: "Hayley said you probably left because of an argument between you guys. Do you mind explaining that to me."

Kelsey: "I rather not."

Spencer: "And why not?"

Kelsey: "Just because."

Spencer: "Kelsey, we are best friends, I love you from the bottom of my Ohio heart but girl, uhmm, how can I say this…."

Kelsey: "Say what?"

Spencer: "You're worrying me…"

Kelsey: "…I am…?"

Kelsey frowns.

Spencer: "Yeh you are. I don't want you to take this the wrong way but…you've been different since I've been here and its sort of scaring me."

Kelsey lets out another sigh.

Kelsey: "I'm sorry…"

Spencer: "What wrong?"

Kelsey doesn't respond.

Spencer: "Please just tell me what's wrong. What ever it is I can help you? I'm here for you KayKay. Through thick and thin remember?"

Kelsey: "Yeah, I know, and you are helping Spencer. I have to go take care of something."

Spencer: "Okay…."

Kelsey: "Later Spencer."

Spencer:"Bye."

Kelsey: "Wait Spencer!"

Spencer: "What?"

Kelsey: "Just know that I love you and just don't forget that Spencer."

Spencer: "I love you too."

Ashley-in the background of Spencer's phone-: "Hey wait, who loves me then??!"

Kelsey smiles a little at Ashley's remark.

Kelsey: "Tell Ashley I love her too."

Spencer: "Will do."

Kelsey: "Okay bye Spence."

Spencer: "Bye Kels."

Kelsey presses 'End' on her cell phone. Kelsey sits still for a couple of minutes trying to decide on her next move. Kelsey reflects back on how she as been asking, what she has been doing and who she was becoming. She is losing her contact with her family, losing her friends, and most of all….losing herself. And what was she gaining? A safe roof over her head and no one getting hurt? Was that enough for what she was losing?

'So far I would have to say not even close. My friends want me to pull out…but they don't know what can happen to me if I do. The pain they might put me through though, is probably not the internal pain I am going through now. But I don't know what else they might do until I get them the rest of the money.'

Kelsey lets out a heavy sigh and closes her eyes. She takes a couple of moments listening to the wind around her, the birds chirping, everything, and yet nothing. Kelsey puts her phone back into her pocket and closes the JD bottle that was still in her hand.

'No more'

Kelsey walks over to the nearest trash can and disposes of the bottle.

'I can't take this anymore. I can't do this any more. I will not do this anymore. It's time to face the storm. Hopefully I won't regret it.'

Kelsey walks with a purpose to her scion and drives off. Her destination: The heart of the storm.

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Spencer puts her phone back into her purse. Spencer and Ashley were sitting on a bench outside of the mall. Tons of shopping bags were around them. All from different stores.

Spencer: "There I talked to her. Are you happy now?"

Ashley: "Yes I am but now you are too."

Spencer: "Yeah I guess. I'm still worried though. How she sounded on the phone, I don't know. It sounded like it could be a real good bye. Or I'm just being paranoid."

Ashley: "Let's go with Paranoid."

Spencer: "Yeah, well, I think we should get going. We have about a 3 mile walk ahead of us to the school."

Ashley: "What?! Are you serious? 3 miles? Nuh uh, Carlin you better find us a ride."

Spencer lets out a little smile.

Spencer: "I'll see who I can call."

Ashley: "Psh you better call someone."

Half an hour later, Spencer and Ashley arrive at Spencer's old high school after Ms. Blackmore picked them up, left their bags at Kelsey's apartment and dropped them off at the school.

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Kelsey gots some problems in her hands I see...

And where can this heart of the storm be?

And what is soo important about the Mustang that gots our Spencer's attention?

Answers to come if I get reviews.

Till then PeAcE