Author's Notes:

This chapter is dedicated for Aznkizz.

Disclaimer: I do not own CCS. Clamp owns CCS. However, in this story, I own HAURU!

His Confessions

I got to go back. If I don't, it might be too late to get her back…

-Syaoran

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The trip back to China was short. There was silence around them during the whole trip. The sixteen year old boy sat down beside his sixteen year old cousin, both wishing that they were somewhere else with someone they wanted to be with.

Li Ieran hated the silence the two were having. They weren't like this when they were children. In fact, they were very close friends which became the reason why she decided that they should be engaged.

Syaoran was back in China with Meiling. He was happy to be home with his sisters but he can't help it. He longed for Sakura. He continued to be silent on their trip from the airport to their house. They rode a limousine back to the house along with his mother and sisters.

Meiling too continued to be silent. She wanted to see Hauru. She moved on from loving Syaoran since she noticed that he felt something for Sakura. However, she could feel Hauru's love for her. He could be the clan leader if he took the same training as Syaoran did but it was too late for him. He's too old to be clan leader but just right to be Meiling's fiancé. After all, he's only eighteen.

Ieran saw the introverted hostility between the two people sitting in front of her. Her daughters were unusually quiet too. 'They must be observing them.' All of them knew knew about Sakura but Ieran preferred Meiling since she felt it was right. Let's just say it was a mother's intuition.

Ieran broke the silence by saying, "Both of you are going to live in the same house."

"What?" Both teenagers said. Because of what she said, there were a million things running inside their head but the most common thought both teenagers had was, "IS SHE CRAZY? I'M NOT GOING TO LIVE WITH HIM/HER!"

"I decided that you need to start living like a couple and I think it's all for the best." Ieran reasoned out to them. She observed their impulsive reactions and see what the result will be.

"Mother," Syaoran calmly said, "I'm not going to be a clan leader."

Meiling looked at Syaoran. 'Is he serious?' Meilin decided to stay calm and listen to what was going to happen.

Ieran knew what was going to happen. But she had the same expression on her face as she said, "What are you talking about Xiao Lang?"

Syaoran answered coldly, "I don't want to be the clan leader if it meant that I have to marry this noisy girl beside me." He scooted away from Meiling.

Syaoran's statement made Meiling angry but she knew what Syaoran was playing. "I don't want to marry a cold person like you." She also scooted away from Syaoran.

Ieran started to get annoyed with their games. "This is enough!" Ieran said. "I am not going to break this marriage no matter what happens."

Meiling and Syaoran decided not to talk anymore. It could just make the matters worse.

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They got back to Li Manor. The car drove into the driveway and stopped in front of the doorway. There was still silence around. Ieran did not like the hostility in her own home but she tried her best to hide that anger. She knew that once her son said something, he'd do it. Of all people, she wanted him to be the clan leader.

Syaoran immediately went into his room and saw a stuffed bear. He made that years ago, when he realized that he had feelings for Sakura. He held it in front of him and said, "You'll be there for her, okay?" Syaoran put the bear down on his desk. He saw some paper and decided to write a letter.

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Dear Sakura,

I'm sorry I left. I really don't want to go but

He threw the fiftieth piece of paper on the trash bin. He couldn't write the perfect letter for his cherry blossom. 'Sakura…' He thought.

Someone knocked on his door. "Syaoran?" Meiling's face appeared on the other side of the door. "Can I come in?" Syaoran nodded. Meiling saw the crumpled paper. "You're going to write her a letter?" Syaoran nodded again. She sat on his bed and asked, "But the problem is you can't find the right words, huh?"

Syaoran turned around and faced Meiling. "You of all people know how much I love her. I don't know what to do. I want to go back and hug her and kiss her for the first time." He calmed down a bit and sighed. "I just wanted to be with her."

His cousin walked toward him and hugged Syaoran. "I understand you. I wanted to be with someone else too." She let go and took a piece of paper. She sat down on the floor and said, "Now, I want you to tell me what you want to say to her. I'll put it into words."

After two hours of working on the perfect letter, Meiling decided that the letter was finished. "There you go, Syaoran."

Syaoran read the letter Meiling wrote. It was nice and everything he wanted to say was indicated on the piece of paper.

Dearest Sakura,

I do not know how to begin this letter. But most probably, I'll start with a sorry. I'm sorry I left you like that. Honestly, I don't want to leave Japan. I wanted to stay there with you because that's how much I love you.

Sakura, I know I can't be there personally. I wanted you to have this old stuffed bear I made years ago. I wanted you to have it so that a part of me will always be there with you and so that this little bear can watch over you for me.

Even if this feeling fades away because of time, I'll just fall in love with you again. Remember that.

Only yours,

Syaoran

"Meiling," Syaoran said, "Thank you. I couldn't have done it without you." Syaoran stood up and hugged his cousin. "I better find a box and personally bring this to the post office."

"That's a good idea." Meiling answered. Then, she started to feel sleepy. "Uhm, Syao, I'm going to sleep now. Good night." Syaoran greeted her good night as well. She closed the door slowly and proceeded to her own room.

Meiling's room was pretty simple. It was painted red, her favorite color. Her closet was beside the door. Her bed was placed near the window which was opposite the door. She had a cabinet full of stuffed toys and books.

She laid down her bed and sighed. "Hauru… where are you?" No one knew how much she loved the boy named Hauru. If Syaoran wasn't there, probably, she and Hauru could be the ones engaged right now.

For the past few months, Hauru and Meiling were exchanging letters. Through those letters, their friendship bloomed into something called love. She buried her face on her soft pillow and cried herself to sleep as she longed for Hauru.

The next day, Syaoran went out of the Manor, unknown to anyone. He was afraid that someone would stop him from sending his gift to his cherry blossom. He decided to walk to town. The town was nearby and he needed the exercise.

After a few minutes of walking, he finally found the post office. He was able to securely hand the package to the postmaster.

"It's a package for someone in Japan." Syaoran added, "Please be careful with it."

"Yes, I will." The postmaster assured him as Syaoran step out of the Post Office.

'I just hope it gets there.' Syaoran thought, 'If I know, my mother would do anything just to intercept the package…'

However, Li Ieran was still asleep when Syaoran left the Manor. (And as the author, I'm not that cruel. I love the S+S pairing!!) The guards were friends with Syaoran so he trusted them not to say a word to his mother.

Author's Notes:

I am so sorry! I updated so late. I wrote then first few lines last June 24, 2006. Checked the date this document was created before I updated this story. And now, it's October 30, 2006. It's been months. I'm really sorry.

Before I uploaded this, I read my past reviews and I should rightfully thank Aznkizz for being the only reviewer for CHAPTER 2. I'm really sorry I confused her at first.

Please do review. It's been long since I had reviews for my CCS stories.

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-angelraine-