SEEING THROUGH ANOTHER'S EYES
"Hello?" I rushed. My ear was evaded by a high-pitched sound.
"Rei!" it was Usagi. I sigh leaning against the counter. "Whatcha doing?" I watch as my fingers wrap around the cord.
"Unlike you some people have to work." I spat. Really the girl never works. Just goes to school for a half a day and spends the rest of her time annoying me.
"Rei…" her voice makes my heart jump. The way she says my name, it makes me forget. Forget for a moment my surroundings. Forget my present life. Forget my position in this game of life. My voice cracks as I tell her I'm still here. "I was wondering would you join me tonight?"
I nod against the phone. A few moments pass before I relies she cannot see me. We make plans to go out later that night and my hands fidget the whole day. I slowly do my chores thinking of what to wear.
Finally I pull my blouse I decide to wear on, as the doorbell rings. It brings me to the present as I rush towards the door. Opening it swiftly I gasp to what she is wearing. Her hair done to perfection. Her dress fitting her so perfectly that it makes me blush. What I'm wearing is a sad comparison to hers.
She smiles at me. Waving a hand in front of my face. I blink and blush deeper as we exit the door and step down the stairs. Her heels echo on the stone. My eyes watch them go down the stairs. Click…Click… My eyes find her legs smooth. That's when I trip my self and fall down the last couple of stairs. She rushes to me. Click. Click. Click.
"Rei are you ok?" she asks in concern.
I rub my back wincing at the slight pain. I brush her hands away as I stand up. Trying to gain my pride back. She giggles. I glare.
"Even you must admit Rei it was funny." She laughs louder. My anger subsides. She is laughing her belly laugh. I do miss that laugh. She hasn't done that lately. I don't know why but as long as she does that laugh with me then everything is ok.
We take the bus to the movies. People were all around us. I paid them little mind as Usagi takes about the most trivial thing. When she speaks I find myself watching her lips. She really does emphases every word. She speaks with such emotion. She stops. I smile and nod. No I haven't heard a word you said Usa but I still love to watch you speak.
The movie goes by so fast I don't even know that it has ended until Usagi grabs my hand pulls me out of the theater.
Tonight it was so nice out we started to walk. The moon gave a peaceful light as the stars shined brightly. Tonight was perfect just like her. We made it to her apartment first. We make our way up the stairs. Then we stop at her apartment door. That's when I see something was different. Usagi was different.
She smiles. Placing her hands behind her back swaying her body. I see one strain of hair was out of place. I reach and tuck it behind her ear. My finger brush against her cheek. It's so warm. My hand was so warm on her face. I bit the corner of my lip watching her eyes close. She leans into my hand. I watch as my thumb has a mind of it's own, brushing against her lips.
I gasp as she softly bites my thumb. Yep something was different, alright. Her eyes open to look into mine. I watch without making a move as she took my hand, leading me into her apartment. I didn't even see her pull her keys out, but I heard them being dropped.
She just pulls me along as I finally see the keys recklessly left on the floor. The apartment is slightly dark. We enter her room. Her room, that I suddenly remember, was shared with someone else, as I see the pictures on the wall.
I close my eyes. I image we are somewhere else. Somewhere far away from here, where it's just us. That seems to work as she pulls me into a kiss. She smiles and I faithfully back. I take my time. I know in the back of my mind her lover won't be back for a while. Why else would she start this?
I can't let this continue. Can I? I see her unzip her dress. I watch it fall into a pool at her feet. She sits on the bed taking off her heels. I bite my lip again as she lends against the pillows. I kneel before her pulling my shirt over my head. She reaches up to remove my belt.
This is crazy. She doesn't love me. She doesn't love me, right. So why is her soft hands on my hips pushing my pants off. Why is she kissing my neck? Why is she pushing me on to my back? Why? What is this? She removes my bra. I didn't even see where it went. Next thing I know her lips are against my breast. She bites and I don't do anything. This pain is subsiding as I pull her close. I'm nuts. I must be as I reverse our positions. She gasps in debrief.
I look down at her I have no time for games. Games that she is playing with my fragile heart. Damn it. I can't believe I'm doing this. I stand up. Searching for my pants. Finding them, I put them on. She sits up, her face; I couldn't look at as I clasped my bra back on. I feel my breast cry as the material brushes against it. I pay it no mind, as I put my shirt back on.
"What the hell, are you doing Rei?" she demands.
"What does it look like?" I button my pants, tightening the belt.
I look again at her. She is still sitting on the bed, still in disbelief. A goddess among goddess', I have fallen for. Damn, I turn away trying to remain calm. I had to do this. I had to keep my head up. I watch myself growl at her as I exited her room and her apartment. It's like everything that happens to me I'm really not seeing it.
Like I'm seeing through another's eyes.