Long Authors Note:

g0thic-angel - Yup, Kai was - well a complete an utter cold bastard to his friends - though you're probably wondering why? Well you see... Actually I don't want to start giving anything away just yet. It's much too near the start of the fic to be handing out clues. I'm sure once I have more chapters up everyone will start to fit the pieces together of this 'mystery.'

The little blue book, shall I tell or shall I not... Nah!

the voodoo doll... Yeah though try to keep little Kai alive - just so I can end the fic and all. Thanks for the long review.

BlackSpirit - I'm glad you're so… how do you say... Enthusiastic for the next chapter also known as this chapter heh heh. Well thanks for the review!

Izolda - Yup Kai freaked... I think it goes well with the chapter title 'Freak Out!' I actually didn't plan to put this chapter up so soon - I was waiting to see where I could place the whole scene, then I thought. Why not make it a whole chapter on its own. Thanks for reviewing!

Nameless Little Girl - Yah! I done another good chapter. Sorry if this chapter was a little longer on being uploaded. Way too many essays in school nowadays!! Hope you enjoy this chapter as much!

DancerInTheDark101 - Another long review. I'm confusing people? ... That wasn't meant.

-Tries to hold back laughter- Yeah I love confusing people and I love adding twists into any story I write. Ah a question! That I can actually answer!

Ok so here's the answer to the questions you asked, and if anyone else is confused I won't sue you in reading the following below...

Well in the diary of 'Unknown person,' (I'm still not going to tell you who it is... ) their view is that Kai had died and had decided to go to the funeral - which all of the family attended to. Though the owner of the book - had been fooled into thinking Kai was dead when he wasn't really. So when Enya brought her son back (From hiding) - the owner of the diary found out. So, no Kai didn't die. He was just hidden from the owner of this diaries' view. Hence why on one of the dairy entries the owner goes into a rant.

As for the BladeBreakers; well only a short while ago, there deepest darkest secrets had just been yelled at them and the other members. The probably wanted to avoid any discussion that involved, 'that's a confusing and horrible family,' just in case a 'did that really happen?' question came up about their own.

If anyone is confused about something I write tell me - I'll try to answer if it doesn't give away too much of the plot. Enjoy this chapter.

Chapter 9

Kai just had locked himself in his room, and was unsure of the burning feeling at the back of his throat and eyes. He'd never cried very much until a few months ago - why had things ended up like this? Why did he have to shout those things, like an immature child? He had known those things for years but as it was none of his business he had kept quiet. Why did he feel so pathetic and so…? Stupid.

What had they done to deserve that - he had just turned into a hypocrite - he hated people knowing things about him and going around spreading them… He'd just shouted such horrible, such… Spiteful things…

Kai hung his head - in shame and anger at what he had just done, he was considering about apologising but what would stop them from turning around and screaming in his face.

Would they ever forgive him? He certainly wouldn't, what could he do? Things were getting worse and worse for him, and it kept coming to Kai's mind that it was him how was the problem child, the one that doesn't do anything but… Ruin things.

He hadn't noticed it before but - he felt… Real. Even when he had made some form of friendship with Kai he had always - been far away; never really feeling part of anything. Even when everyone laughed he would only find it amusing and then dismiss whatever was being told. He had always been so far away - so why was it now… That he felt, so different that things that he did say would and did matter.

"I'm…I've got to calm down." he muttered into himself - he never had had to try to calm himself down like this in along time, he couldn't think of anything else to do… He didn't have it in himself to go and say sorry - he was nothing but a lowly coward.

Out in the garden where the BladeBreakers were having an awkward time trying to decode and translate the book Kai had told them they could read. He had calmed down and had let them take something that; the BladeBreakers were sure held a lot of secrets.

Everyone was hurt - mostly Kenny and Rei since they had told Kai willingly and had made him promise not to breathe a word of it. Rei was getting the vibe of just getting up and leaving would make Kai colder and cruller if he were to rejoin a team. Kenny was shaken, but still he did not want to leave; since he had seen the worry on his captains' face. He knew something must have been wrong, to make him drop all of his defences so suddenly and to such a high extent.

For what Tyson knew; or all of them knew so far that someone, who ever the diary's owner was, had tried to kill the family; and also had some partnership and hatred of the Navia family. So all they could guess was that it was Voltaire's… Of course the question arose, that if it was Voltaire's, why would he leave a book that had instructions to make a bitbeast in a house he was no longer allowed to come near. The fact was that Voltaire had no idea how to make a bitbeast and that was why he had tailed the BladeBreakers for so long…

So there was a point - that Max finally concluded that maybe, someone else had missed.

"Guys, It said on Wednesday 7th April that 'she' would pay… you know that Voltaire blew up the cars that contained Kai's family… Just to have Kai to himself."

"Yeah…"

"Well… doesn't it appear a little bit strange that he had Kai and Aton at one point all to himself because the rest of the family were away at church? If he was so happy about the idea of the Abbey he could have taken them both there and then!" The other teens looked around at each other, it was true - if Voltaire was the owner and founder of the Abbey why couldn't he just kidnapped Kai and Aton there and then like Max had pointed out?

"So if this isn't Voltaire's diary then…" Rei looked at Kenny who was still getting Dizzi to translate the strange and mysterious book from Russian into English. At least then they would all be able to understand the contents of it.

"…Who's is it?" Kenny nodded as if he understood the situation perfectly; he had thought it may have been someone else it wasn't something Voltaire would do - keeping a diary and whatnot. There was a silence which was not for the first time in the past few hours that was not filled with awkward tension.

"Some one else, that's gone utter bonkers in the family I guess." Tyson sighed and stood up; he had ended up thinking that maybe Kai would do something stupid in his emotional state.

The others appeared to know what Tyson was worrying about and decided to stop the research on the strange journal. They all jumped up and Kenny closed his laptop and they all walked inside - trying to find once again where their captain had gone.

Second time lucky. They hoped.

It was around evening and the three female figures began to pack their things ready to move one to another quiet and secure place. They had become used to packing many clothes into a tiny space and neither of them seemed to be upset about the leave.

"Milady?" Selene stopped packing and looked over at the oldest and wisest of the group wondering when she would be brave enough to go back.

The woman continued to pack, but gave a cheery smile and looked up to meet Selene's eye. Lita had stopped suddenly and decided to hear what they would be discussing.

"Yes Selene?" The woman hummed a melody to herself wondering if she should have put the larger things in first.
"I think it's time you meet up with everyone." Selene looked worried and bowed her head she didn't really know this woman they had never met but - communicated through others, letters and calls. The Abbey was a scary place and the punishment for disobedience was high, Selene awaited her punishment for saying something so boldly.

The woman smiled again, and stopped her packing and looked between the two girls. A large grin appeared onto her face making the two girls relax more.

"Do you think?" Again the woman looked between the two girls hoping one of them would answer her question. She didn't know that the two girls had been planning the little charade; just too wind her up unfortunately it was going quite the opposite.

"Don't worry we'll get Adonis out of the house." Selene muttered glancing over at Lita who looked back more than puzzled. The woman was confused she shook her head and asked another question.

"Why would we need him out of the house?" She frowned as a thought came across her mind, had these two gone away and planned something all by themselves?

"So he doesn't distract you." Lita grinned and heard a small chuckled come from Selene - it wasn't rare to hear her chuckle or even laugh it was an actual smile that was hard to see upon her face.

The woman burst out laughing finding the small joke very funny, she shook her head in an attempt to try and stop her laughter.

"Oh you! You two are unbelievable!"

After a moment of chuckling and laughing it stopped; and they were all packing again. Lita wasn't too sure that she should ask about her uncertainties.
"Why… How did you know about…? Kai's reactions." Selene's head snapped around and the oldest woman looked up with a serious face.

"How so?" The woman came closer until she was sitting next to Lita on her own small bed.
"You know… Him being more emotional and trusting and stuff." She looked down at her hands; in her left she was grasping Dranzer the famous bitbeast that belonged to none other than Kai Hiwatari himself. Her grip tightened he had looked - different somehow.

"You want to really know?" Selene came closer in hope to hear the exact details of what was happening to Kai and his locked up emotions.
"Yes, Milady." Lita nodded; Selene felt worse about the fact that here Lita was trying to help and understand Kai when she had… Well, taken an advantage of Sota's disappearance.

"Well, when Kai was taken away by… Voltaire, for the Abbey. You should know about that place Selene." The woman stared back at Selene who was in a place of denial and hate but quickly she recovered by looking at her guardian in the eye.

"Yeah."

"Anyway, I don't know if I can explain that situation… Selene? Think you can help?" Selene walked over and also sat on the camped bed; Lita had hated Selene and the feelings were mutual but over the last few months as they had worked together more. They were now mutate-enemies.

There was a short silence as Selene had no where and had no idea how to start; it was hard to remember but even harder to put into words.

"People in the Abbey were given steroids and other drugs to help keep them strong and - keep some from not venting too much anger on the prison guards stuff like that."

Lita gasped; she hadn't known too much of the Abbey and what it had done, all she knew was the reason why Kai and some others were so cold and withdrawn was because of the place.
"When the drugs were found out to have harmful things in them, the Abbey stopped using them as it made the children and other prisoners, obsolete. There were around fifty people that were tested with emotional-chips."

Lita knew what Selene was heading towards but she wanted to make sure she wasn't getting ahead of herself.

"Does Kai have one of them?"

This was when Selene had no idea what to say, however she was saved discomfort when the adult came and started explaining things.
"No…He had three implanted - over the years they have each been dying and rotting away." The woman sighed sadly hoping Lilita would understand.

"How?" Lita wanted to know each and every detail; her brain hungered for knowledge and wanted to know every little detail as possible as why Kai was as cold as he was.

The woman sighed once more and went off into a large lecture about why and how Kai was acting so differently.

"The chips themselves are implanted by, a gun - much like of a staple gun…So when they attach onto, the organs of the body they plan to stay there as long as possible. The chips are lodged onto Kai's brain stem. The place were nerves and other impulses pass through daily, in fact every second or less, so because the chips are metallic themselves they are malfunctioning inside Kai's head. Making him more emotional and confused."

Lita and Selene blinked and looked at each hoping that it would help the information given, sink in. Lita squinted her eyes thoughts and questions were annoying her into staying silent for a short while.

"So the reason why he's getting a little better at communicating is because his emotional chips are dying off?" Lita said slowly hoping that she would not look like a complete fool in front of two people she respected.
"Precisely." The eldest woman smiled meanwhile the other just nodded.

"Did he really make Voltaire go crazy?" Lita whispered another thought that had occupied her since the return flight back over to the boarders.
"Yes… I'm afraid he did - but that's what happens when you're in love with someone."

"What when they're killed - used as a bitbeast - and thrown back in your face with a laugh and smirk? Of course Enya." Selene spat she didn't like this part of Enya - she was weak, and so strong at the same time - she could forgive so easily!
"Silence Selene." Enya snapped; she didn't like to me strict on teenagers she did not know by anytime they had this conversation someone would always end up shouting out and causing unnecessary fuss.

Lita stayed silent as she knew if she said anything she would end up being on the wring side either way - she didn't want to be shouted at, she hated to be shouted at.

"He…won't die or anything." She muttered stopping the glaring session and turning back to the girl now hugging her legs on the bed.

"I will be honest… There is a possibility…. But very slim." Enya sighed as she saw the distress in each of the girls faces. They had never been told that they would have to befriend someone that could collapse and die at any moment because of some metal chip.

Lita gripped the beyblade in her hand tighter and tighter using the pain that shot up her arm as a way to stop crying.

"So why don't we tell him then instead of just sitting here?" She yelled; failing in keeping a tear from sliding down her cheek. Selene's eyes relaxed and tried to say something that would make everything better but she could not do anything.

"It would be like… Giving someone…A collar all their life and expect them to take it off without being told to." Enya knew that Kai depended on being cold and cruel… Not trusting anyone. He'd survived the Abbey emotionally because the chips held the memories and horrible emotions that came with them. If they were all to stop working so suddenly Kai would start feeling depressed and start remembering everything.

"W-what?" Lita stuttered unsure of what to even say.
"Kai depends on the chips - he has never used emotion for very long, they have always made sure of that. Only hate and anger have been the ones to get through. He will end up doing things he shouldn't just to try and feel the same - coldness…" Selene continued she thought that anyone could understand the fact of the Abbey and emotions.

"Why would someone do that? If…. If he had to choose emotions I'm sure he would pick them instead…. Instead… of being cold."

Enya looked saddened by what Lita had said - she knew anyone would love to have emotions and be able to feel happy. Kai was not that normal, he'd been abused in many ways - he liked not to have or feel emotions. Enya tried to explain again to the crying teenager.

"I'm afraid he'll be terrified of the feelings he may be going through. Sota, Aton has been admitted into hospital and both are in critical condition. Aton had only returned to the family ever so suddenly as did Adonis. He'll be swimming in emotions." Enya looked around, finding the mobile that she would use to contact Selene and Lita on a later date.

"Why… Why can't we go back then?" Lita yelled once again, she wanted to know why no one could just find the main problem; shove them all in jail and let Kai and his family live happily.
"If I appear out of no where what do you think Kai would do?" Enya raised an eyebrow and watched as the teen stopped answering back; "Freak." Selene added.

"Yes. We need to be logical about this Lita." The girl still sitting on the bed was now sobbing she did not want to be apart of his anymore she didn't want to see Kai getting hurt again and again.

"Do you understand Lilita?" Enya said in a serious tone; lifting her own packed bag off one of the beds.
"Yes… Milady." Lita muttered and started to pack again, she took the beyblade out of her hand and noticed that the beyblade had almost broken her skin, small purple dots and lines covered the palm of her hand.

"Why do you care?" Selene gave a questioning glance at the girl who was trying to hold back tears; there was something too emotional about the girl that made Selene unsettled.
"Why do you not?" Lita shot back.
"Whatever." Selene shook her head and walked off; Lita didn't need to know and it was one of those things… Did she really want to find out?

Authors Note: Yeah… A bit easy to guess that that woman was Enya… Also I hoped that the explanation for Kai's behaviour was reasonable. Sorry I didn't update for a while. School Sucks. Period! Anyway sorry for anyone who was wanting a HUGE chapter but… Writers block and lack of inspiration are hitting me as I have to hand in about three essays so I'm drained at the moment. I promise… I will make next chapter so much longer… Please Review!