(A/N) Even though I didn't get too many reviews for this last time I'm still updating... why? Because I'm always in the mood to write FullMetal Alchemist fanfictions. I swear it's addicting. Anyways I'll get on with it...
I woke to an annoying tapping on my window. I rolled over and tried to ignore it. It kept tapping. Persistant-
Wait... why was something...
Suddenly I shot out of bed realizing it was Ed waiting for me to get up. I raced to the window and opened it up. "Edward!" I exclaimed in my excited but tired voice "Sorry I didn't realize it was you."
He tilted his head and looked at me "Who else would it be... don't most people use the doorbell?" he had a point.
"Be right back." I smiled and raced to my closet. Today was going to be awesome. I just knew it. Edward always came to my window to wake me up on days we went places.
Well everyday we went somewhere, but I mean special places. Like our favorite place ever, Crystal Lake. The Lake was only a few miles from our neighborhood and we go there several times during the summer.
I put on shorts boots and a tank top. I brushed my hair out real quick and put it up. I turned to the window and nodded at Edward, as if to say I'll meet you outside. I raced through the kitchen and said good morning to my mother.
"And where are the little adventurers going today?" she said cheerfully.
"Oh I don't know." I grinned "But I'm thinking Crystal Lake would be good."
"Alright," she reached for her purse "I'll give you my car keys."
"Mom!" I scolded her "You know we aren't going to drive to the lake."
She sighed "You and your strange habits..."
Everytime we went to the lake we rode Ed and Al's ATVs. Which is AWESOME might I add.
This year I was mad that Al had totally ditched us, yet more excited than ever that I get to ride his ATV, since my dad never let me buy one. (It was something about me being a hazard to humanity or somthing.)
I swung open the door, and there was Ed sitting on his ATV. Just like I had imagined the moment I saw him out the window this morning. I could see it in his eyes, tokday would rock.
"Hey don't I get to use Alphonse's-" "No." Ed commanded "You're going to ride on the back of mine same as always."
"Oh come on-" I started but he stopped me almost instantaniously "No. I remember letting you try to ride it before. Al and I chased after you for 15 minutes as you rode through mud, almost drove into the lake three times, and hit a tree. And I still to this day, refuse to let you drive me in a car anywhere."
I laughed remembering how fun that day was. I would have protested more but I wanted to get to the lake. I really was impatient back then.
I climbed onto the back and held my arms around him saying "Let's go!"
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When Winry and I had gotten to the lake she seemed beyond hyper, I swear. It was like she'd had six bowls of lucky charms this morning or something.
Anyway, we ran around looking for things that had changed over the school year. Usually the only changes were trees growing taller, or more flowers in one area and less in another.
Then I spotted it. The best climbing tree there was. I raced over and jumped on the branches and started climbing. "Hey! Wait for me!" Winry yelled from below. "Come on clumsy," I teased "let's see if you can climb higher than me for once."
She accepted the challenge and started climbing. When I reached as high as I could go I look down at her as she scurried up. "Hey," I called to her "did you become catwoman over the year? You're climbing faster than ever."
"Are you sure it's not because you became sloth man?" She yelled back. We loved to tease eachother. It was really fun. I kind of felt guilty that Alphonse wasn't here to enjoy it too.
Winry startled me when she'd reached as high as I got. She was practically out of breath though. "Don't climb any higher.." I told her "you're getting really tired and you shouldn't wear yourself out."
She sat down and leaned up against me. "Yeah you're right..." Luckily she'd closed her eyes, otherwise she would have seen my blushing face. It always sucked at moments like this. Ones where I wanted to just scream at her that she was a ditz for not noticing how I felt about her. But somehow it never seemed like the right time.
Besides I didn't want to inconveniance her with my feelings. She didn't feel the way I had for a long time and I was just going to deal with it.
But then I remembered... I remembered I'd never get an oppourtunity like this again. This was the last summer I'd have with her... it could even be the last time I ever saw her. "Winry I-.." I started talking but stopped myself. It wasn't the right time... maybe later... I'd put it off yet again.
"Hm?" She looked up at me confused.
"Nothing." I said looking down at the ground "Nothing at all."
She got a sort of concerned look on her face. "No it's alright. Nothings wrong." I told her. She was so easy to read.
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Whatever Ed was about to say kept bugging me... mostly because I had absolutely no clue what it was about. He just kinda stared off at nothing for the next few minutes and all I did was stare at him.
Finally I broke the silence "Hey, let's go swimming."
He looked at me and pointed at a sign down below "Remember that. You know, the thing you shove my face into everytime I say we should swim. The no swimming sign, remember it?"
"Of course I remember it..." I said "but.. I think just once wont hurt." I smiled at him.
He smiled back "Alright, let's go!"
After climbing down the tree it hit me. Dammit. I didn't bring a bathing suit. I shouldn't have suggested such a thing without thinking first. I was such an idiot.
While reflecting on my own idiocy Edward was pulling off his shirt and taking off his shoes. My first thought was about Guys being lucky they could just take their shirts off. But my mind quickly averted to the fact that Ed always looked good without a shirt.
I finally quit my gawking after he jumped in. I stood there for a moment. Ah screw it I thought, took off my boots, pulled off my shirt and shorts and dove in. I really was thankful I hadn't seen Edwards face, knowing it probably would have been embarassing.
I told myself that it wasn't like I was wearing anything any different than a bathing suit, though my mind wouldn't listen.
After swimming around and occasionally splashing eachother I swam up next to him and looked him straight in the eyes.
I thought to myself that maybe the reason he was always in my thoughts was that... I loved him... then realizing what I was thinking I pushed the thoughts away. I couldn't. I wouldn't. No matter what I couldn't let my feelings get in the way of having a good summer.
Besides it wouldn't matter anyway. In a few months he'd be gone again... and so would I. It would just cause us both more pain... if I'd told him... if I'd told him something I wasn't even sure of myself...
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It bugged me just watching her tred water in front of me. It bugged me how I kept trying to say something my mouth would form the words. And most of all it bugged me that I'd never be able to tell her how I felt.
I knew that no matter how I said it, I'd regret it. It would hurt me if she didn't love me back. And it would hurt her if she did... because saying goodbye would just be more painful.
Right then I told myself I was glad she didn't love me... because she was better off that way... or so I thought.
(A/N) GEEZ! What an emo way to end things... anyway, that was a pretty long chapter for me... but I have an idea for the next one so I'll update pretty fast. BUT PLEASE REVIEW! I reeeeally love reviews. REALLY LOVE OKAY? So make me happy and leave a review... or else. -Glare-