Sakura: OMG THANK YOU FOR THE REVIEWS!
Junsui: o.o;;
Harushi: omg, she's actually updating.
Sakura: Yes, I finally figured out how to start out the fic. Though right now as I am writing this, I can't decide whether or not to make this chap a songfic chap.
Junsui: I guess you'll find out later on in the fic?Sakura: Probably...
Harushi: Ne Saku-Chan were you scared when that Tropical Storm hit last week?
Sakura: NO SHIT WAS I SCARED!
Junsui: Girls, your getting off topic -.- ;;
Sakura: o.o;; Right...ahem... Well On wit da fic.
Chapter 4: It's My Life
Skin touched skin as Kagome breathed in hot breaths as his hands roamed her petite body. She moaned loudly as he cupped her heat, inserting a finger. They kissed passionately and hungrily. As they parted lips Kagome stared into those eyes, oh, those golden eyes that stared at her in lust. Those golden eyes, that silvery-white hair. How she lusted after him... how she hated him.
Kagome sat up in a cold sweat. That dream, she had that dream again. Though it didn't go as far as it usually went, she had that dream. She sighed in deep anger as her thoughts went to him. Damn him to seventh level of hell, damn HIM!
Kagome looked around her room as she noticed that it was already morning. And damn did she have a headache. She looked around the room and noticed beer bottles scattered across the room. 'Damn, drank too much again.' she thought groggily. She staggered from the bed and headed towards the bathroom, almost tripping on the way there. Halfway there, she decided she was on break today and headed back to her bed to sleep.
'Aah, sleep goooooood' she thought happily as she laid back in bed. Kagome was about to fall asleep to head to the little world where you could drink all you wanted and never had a hangover, until the door to her bedroom proceeded to open in haste.
"Okaa-San! WAKE UP!" Megumi said happily.
"Not today baby, Momma has a headache and all I wanna do is SLEEP!" she groaned, putting the covers over her head.
"Another hangover, huh?" Megumi said cockily, seeing through her mother's disguise of changing her hangover to a headache.
"IT'S NOT A HANGOVER! IT'S A HEADACHE!" came Kagome's muffled reply.
"Okaa-San..." Megumi sighed. 'Sometimes I swear I'm the adult and she's the child...' she thought as she giggled at her thoughts.
"What's so funny, huh?" Kagome asked as she looked up from her covers.
"Nothing Okaa-San, just please get cleaned up and come into the kitchen. I'll make some tea to let that 'headache' go away." she giggled as she headed out of the room.
"Fine!" Kagome muttered in defeat as she headed to the bathroom.
Megumi giggled as she heard her mother's reply as she headed towards the kitchen.
"Another day..." she said with a sigh. "Kit! Come 'er, boy!" she yelled as she looked around.
She heard a mewing sound from behind her as she turned around and smiled when she saw the family pet- Kit- a small brown fox.
"Ohayo, Kit." Megumi greeted cheerfully as she bent down and picked up the fox. "Are you hungry?" she asked him as she scratched his neck.
Kit licked her hand in response to her question and jump from her arms to his bowl.
"Yup, you're hungry." she smiled as she proceeded to feed him his breakfast.
"Honey, what's for breakfast?" Kagome asked as she walked into the kitchen, all cleaned up.
"We're having bacon, eggs, and rice." Megumi answered as she headed to the cabinet for the pans.
"Really? Sugoi... " Kagome said as her stomach growled. "I'm going to go put some music on, okay?" she said as she headed to the living room.
Grabbing her CD's, she glanced through the stack to decide which to listen to. 'Aah, let's listen to them...' she thought as she took out her CD of Dir en Grey's album called 'Withering to Death'. Putting it on #3, the song, -Saku-, started.
(A/N: Muahahaha! headbangs)
WHERE'S THE FORTUNATE FUTURE?
WHERE DOES OUR FORTUNATE FUTURE COME?
Kagome thought a little as that line was sung. 'Fortunate future eh? There was never anything fortunate for my future...' she thought bitterly. 'My future would have been better had I never fell down that damn well... but then again, I wouldn't be where I am now if I didn't fall down that well...' she thought, smirking at the last of her thoughts.
DICK MEN
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF
AND WIPE
GET BACK MY MERRILY MEMORY
DICK MEN
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF
AND WIPE
GET BACK MY MERRILY MEMORY
Kagome couldn't help but laugh at those lines. How ironic. This song reminded her so much of that bastard. That damn bastard of a youkai! All the memories of back then were replaced with awful memories of HIM! She couldn't think of any happy memories- only memories filled with hate and sadness.
WHERE'S THE FORTUNATE FUTURE?
WHERE DOES OUR FORTUNATE FUTURE COME?
DICK MEN
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF
AND WIPE
GET BACK MY MERRILY MEMORY
DICK MEN
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF
AND WIPE
GET BACK MY MERRILY MEMORY
Her thoughts became even bitterer as she thought more and more of him. Clenching her hands into a fist, she mentally cursed him for the millionth time. Cursed him into the seventh level of hell. He gave her this life. It's all his fault! It was all his fault she was a cutter. It was all his fault she was a druggie. It was all his fault she had no reason to live.
UNDER THE SUN
azawaru kano you ni hakujitsu no moto sarakedashita no doka ni nagareru seki no kawa
All those memories… Memories of HIM. Memories of all those who ridiculed her when she came back to her time, pregnant. Pregnant at such a young age. The disclosure of it all, it made her go crazy. It made her cut.
shigai de kurutta yamamichi wo omaetachi wa warai aruiteiru mata te wo kake nobashi soshite yuri no hana ni gi ga muragaru
But, a smile was brought to her face as she thought of all the good things that came out of her mating with him. Oh how she loved the thoughts that came to her head. The thought of corpses, oh yes corpses, of all those that died from her hands. Her smile grew wider as she imagined the moths gathering around those corpses as if they were lilies.
UNDER THE SUN nani hitosu mo sukuenai hitotachi ni wa ryoute no naka hai to namida to kamoku wo... zankoku na made ni kau wa tsuki to taiyou ashita sae mo me wo fusaida seki hi ni tou wa kamoku to..." "
She knew she couldn't redeem the sins she committed. But hell, she was happy - she didn't give a damn. Though she knew she would have ash, tears, and taciturnity on both her hands from the fact of not being able to redeem of her sins, she smirked. People would say it was a cruel thing to not have them being redeemed. Hell, what's cruel is if the sun and moon came together? She knew that even tomorrow looked away from her evil and coldness, but ooh… she couldn't wait. She couldn't wait on that red day. That red day, she finally found a way to kill him - To find a way to question herself, to question her taciturnity.
Sakura: I'M SO SORRY FOR THE INCREDIBLY SHORT CHAPTER!
Harushi: Saku-Chan seriously has no time to write out long chap's like she used to in all her old fics.
Junsui: Hai, you see she has to take care of her baby niece while her niece's mom works.
Sakura: But it doesn't matter sense I'm sure none of you want to hear about my excuses...
Harushi: But she did decide to turn this chap into a songfic.
Junsui: Hai and if your wondering about the translations to the song read the parts of Kagome in between the song. It somehow translates it.
Sakura: Hai, I tried to translate the song into the actual fic. And make sure you pay CLOSE attention to this chap. It's very important to the entire fic.
Junsui: But Saku-Chan has her problem fixed!
Harushi: She now knows how to start her chaps!
Sakura: And if you're all wondering...sigh yes Poo-chan is still on vacation -.- stupid fur ball... ;;;
Harushi: Remember always to review!