Thank you all again for reading my story. It is turning out to be more popular than I ever anticipated. And as I do in every chapter I would like to thank my great readers who take the time to review: kitykat17, MeredithandDerekfanforever, greys5824, shell36799, munchkin4444, TVHollywoodDiva, pitaqueen, Lauren, emsoreoangel, IluvMerDer, desecretperson, Meredith and Derek, McsteamyIsMcGorgeous, and himmli. I am so glad you all like my story. I am trying to put a chapter on every day, especially since they are short, but I have a soccer tournament tomorrow, so I may not be able to put chapter 6 on. I will try my hardest to, but I may just collapse when I get home. we'll see. well with no further ranting, here is Chapter 5. Please review and and as always hope ya enjoy :-)

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Disclaimer: Don't own Grey's...wish I did... :-P

Chapter 5

Meredith laid silently alone in her hospital bed. She heard the door swing open, but figured it was just another annoying nurse, asking if she needed anything.

"Oh god Meredith."

She looked up and saw Christina standing in the door way.

Meredith smiled slightly. "Hey…"

Christina sat down in the chair next to Meredith's bed. "How…how did this happen?" she asked.

Meredith shrugged. "I have no idea…"

"Well where's McDreamy? Shouldn't he be in here…isn't this his thing?"

Meredith looked down and sighed. "I don't know…I haven't seen him since I came in here."

"Oh, well maybe he's busy…"

"More like keeping himself busy…" Meredith looked at the look on Christina's face. "I know you're thinking the same thing. He's probably avoiding me."

"Well…you want me to get him? I can make him come in here…"

"No…" Mer sighed. "I just wish I knew what exactly is going on. I mean why can't I go home?"

Christina watched her friend as she talked. How could she not have realized something was wrong? She was supposed to be her best friend, and she was too busy with her relationship to notice her friend had a serious illness.

The door swung open, interrupting Christina's thoughts.

"Yang…what are you doing? There are sick people out here that need your help!" Dr. Bailey said, placing her hands on her hips.

"But Dr. Bailey, Meredith is…"

"Doing just fine, lying here with out you." Dr. Bailey said, cutting her off.

Christina went to argue, but Mer put a hand on her arm. "Its okay…I' fine. Really…go." She said, trying to reassure her friend.

Christina sighed and left the room.

Dr. Bailey stayed behind. She shut the door and looked at Meredith.

"You okay Grey?" Bailey asked.

Meredith nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine…just sick of lying here." She said.

Bailey nodded. "Well you are probably better off just resting for now…"

Meredith rolled her eyes.

Bailey stood there for a moment before speaking. "Alright, well I'm going to talk to Dr. Shepherd…see what's taking so damn long for the rest of your results."

Meredith nodded and Bailey left the room.

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A little while later George and Izzie walked in.

"Hey…" Mer said; glad to see someone visit her again.

"How are you doing?" George asked, sitting down next to her.

"Good as can be expected I guess." she said. She looked up and saw that Izzie was pacing again.

"Hey Izz…you can sit…"

"No…I'm okay" Izzie said.

Mer sighed and looked at George. "So is it busy out there today?"

George shook his head. "No…not really."

"So…Derek's not in surgery or anything?"

George looked at her strangely. "No…I thought he was in here all day with you…I haven't seem him."

Mer was a little surprised. "Really…I wonder where he is." She looked at Izzie, then back at George. "Are you sure he's not in surgery?"

George nodded. "Yeah I'm sure."

Meredith tried thinking. "Where could he be?" she thought. Suddenly she felt the sharp pain in her head again. She put a hand to her head and groaned.

"Mer are you alright?" George asked.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine. Those just…really hurt." She said.

"Is there anything I can get you?" he asked, looking at her sadly.

"Yeah…my boyfriend." She said sarcastically. "Wait Izz…" she said, looking up at Izzie. "You must know where he is, He's your attending."

Izzie looked at her, wanting to tell her…wanting to blurt everything out, but somehow thought she couldn't. Izzie looked at her sadly, shrugged, and then looked away.

Mer looked at George hopefully, but he just stared back at her sadly. Mer suddenly just lost it. "Why does everyone keep looking at me like you just killed my dog? What the hell is going on?" she yelled.

Izzie looked at Mer, her eyes welling with tears. "Meredith…your tumor…its…it's in the Thalamus…its…" she paused, wiping tears from her face. "They say its inoperable." She paused again, looking Meredith in the eyes. "It's malignant."