Everything seemed so strange to Taylor. She felt as though if she had lost control over her body. There was no way she could fight to regain control though; she was heavily medicated after her seizure. She looked so frail lying in the hospital bed. The monitors and ventilator still beeped and clicked. She knew she was still alive, but she couldn't feel anything. It was like she was watching herself die. There was a familiar voice in the room.

"Adam?" She asked herself.

She hadn't really talked to her brother since her father's funeral.

Adam took her hand as he sat in a chair beside her bed.

"Hey there little sis." He said. "It's time to wake up now. You've got us all worried sick."

She thought to herself, "How long have I been out? What day is it? What's wrong, why can't I wake up?"

"Come on. I can't stand seeing you like this." He continued, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all of the times that I faulted you for following Dad. I still wish you hadn't because then you wouldn't be where you are right now. But I'm sorry for all of the things I said to you. Just please come back to us."

Taylor was shocked. When Adam decided to be a nurse she made fun of him. But after being in the hospital and being cared for by them, she wanted to say that she was sorry.

"What's he saying he's sorry for? I'm the one who should be sorry for doubting him when he became a nurse- I can see why he did now." Taylor said

"I have to go now Alex, but I'll be back to check on you. I promise that I'm not going anywhere. None of us are." Adam kissed her forehead and left the room as quietly as he came in.

"I have got to wake up!" Taylor urged herself.

It had been over a week since Taylor's fall. The firehouse was slowly returning to a state of normalcy. It wasn't the same without Taylor around.

"I miss her." Lombardo said

"I think all of us do." Walsh replied, "It's just not the same without her making fun of someone."

"We're getting a fill-in" Jimmy said

"Yeah probably some probie fresh out of the academy." DK said sarcastically

"I can't bare the thought." Lombardo replied

"Glad that I ain't going in." Walsh cracked

"Well they gotta learn sometime." Jimmy replied

"Listen to you being okay with the thought of a probie being your partner." Lombardo said

Jimmy had a hint of arrogance in his voice when he replied, "Hey, they gotta learn from the best."

"Just don't send them through the floor like you did Taylor." DK said under his breath

"What'd you say?" Jimmy asked in anger

"You heard me." DK replied

Jimmy rushed at DK. DK caught Jimmy before he could get the advantage. Walsh and Lombardo quickly grabbed Jimmy.

"Cool it Jimmy!" Walsh said

"Don't you dare blame Taylor's accident on me!" Jimmy yelled as they pulled him away

Lt. Johnson had heard the commotion and came out of his office.

"What the hell is going on out here?" Lt. Johnson ordered

"Just a little rift Lieu, it's ok." Lombardo replied

"This is not the time for little "rifts" to occur in MY firehouse. I'm already down one firefighter and I'm not going to have everyone else bickering and fighting. You guys are a family, a team, and if you can't hold it together how much good is that going to do? In case you all have forgotten, you all need each other." Lt. Johnson chastised

Everyone stood and looked at him.

"Taylor would be angry with you guys fighting like little school boys. That was no one's fault, just bad luck. If you have to blame someone for the accident, blame me. And if you want to fight, join a boxing club because you're not doing it in my firehouse!" Lt. Johnson said before he turned around and walked back into his office.

The guys just stood and looked at each other silently. Walsh grabbed a towel and went down the stairs.

Kim and Carlos returned from a call. Kim saw Walsh feverishly polishing the chrome on the squad. As Carlos walked upstairs, Kim walked over to Walsh.

"Want to talk about it?" She asked softly

Walsh just continued to polish the chrome.

"Billy, it's not easy on any of us." Kim said

Walsh stopped and stood up.

"I'm worried about her Kim." Walsh said

"We all are." Kim replied

"Is there any change?" He asked, knowing that Kim had gone up to see her while she was at the hospital.

"No, she's still in the coma. They are hoping that she'll snap out of it." Kim replied

"But can she?" Walsh asked

"I think she will. Taylor's too determined to die now, not on those terms anyway." Kim replied

"Do they think that the seizure did much damage?" Walsh asked

"It's too soon to tell." Kim replied

The conversation got interrupted when the alarm sounded.

"Squad 5-5, Adam 5-5-3 respond for an MVC 123 and Lexington." It called

"Duty calls." Kim said dryly

"Yep." Walsh said as he put on his gear

"I've got a woman trapped in here!" Taylor yelled as she looked through the iron bars at the panicked woman. "No! Don't do that!"

Taylor tried to stop the woman from breaking the window, but it was too late. The room flashed over with the new influx of oxygen. Taylor felt helpless.

This had been some first day at her new assignment. She felt like the outcast. Now there was a woman who died because she couldn't get in to save her in time. She looked down to the ground and then slowly made her way to the front of the house.

Later, outside she was attempting to start the saw.

"It pulls hard." Jimmy said

"Thanks." Taylor replied

"You were right about Danny." Jimmy added, "I didn't want to believe you at first, but you're right."

"Thanks, I think." Taylor replied

"Give 'um time, they'll warm up to you." Jimmy said of the guys

"They don't have a choice." Taylor smiled

"See you later." Jimmy added

"You take care of yourself Jimmy." Taylor said

"I'll be back in no time." He smiled as he walked towards Brooke's waiting car.

Taylor watched as they drove off, then she put the saw back on the Squad.

"They'll warm up to me because I'm not giving up." She said to herself

"I CAN'T give up!" Taylor thought. "I have to wake up!"

With that she struggled to open her eyes. It took a few moments before she could manage to get both eyes open at once. Then she slowly looked around the room, making eye contact with the nurse who had come in to look over her chart.

"You're awake." The nurse said surprised

Taylor weakly nodded her head.

"I need a doctor in here!" The nurse yelled out.