Confessions of Eternal Love

Chapter Four:

The Gift from the One She Loves

I just got to have faith in him. I need to get out of this darkness. They need me.

-Sakura-

Sakura stared at herself at the mirror. She gasped at what she saw there. She did change a lot. She got a lot thinner from not eating. The color of her body was pale. There were eye bags under her emerald eyes. She sighed as grabbed her comb and fixed herself up. She took a pair of shorts and a shirt from her closet and got dressed.

She opened her top desk drawer. Inside it was a picture of her and Syaoran. He gave such a cute smile as Sakura hugged him. Another tear slid down her face. She was still hurt from missing him too much. Love has hit her pretty hard. After Syaoran left, she realized that she feels more than friendship for the auburn haired boy. Now, Sakura was certain that she loved him so much. She held the picture close to her heart and placed it back.

When she opened the door, it was as if she wasn't used to the house. It has been a week since she kept herself in her room out of depression. She went downstairs and wandered around. No one was at home.

As she walked toward the kitchen, Sakura saw a familiar tail on the floor. She walked a little faster. She was surprised to see Kero, lying on the kitchen floor. "Kero!" She exclaimed as she picked up her friend and guardian. "What happened to you?" Her heart was filled with worry.

Kero moved slowly and looked at his mistress. "Sakura-chan, I'm glad to see that you're out of your room. It's been a while. Touya-kun just went out and bought groceries." He talked so weakly that Sakura wanted to cry.

"Kero, how can I help you? Please, you got to tell me. I can't bear to see you like this."

Kero coughed and closed his eyes wearily. "You can help me by being normal again. Yue and I couldn't continue this any longer. You have to smile, be cheerful, and positive." Kero opened his eyes again and said, "We need you, Sakura."

Sakura nodded and tried to smile. She stood up and walked back to her room. She slowly opened the door and laid Kero on her bed. She decided that it was time to be the normal Sakura again. No more sadness or pain.

She went back to the kitchen and looked what's inside the fridge and the pantry. She needed to whip up something for Kero. She looked around and found some pasta and sauce. She decided to cook spaghetti for Kero. She got her apron and started preparing the meal.

As she cooked spaghetti, she kept remembering the happy memories she and Syaoran had. All those time, if only she knew back then, maybe they would be happy, together. They'd be all lovey-dovey that her brother would eventually throw up somewhere.

"I'm not alone. Even when we're apart I feel you in the air." Sakura sang, "I'm not afraid. I know what you're thinkin'. I can hear you everywhere" It was a song she heard from the radio a few weeks ago. The message of the song was so clear to her now. She now knew that she had to believe in him that he'll be back for her. She was never alone. He was always inside her heart. With that thought, she was able to smile again.

"Some people say it'll never happen. And we're just wasting time." She sang that line as she remembered what her brother told her a few days ago. He told her to forget him. But how could she when the thoughts of him were the only things that could make her smile now? "But good things come when you least expect them. So I don't really mind."

As she was in the midst of cooking, Sakura heard the doorbell rang. She removed her apron and opened the front door. She saw the doorman in front of the house. "It's a parcel for Ms. Kinomoto." Sakura got out of the house and took the parcel. "Thank you so much." She signed the clipboard and the mailman just left.

She went inside and opened the parcel. Inside it was a teddy bear and a letter. She opened the letter. She was shocked to see that it was from the boy she loves – Syaoran. Sakura was shaking as she started reading the letter.

Dearest Sakura,

I do not know how to begin this letter. But most probably, I'll start with a sorry. I'm sorry I left you like that. Honestly, I don't want to leave Japan. I wanted to stay there with you because that's how much I love you.

Sakura, I know I can't be there personally. I wanted you to have this old stuffed bear I made years ago. I wanted you to have it so that a part of me will always be there with you and so that this little bear can watch over you for me.

Even if this feeling fades away because of time, I'll just fall in love with you again. Remember that.

Only yours,

Syaoran

She slowly placed down the letter and took the stuffed bear out of the box. She hugged it tightly. "Syaoran, We'll be together, come whatever – not just staring at the stars." She sang another line from the song she was singing a while ago. "Just remember, that no one else could tell us who we are. We'll be together so don't ever stop listening to your heart. Coz I can't turn mine up." She suddenly remembered that she was cooking something. She carefully placed the bear back into the box and went back to the kitchen.

Touya slowly opened the front door. As the door was ajar, he carried the grocery bags inside and closed the door with the use of his foot. Everything was silent, as usual. But, somehow, he could feel that something was different. He placed the bags down on the counter and looked around. Something was indeed different. He had this gut feeling that Sakura's not well. He ran upstairs and opened the door to Sakura's door. "Sakura!"

However, Touya was more surprised with what he saw. Sakura was smiling as she fed her old stuffed animal with spaghetti. She looked at him questionably. "Onii-chan, what's wrong?"

"You're not that card, right?" Touya asked nervously. It was as if it was something new. For a week, she didn't smile. Now, she was smiling so sweetly again.

Sakura nodded as she said, "Yeah. I'm not her. She's resting right now. I really appreciate what you guys did for me."

Touya sighed and immediately hugged his sister. "Don't you ever dare be depressed again! I always want you to be like this – happy and carefree." Sakura nodded and snuggled in his brother's embrace for a few seconds.

Then, Sakura continued to feed Kero who regained his strength afterwards. "Sa-ku-ra," He gave her a kooky grin. "Arigato, from all of us!"

"It's the least I could do, Kero-chan!" Sakura picked up the plate and walked out of the room. But then, she looked back and said, "And of course, it's my job to take care of you and the cards." After that statement, she continued and headed to the kitchen.

Sakura decided to go out and visit Yukito. After all, he was the counterpart of Yue. Touya gave her instructions on how to get there. It was far but still, Sakura insisted on riding a bicycle all the way.

Thirty minutes later, Sakura got to the large condominium. It was about ten stories high and is painted with the colors green and white. She entered the grand lobby as she was greeted by the kind doorman. She was amazed by the large chandelier hanging over the lobby and the shiny marble floors. She never knew that Yukito was rich that he could afford such a place.

Sakura approached the receptionist. The receptionist was a middle-aged lady with spectacles over her eyes. "Ma'am?" Sakura politely asked as she noticed that she caught her attention, "May I ask if Tsukishiro-san is home?" The receptionist eyed at Sakura maliciously. "Ne… I'm his… friend's sister. I heard that he's sick… so I… uhm… decided to visit him in place of my very busy brother."

The receptionist suddenly smiled at her. "You can go, dearie. He's at his room." Sakura nodded and thanked her.

She immediately got on the elevator and pressed the number 6 button. A few seconds later, the elevator stopped and got out. She looked for Yukito's door. "Where's door 603?" She wondered for a minute until she found the door. She knocked lightly but the door was open. Suddenly, she felt dread climb over her.

She slowly opened the door wider and walked inside. Everything seemed to be in place. She wandered more and saw Yukito, sleeping so peacefully on the couch. She gave a sigh of relief. She looked around from where she's standing. She noticed that Yukito hadn't cleaned up the place. So, she decided to do it for him.

An hour later, Yukito's place was clean and he was still sleeping. Sakura checked his refrigerator so that she can cook for him. She saw that she can possibly make him chicken yakitori so that's what she made. She made a lot, knowing Yukito's appetite.

Yukito sensed the aroma of the delicious chicken yakitori. He slowly opened his eyes and sat up. He looked around the room. The place was spotless clean. In fact, the floor tiles were shimmering in the light. Then, he looked toward the direction of his kitchen. He saw a brunette, about five-feet, two-inches tall. She looked awfully familiar to him. He looked for his glasses so that he could see well.

As he wore his glasses, his surroundings became more visible. He recognized the girl immediately. "Konnichiwa, Sakura-chan!"

Sakura immediately turned around and smiled at Yukito. "Konnichiwa! I hope you don't mind that I got in without permission." She approached him with a tray of food. She placed the tray in front of him and said, "The door was open so I got in."

"I see." Yukito playfully hit his forehead as he exclaimed, "I forgot to shut the door again but I'm glad I didn't." He looked at Sakura. "I'm glad you're back to the way you were. My other half's rather worried and weak." Sakura frowned and immediately apologized. Yukito answered, "It is okay. We're okay now. And look, you even made me a meal. Arigato, Sakura-chan!"

Sakura smiled. She stood up and said, "Eat up. There's still more in the kitchen if you want more." She looked at her watch. "Oh. I'm sorry, Yukito-kun, but I have to go now. It's a wee bit late and Nii-chan will be worried."

Yukito nodded and stood up as well. "Let me accompany you to the elevator." Yukito grabbed his robe and walked out with Sakura. As they approached the elevator, Yukito said, "Sakura-chan," Sakura looked at him. "Do take care of yourself."

Sakura nodded. She was happy to know that Yukito was okay. She'd never forgive herself if he wasn't. The elevator opened and she bid him goodbye again.

It was already dusk when Sakura left the building. The sky was a mixture of light purple and black. The moon and the stars were almost out. Sakura sighed and rode on her bicycle.

On her way, she suddenly saw someone she didn't expect to see. A brown-haired boy, about her age, with hazel eyes was walking toward her direction but when they crossed paths, he didn't even look at her – as if he didn't even know her.

"Syaoran…" A tear slid down her cheek, "Why?" The wind suddenly blew and her tears faded away. She continued on to her journey back home with a sad expression on her face.

Author's Note:

I have no right to leave you with a cliffhanger. I didn't even update for months due to lack of inspiration, time, and such. I actually feel the way Sakura feels – depressed because of Syaoran. (Heh, my inspiration left me wondering where the hell he is. Unfortunately, I'm not his girl so I don't have that much right to know all those things. Hehe.)

A few days of pondering and killing plot bunny eaters, I came up with this chapter. The song and depression actually killed a lot of plot bunnies. I thank Ashley Tisdale for singing that song. It's called "We'll Be Together".

Thank you to those who reviewed the last chapter. I really appreciate your reviews. XD

I can not promise that I'll update soon but I have the idea running in my head again. I know that this chapter's not that great but please do review and keep on being faithful to Confessions of Eternal Love. (I finally changed the title.) Thank you!!

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