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I groaned softly as light started to filter into my room from my window. I didn't remember the last time I had slept so well. I quickly grabbed my pillow and placed it over my head willing for more sleep to come. That's when I heard an angelic laugh coming from somewhere in my room.
"Not funny." I croaked lifting the pillow from my face and threw it in the general direction of the laughter.
"Good morning." I opened my eyes lifting my head to find Edward sitting in the rocking chair smiling hugely. Of course my pillow hadn't even come close to hitting him.
"Ten more minutes." I muttered as I laid my head back down covering my face with my arms. Just as my head hit the bed I felt airborne. Edward had grabbed me and thrown me over his shoulder. I was too shocked to respond and I could feel him laughing under me.
"Time for breakfast." He said cheerfully. He bounded down the stairs and gently placed me in one of the kitchen chairs smiling at my expression.
"What would you like?"
"Cereal please." I was starting to wake up and my mood was improving remembering that Edward and I had the entire day to ourselves.
"What time is it?" I asked stretching my arms over my head.
"It's 9:30"
"Wow. That late." I was surprised I had slept in for so long, and that Edward was patient enough to not wake me up.
"Eat." Edward commanded as he placed a bowl of my favorite cereal in front of me. I smiled up at him thanking him and began eating happily. Edward sat across the table from me smiling watching me devour my breakfast. I still made me feel weird to have him watch me eat, so I decided to distract him.
"So what do you want to do today?" I inquired. I was up for anything as long as he was by my side.
"Well…since we are sick I thought we would stay here today, watch movies, and talk."
His last suggestion made me blush. Ti reminded me of the conversation we had yet to finish concerning boundaries. I quickly looked down trying to hide my face. When I thought it was safe to look up again I say him staring at me with humor filled eyes. He saw. I swiftly finished my breakfast and headed upstairs to get ready for he day as Edward cleaned my breakfast dishes.
I raced down the stairs tripping on the last step. Just as I was about to hit the floor two strong arms grabbed me stopping me. I looked up and smiled apologetically at Edward. He shook his head and closed his eyes. He sighed deeply "What am I going to do with you?"
He carried me to the couch and set me on his lap. I was starting to get anxious knowing he was going to start soon. There was a lot left unanswered yesterday and I knew it was driving him crazy. Edward always had to know everything. I began biting the nails on my right hand in anticipation.
"Bella I need to ask you something." He murmured softly. "I don't want you to get upset with me but I need to know. Why had you stopped eating? Why did you need be away for so long?"
I lifted my head to look into his eyes finding sadness and unease within. "I didn't do it on purpose Edward. I just wasn't hungry. I was so upset and…well…hurt. I just felt nauseas and couldn't eat. The only escape I found was sleep." I willed him with my eyes to understand and not blame himself. He was frowning and looked miserable. I tried to comfort him and continued, "Please it's not your fault. I chose not to eat. It was my choice and I promise to never do it again." I placed one of my hands on the side of his face to ease his pain. I felt his face soften under my touch but the sadness was still in his eyes.
"I stayed away for so long because I needed time to think. I wanted a chance to organize my thoughts so that I could rationally discuss the problem with you. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I never meant to. I…"
"Isabella Marie Swan." He stated cutting me off. "Do not apologize to me for needing time to think things through. I deserved far worse than what I got. I hurt you deeply and will never forgive myself for the tears I have caused you to cry." He sounded angry, but I knew it was directed inward. He turned his head form me hiding his face. "You deserve better than me." He whispered.
"Edward, look at me." I said gently. I waited patiently; soon it became clear he was not going to listen to me. I placed my hands on either side of his face trying to turn his head, but he refused to budge. "Look at me!" I said forcefully. Sighing he turned his head to me. I looked deep into his eyes trying to convey all the love I felt for him.
"You are exactly what I deserve. You are all I will ever need or want. We just had an argument. All couples do. We are in this fifty-fifty forever."
He grabbed one of my hands from off his face and raised it to his mouth lightly kissing my wrist. He intertwined his fingers with mine dropping our hands into my lap. He looked down at our hands wrapped together saying nothing for a long time. I began to gently caress his face waiting for him to speak.
"Bella I never meant to treat you as anything less than my equal. I am just so scared of loosing you that I sometimes become a little over protective." He looked dup at me and smiled apologetically and continued, "I will try my best to always consult you with decisions concerning the two of us from now on. I love you Bella, forever."
"That's all I'm asking." I whispered as I lifted my chin to place my lips to his. This kiss started out innocent, but rapidly I felt Edward un-twine our hands and place his right hand on my back with his other laid gently on the back of my head pulling me closer deepening the kiss. I was hesitant to respond. This is exactly what started the fight all those nights ago. As he grew more impatient waiting for me to reciprocate I lost all control and soon found myself lilting my arms wrapping them around his neck. To my surprise he did not pull back. I crushed my body against his as he gently laid us back on the couch with me on top of him. Our breathing had turned to panting as our lips moved urgently against each other. I felt his hands on my back as one slipped gently under my shirt and caressed my skin. I gasped and pulled away shocked by his touch. This was definitely not within the limits of his boundaries. I looked down at him to see him grinning seductively.
He shrugged his shoulders at me surprised expression. "You said you were not happy with my boundaries so I decided to try something new." He attempted to sound innocent but I could see the humor and desire in his eyes.
I tried to pull myself together. "I'm not complaining. I just wasn't expecting it, that's all." I blushed and buried my head in his chest. Why was this so hard to talk about?
He lovingly pulled my face from his chest to look into my eyes. "Bella what were you expecting? What do you want? Don't be embarrassed you can tell me anything."
Despite the comfort his words brought me I felt myself blush deeper as I answered his questions. "I want to be close to you. I want to be with you Edward." I whispered sadly. I knew it was impossible but my body ached to be with him.
"I know, and I'm sorry." He said soothingly. "I wish I could give you that Bella. I just don't see anyway that would involve you not getting hurt."
"I know. It's ok. I understand." I tried to keep the sadness out of my voice but failed.
"There are other things we can do though right? I mean just now you seemed ok."
"Yes there are other things we can do. I've just been scared to try anything beyond kissing for fear that I would lose control, and it would lead to something else and you would get hurt. There is nothing more in this world I fear more than hurting you."
"I trust you Edward. I know you would never hurt me." I said sternly trying to convince him of this fact. He chuckled humorlessly and sighed.
"So we could try more of what we just did. That seemed safe enough." I said quickly trying to distract him. I watched as his eyes lit up with humor and desire leaving all traces of sadness behind.
"Why Miss Swan are you trying to beguile me?"
"Yes I am. Is it working?" I said lightly.
He looked deep into my eyes for a long moment before he tilted his head to mine. Just before our lips met he whispered, "Always."
We spent the better part of the afternoon exploring each other, redefining our boundaries as we went along. It was one the most blissful afternoons of my life.
A/N I was thinking of ending it here. What do you think? Ideas on how I should continue? Should I continue?