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Everything I Wanted

Chapter 5: Getting Away with Murder

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness

I need to calculate

What creates my own madness

And I'm addicted to your punishment

And you're the master

And I am waiting for disaster

It hurt, his skin felt like it was on fire, and his breath came in harsh gasps in the silent room. Duo lay listlessly on the floor, his hands still chained together in front of him, not that he had the strength to move, not that he wanted to. For hours that woman had taken out her anger on him, he had lost count on how many times she hit him. The hours and days seemed to slip by unnoticed until he could no longer tell how long he'd been in that hell.

The door swooshed open as amethyst eyes blinked in the harsh light. Standing in the doorway was his torturer, that hateful woman, with that all knowing smirk on her face. Duo groaned and slowly pushed himself up. He refused to look weak in front of this woman, not give her what she wanted. He suppressed a groan as his body protested him moving. He knew he had at least a few broken ribs, but those were probably the least of his worries right now.

"How do you do it?" She was kneeling in front of him; he blinked in surprise as how slow his reaction time was. "Men have broken under less, so why do you still hold on? Their not going to come for you, no one is." Her voice was cruel and it shook him to the bone. Do not show her weakness…

Duo smirked up at her painfully. At least he could do this still, fake that everything was going in his favor, fake that her words didn't affect him like they did. "Lady I don't need help getting away from your group of losers." Tired shoulders rose painfully in a shrug as Duo tried to look like the splintering pain wasn't bothering him. "I just haven't got anything better to do. Though I think it would be more fun being hit by someone more pretty."

The hit came hard and fast, knocking the already injured boy against the cool metal wall with a resounding smack. Duo bit his cheek hard to stop from crying out in pain, he wouldn't give her that satisfaction. Then she was there, kicking him wherever she saw an opening, damaging broken ribs farther and breaking some new ones to go with them. When she was done she was panting heavily, her eyes crazy as she stared into the defiant amethyst pools clouded in pain staring back at her. The eyes of someone who wouldn't, and couldn't be broken no matter how hard she tried.

"Why?"

Duo started in surprise, staring at the woman above him. "Why what?" At least talking was better than her hitting him, talking he could do.

"Why won't you give up? Is it this determination that sets you above us? Is this why you're a Gundam pilot?"

His vision was starting to blur around the edges as he smiled up at the woman. "Lady, this has nothing to do with determination. And it has nothing to do with being a Gundam pilot."

"Then why?"

"Because," Duo closed his eyes as he felt the darkness take him. "Even if it's painful, even if it's hopeless. I still want to believe in them this one last time; my heart won't let me do anything else."

Minagi Kizu stared down at the silent boy. She knew he wasn't dead by the slight rising and falling in his chest. And rage filled her, she quickly spun and walked out of the room, slamming and locking the door behind her. She turned to leave then stopped; turning pack to the door she opened the control panel and turned the temperature in the room down to 0 degrees. Feeling no more satisfied she turned and left.

Her thoughts spun as she walked down the hall. How could she be so utterly defeated by that boy? She had done what she had set out to do and yet she felt no happiness. This was supposed to be her revenge, this was supposed to set her free of the guilt and regret that had been shadowing her for the last 10 years. But now she felt more guilt then ever, but there was no turning back. She had promised to kill the boy who had caused their downfall, and her promise was almost complete. But this wasn't how it was supposed to be!

She slammed her fist into the wall. What made that boy so special, what made him so real? He never gave up; the fire never left his eyes no matter what she did to him. Maybe, just maybe if they had someone like him with them, things would have gone differently back then. She was jarred from her thoughts as an explosion rocked the building.

I feel irrational

So confrontational

To tell the truth I am

Getting away with murder

It isn't possible

To never tell the truth

But the reality is I'm getting away with murder

Heero stalked through the silent halls and slipped into an empty room. He was waiting for a sign, waiting for the bombs Quatre had set to go off. After Relena had given them the woman's name it had almost been disgustingly easy to find the warehouse she had rented. She didn't even try to cover her trail, didn't even use a fake name, but then again it could have been a trap. So they had sat down and planned. Heero had to suppress the urge to fidget through the whole meeting, he knew where Duo was, and he could go save him right then. But Quatre had insisted on a plan, and even though Heero was impatient deep down he knew it was the best way to go.

But that didn't stop the random thoughts from popping up in his head, Duo being tortured or worse, Duo being killed. The ex-pilot gripped the gun he held even tighter. He and Wufei had been the ones to volunteer to go in while Quatre and Trowa set up a diversion outside. It was important that they find Duo.

Suddenly a tremor shook the building and Heero leaned against the door as he heard rapid footsteps run by. Waiting for it to be clear he slipped out of the room and started running down the corridor in the opposite direction.

I drink my drink and I don't even want to

I think my thoughts when I don't even need to

I never look back cause I don't even want to

And I don't need to

Because I'm getting away with murder

Duo woke up and shivered. The room was decently colder then when he had passed out and he wondered how long he had been out. Ignoring the pain Duo slowly curled up into a ball, he smiled at the ironic situation he was in. Back when they were prisoners on the moon he, Heero and Wufei had been in a situation similar to this. His body was shivering involuntarily now; he pulled his braid around and hugged it to his chest.

He could feel his body still shivering but he couldn't feel the cold anymore. Duo knew he had to move, had to keep is body from going completely numb, but he was so tired. Every time he closed his eyes it was getting harder and harder to open them. The only thing that seemed to be working was his mind, memories flashed before his eyes. Solo, the church, meeting G, piloting Deathsycthe, meeting the other guys, falling in love. Unwillingly a single tear slipped down his cheek and he didn't even have the strength to brush it away.

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness

I need to calculate

What creates my own madness

And I'm addicted to your punishment

And you're the master

And I am craving this disaster

This isn't how I wanted it to end. Someone once told me that not everyone in the world can be happy, and that happiness is different for each person. So am I being selfish to just want that happiness to continue? Haven't I lost enough already, or am I never allowed to stay happy? I started out just wanted to protect them, but I couldn't handle it, not seeing them everyday, not being able to touch or talk to them. It was driving me crazy, because the more I tried to not think of them and try to move on, the more I ended thinking of them. I didn't want much, I just wanted to be with them, and maybe I am selfish after all…

I feel irrational

So confrontational

To tell the truth I am

Getting away with murder

It isn't possible

To never tell the truth

But the reality is I'm getting away with murder

Heero turned the corner into a new hallway just as Wufei turned the corner from the other way. Both stopped as they spotted the woman standing in the middle of the hall in front of a large metal door. In her hand she held gun, but instead of point at either of them it was pointed at herself. He stopped to analyze the situation, all the other soldiers he had encountered had fired on him at sight but this woman was not. And then she turned to look at him and his eyes narrowed. It was the woman that had stolen Duo from them. His eyes flickered to the door at the woman's' back and back to the gun in her hand. Duo was in that room, he could almost physically feel it.

"You pilots are really amazing you know." She said almost to herself. Heero saw Wufei watching her warily from the other end of the hall. "No matter what I did he never gave up, he never stopped believing in you, having hope. Maybe if we had resolve and hope like him we could have succeeded. But we were all so bitter and hateful, the fault was our own." She turned and Heero shivered as her eyes met his. "If he survives tell that boy that I am sorry, and he can be happy now." Before he even thought to move she had raised the gun to her head and fired. Heero watched her lifeless body slump to the floor and blood began to pool. If he survives…

His head snapped up and his body was in motion, running toward the door even as her words had sunk in. Wufei reached it first, his pale face showing he had also heard her words. The Chinese boy slammed his gun into the panel, breaking it and the door whooshed open with a gust of cold air. And for what seemed like the hundredth time Heero felt his heart stop for a second. A second later he was in motion.

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness

I need to calculate

What creates my own madness

The first thing to register for Duo was quieted voices. The second was the fact that he was warm, at least slightly warmer but his body was still shaking against his will. Suddenly he was jarred and the pain came crashing back all at once. He cried out in pain, unable to hold it back. His whole body hurt, he was so tired and physically exhausted.

"Duo…Duo?"

Warmth flooded him from the front and back and he reach for it, yearned for the comforting warmth. His head was slightly lifted and gently placed on something warm; Duo pressed his cold cheek into the warmth, burrowing closer to it. Tendrils of warmth encased him and he let out a sigh, giving in to temptation and slipping back into the darkness.

It isn't possible

To never tell the truth

Quatre looked into the back of the truck when he heard Duo groan in pain. The braided boy was wrapped in blankets but his shivering was still visible. Heero and Wufei kneeled beside the Duo calling his name softly.

"Guys you're going to have to keep him warm until we get home, lie with him in between you, which should work for now."

Both boys nodded in understanding and Wufei lay down in front of him while Heero lay down behind him. They both scooted together until Duo was huddled between them, his head resting on Wufei's arm. Quatre let a small smile slip as he heard Duo sigh in contentment.

(THE END?)

Well it's the end for now….So Duo has been saved. But is the damage already done? And will he forgive Heero and Wufei? You're just going to have to read on to find out.