A/N: Next two chapters, Derek gets humbled, Addison has a scare and umm no don't worry this will still be an Addek fic
at the end. I've already wrote the ending so I know:)

Chapter 5

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When I came too, I noticed that I wasn't at my home dreaming of my child where I had imagined myself to be. I was lying down on a stretcher with Miranda buzzing around me with Izzie Stevens by her side.

Miranda smiled at my eyes opening and said, "It's about time, you woke up. You had everybody worried there for a moment."

My hand inadvertently traveled down to my stomach and I turned to Miranda for confirmation, "Is the baby okay?"

Miranda smirked as she turned to Izzie, "I told you five bucks."

I looked at Miranda in confusion as she reached for the ultrasound machine behind her and said, "I bet Stevens that you would be concerned with the health of your child before your own. Addison, your blood pressure was in your toes not to mention that I think you are a strong candidate for gestational diabetes. Why do I have to tell you the things that you should already know?"

I nod as I feel the tear slip out from my cheeks and I turn away from their pitying eyes as I stare at the corner in the wall, "Let me know when I can go home please Miranda. I need to be at home in my own bed."

Miranda nodded in agreement as she placed the cold jelly on my baby and turned on the machine and the sound of my son's heartbeat filled the room. I let the breath; I didn't know I had been holding out. My son was okay, and nothing had happened to him.

Izzie smiled from besides Miranda, "He sounds like a fighter Dr. Montgomery, just like you." I turn to her in surprise as she reaches for a tissue and starts dabbing at my tears as I shake my head, "I used to think I was a fighter but these last couple of months, I've learned what resignation means. Thank you two, I feel better now and Miranda I promise I'll take better care of myself."

Izzie glared as the door started to open and she turned back to me, "That's Derek. I couldn't keep him out, he's been worried. I can tell him to wait if you want."

I don't care what Derek does anymore so I shrug, I have to talk to him sooner or later. "He can come in."

Miranda stalked over to the door and pulled it open and met his hesitant gaze in my direction with one of her own, "I just got her stable. Her blood pressure was in her toes and you don't need three guesses to know what idiot gets the award for making that happen."

Derek flinched and normally I would've stuck up for him but I was actually glad that someone was fighting this battle for me because I was tired. I had become resigned, to everything around me except for my child.

As Izzie and Miranda filed out of the room and left only Derek and myself in the room I finally met his eyes and instantly closed my eyes. "I'm going home, within the next thirty minutes and I want you out of the apartment. I'll have my lawyer send the papers for joint custody over to your new forwarding address wherever that may be."

I wait for him to acknowledge my statement but I hear silence and I open my eyes to see him standing at my bedside looking at my stomach. My gown was still pushed up from when Miranda had performed the ultrasound. I notice his hand hovering over my stomach with a look of wonder in his eyes and I flinch from the emotion that was emanating from his face. I inhale a sharp breath when his hand finally makes contact with my skin that was still cold from the gel. It's instantly warmed by his hand now cupping my belly.

I turn back to stare at the point on the wall while he became acquainted with his son, the only thing of me that he's ever wanted. " Addison?"

I look back at him and raise an eyebrow in question, " Addison, I apologize. It was just the first time that Meredith and I really talked to me since she broke off the engagement and I just assumed…No, I shouldn't have assumed. I was wrong for jumping to the wrong conclusion. I know that you would never do anything to willingly hurt me, not after everything we've been through together. I'm sorry."

I nod even though I don't believe his apology is sincere, I don't really believe anything from him anymore. "Are you two back together?"

Derek shrugged as his hand started massaging my belly, "She just yelled at me. There was no talking, she wasn't even ready to listen she just accused and to be truthful I'm tired of explaining what happened. If she can't realize that in a moment of weakness…," He stops what he's about to say when he realizes what it would imply. I shove his hand off my stomach as I cradle my belly after I pull down my gown, "In a moment of weakness you screwed your ex-wife and created a child. Yea, I know. Look, Derek why don't you just go? I've done the alone thing for awhile, just let me be."

He shook his head and I refused to acknowledge that a thrill went through me that he wasn't prepared to walk away and let me go. But I told myself to grow up; he wasn't going to leave his child not after everything. " Addison, I'm sorry. I was a jerk and I'll ask forgiveness until our son is born but don't kick me out of your home. I feel so close to our son, I feel so close to you when I'm there that I don't know where you start and I end. I don't want to be separated from either of you."

It was almost like he had a link to my mind and he knew what words to say that would make me break down. I feel the tears start rolling down my cheeks and I damn my hormones silently and aloud, "Damn these hormones. Fine, Derek you can stay but on a trial basis only. If during this trial, you and Meredith reunite which is none of my business; if you reunite you have to leave my house. I may be strong in some areas but I will not have Meredith over to my house as your girlfriend, I apologize but I'm not there yet."

You look at me with a sad smile, "I've really hurt you haven't I? You can't even tell when I won't be a jerk anymore? Don't worry even if Meredith and I had gotten back together, I would never force you to be uncomfortable by having her in your presence."

I smile and say, "Thanks, I guess I'll see you later at home."

He shook his head again at me and I don't know what to think of his strange behavior, "What do you mean no?"

I learn that the response to my question was a no because he pulled up the chair and sat down next to me on the bed and held my hand. He held my hand as Miranda came in and did another ultrasound on our son to ensure that he was still fine and growing healthy. He stayed with me while I was discharged and he stayed by my side when I was sent home.
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I was determined to not give him an inch. He had been smiling at me lately, smiling at what I said. Yesterday, which was Sunday, my favorite day to sleep in I was awakened in bed by Derek who provided me with breakfast in bed. I raised an eyebrow but refused to allow my heart to want him anymore. I thanked him graciously for the meal and then waited for him to leave when he jumped on the other side of the bed and pulled out the paper.

Flashback

"Derek, what are you doing?" I look up at him from the corner of my eye to see him getting comfortable in the bed next to me. He opened his paper to the sports section and handed me the comics and turned to me in question.

"What do you mean? We're reading the paper, it's Sunday." And as if that was explanation enough he turned back to his paper and ignored that I was sitting next to him in the bed. I pulled out the comics and start reading and laughing when appropriate even though I'm deeply aware that he's sitting next to me.

Derek looked up as I had become engrossed in trying to solve a word puzzle and looked over at me and smiled, "This is fun right?"

I nod once and said, "Yea, this is fun."

End of Flashback

I cracked open an eye at the sound of my bedroom door opening and sat up in bed with a yawn. Today would be my first day back at Seattle Grace after the scare I suffered. I was hesitant about walking into the hospital again not knowing what awaited me there. What people said never used to bother me much but ever since the realization that I was to be a mother I wanted to ensure that my child never had to hear anything bad about his mother. I smile as you walk into the room with a glass of juice and a toasted bagel with cream cheese.

I laugh as you juggle the items in your hands and the rose that is in your mouth. The rose? What's going on? I clear my throat and ask just that question, "Derek, why do you have a rose in your mouth?"

I watch your face closely for your response to the question I just posed and you meet my inquiry with a simple shrug of your shoulders, "I just wanted the start of this day to be special for you." I accept the rose with a grateful smile as he pulls the chair up to the side of my bed and said, "If you at anytime today feel like you are being stressed out, let me know. They can pull me out of surgery and I will take you home. Your health and that of the baby is too important to jeopardize."

I nod in agreement and feel a tear threatening to fall but I hold it back, "Thank you, I will do just that."

You smile and hold out your hand, "Come on, let's get you ready to go back into the workforce."

I hesitate before I take your hand, I'm not sure if I want you that close to me yet but I chide myself for being ridiculous and grip your hand firmly as you help me out of bed.

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It had been a hectic morning but I was slowly working through all of my patients with no problems. Well only one problem and that problem had a name. Derek Shepherd. I don't know what got into you but you decided all of a sudden that I was worthy, worthy of your devoted attention and concern. You had ensured that I had a mid-morning snack and even came and sat in the gallery while I performed a surgery. I didn't know what to attribute this about face but I refused to question or pay it any attention. I knew too well how quickly your priorities could change and I didn't want to be left out in the cold again.

I exhaled as I leaned against the counter and brushed a strand of hair out of my face. The nurse greets me with a smile and inquires after my health. I assure her that I and baby Montgomery-Shepherd are just fine.

I heard a throat clear and I turn around and Callie greets me with a hug and a big smile. "I was worried about you but each time I called Derek told me that you were resting. You got my messages right?"

I roll my eyes in exasperation at your over-protectiveness, "I know that you called but I didn't know that he told you that I was resting. Each time I reached for the phone, it was mysteriously out of my reach. I guess the overprotective father of my child kept all visitors away from me. I was starting to worry that I didn't have any friends left. Good to know that he was the culprit."

I smile at her as the humor lights up her eyes and I check my watch, "It's almost time for lunch. What do you say?"

Callie smiles a brilliant smile and said, "It will give me a chance to show you the pictures from my honeymoon."

I nod in agreement as we go off preparing ourselves for a nice lunch.
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Callie was currently proudly displaying her honeymoon photos. I listen as she excitedly demonstrates the photos of the beach in Jamaica. I smile as I watch her blush about her and George making love in the ocean and I squeeze her hand when she tells me how much she loves him. It's plain to see that she's happy and she's finally with the man she deserved. I only hoped that one day I would find that man for me, a man that would help me raise my son. I had given up hope on the father of my child. I didn't want to admit that I had given up hope to ever win Derek's heart. I was no longer his enemy but a friend, but friends were all and for now it was fine.

I smiled as she closed the book with a sigh, "Callie, thanks for sharing. These were wonderful. So, you need to start planning your next vacation."

Callie rolled her eyes at my statement and said, "I can't even think about another vacation until we pay the bills from the wedding and our honeymoon. Besides, a good girlfriend of mine is going to be giving birth soon and I need to ensure that she has a wonderful baby shower and the birth of my god-nephew comes without any problems."

I smile at her concern and feel blessed in that moment. I had never really been a religious person but listening to someone who cared not just about my wellbeing but that of my child warmed my heart. I leaned over and gave her a hug as Miranda came over to the table and plopped down next to us. "The clinic is set to open next March."

I gasp as I lean over and reward Miranda with a hug, "I'm so proud of you. I knew that you and Izzie could do it and just know that when I signed that paper for you, I meant it. I will volunteer as soon as I get off maternity leave with this one." I place a hand over my belly even though it doesn't really need to be pointed out the stomach that is so obvious from my normally flat belly.

Miranda smiled and said "Everything checks out, have you two thought of names yet?"

I shake my head in disgust, "We keep procrastinating and I'm afraid that when he comes out that I'm going to be stuck calling him Baby Montgomery-Shepherd. Derek and I need to discuss this."

Callie leaned back and said, "Derek and I? Do I take that to mean that things between the two of you are progressing nicely?"

I snort and then blush in embarrassment, "I don't think things with Derek and I will ever progress. We will be friends and we will be parents but nothing more. Derek is already there, I'm just learning to accept it and once I do maybe I'll find a guy for me."

Don't worry Addison just needs a distraction while Derek gets his act together.

Also, like many of my fellow Addek writers/readers, this last episode was the last one for them. I too prescribe to that theory and blame it
all on Kate. Don't get me wrong, I think she's wonderful but my theory is the chemistry between these two (just standing in the freaking elevator together)
brings more to my screen than Mer/Der spooning in a hospital bed. I felt nothing there but meanwhile that one scene with Addek in the elevator has been
on repeat for hours. I guess that Shonda didn't/doesn't know how to write a romance between Mer/Der (that started from a pickup at a bar am I right?)
against 11 years of a meaningful marriage (because I don't care what crap they have my Addison spew it was 11 years, 11 freaking years). I give up and
my only outlet will be writing/reading all of these fics because I'm done. Some might not agree and that's okay but don't worry I don't hold anyone's opinions
against them as I hope mine won't be held against me...Umm, oh yea I finished the story about a week ago and I'm trying to decide the rate of which I should
update the remaining chapters any ideas?