January 19th
Dear diary.
I'm not sure how to handle the Bella-situation yet. I took the necessary precautions yesterday, trying to be nice to her. That way, I can either fake being her friend, or I can ditch her next week, making her feel bad.
I don't really feel guilty for it, I simply followed the old principle of keeping my friends close, and my enemies closer. I'm not sure if I'm going to follow through with it, though. Would it be cruel of me to do? Can I take advantage of her like that? Is it fair of me to pretend to be her friend just so I can get a share of her popularity, and possibly get Mike to finally notice me? How far am I willing to go and what am I willing to sacrifice to reach my goals?
And if I do decide to pull this off; can I handle it? I already know I'm a good actress, but am I that good?
Jessica