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Song: Ain't it Funny by Jennifer Lopez

Disclaimer: Sirius is…dead…gasp!…no he's not!…she lies…she lies…RIGHT…???!!!

It seems so strange to think of James Potter in a context other then one that involves the word's arrogant, pompous, jerk, and or git, but after talking to Remus I feel like I should at least like try to see some good in Potter. Easier said then done. At least to my thinking. I guess, I'll have to resort to thinking through my memories of Potter until I find something that makes him seem like not a jerk…uh…Let's think…I was on my way back from the library where I had been studying for our end of year exams, I was in the hallway before the one that led to Gryffindor Tower when I happened upon Potter and Black who was looking decidedly upset.

Flashback (Lily's)

"It's okay, Siri." Potter was saying. Black shook his head and his fist clenched tighter on what he was holding which appeared to be an envelope. "Let me see it, Padfoot." James ordered.

"No, Prongs." I was wondering what was up with those nicknames.

"Sirius…" James no Potter said holding out his hand for the envelope.

"It's okay, James, I'll be fine, don't worry about it."

"Give me the envelope, Siri, don't make me get Remus involved in this." James threatened. Damn Potter! His name is P-O-T-T-E-R!

"Uh…there's really no need to do that Jamesie. Remus will get all concerned like he always does and then I'll have to listen to him!" Black exclaimed.

"Well, then Siri, there's really only one solution…" James started. "Give. Me. The. Envelope." James finished. Black smirked and took the letter out of the envelope and handed James the envelope.

"Sirius Orion Black!" James said warningly. "The letter…" Potter said holding his hand out for it.

"Can't you just leave this alone?" Black asked.

"No, Padfoot, I can't, now give me the letter." Potter demanded.

"Fine…" Black said handing over the letter. Potter took it from him and read through it quickly.

"They're ba, Sirius, they don't know what they're talking about, you're a good person, they just want to control you, it's okay Siri." James had said trying to comfort his friend.

End Flashback

Okay so maybe there's one example of Potter acting normal…okay nice…like a good person…that doesn't prove anything though…maybe…no…it doesn't…or…does it…?

It seemed to be like the perfect thing for you and me
It's so ironic you're what I had pictured you to be
But there are facts in our lives
We can never change
Just tell me that you understand and feel the same
This perfect romance that I've created in my mind
I'd live a thousand lives
Each one with you right by my side
But yet we find ourselves in a less than perfect circumstance
And so it seems like we'll never have the chance

"Black." I greeted grudgingly when he approached me.

"Evans." He acknowledged.

"Something I can help you with." I asked raising an eyebrow when he didn't speak.

"Don't you think it's funny for all the time you spend saying you hate James you can't seem to deny liking him?"

"I do not deny liking him!' I realized me mistake a second too late. I meant to say I do not like him, so there is nothing to deny…

"Hmm, seems like you're having trouble with your words lately, Evans, maybe you're having trouble lying to yourself…?" Black mused.

"I am not."

"Huh, because I seem to remember someone essentially saying she liked James, while she insists that she hates him, and that same someone also couldn't say for sure that she didn't like James…hmm…interesting, Evans, really interesting." Black said before walking away to talk to some fifth year Ravenclaw girl and leaving me more confused then I was before.

Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny (Oh)
And you can't move on even though you try (Oh)
Ain't it strange when you're feeling things you shouldn't feel
Oh, I wish this could be real
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life (Oh)
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right (No)
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart

From the day I got my Hogwarts letter my plans we're simple and 'set in stone' so to speak. Go to school, get best grades in class, get good job in magical community, avoid distracting boys (James to a T). From the day term started in first year it seemed that one James Potter was determined to change my plans. I tried to ignore him, but Potter refused to be ignored. I was so scared when I got to Hogwarts scared because I didn't think I belonged here, I hid it with a know-it-all attitude but it was there but for some reason the annoying Potter actually brought me comfort the way he didn't care that I was muggleborn…unlike the Slytherins…Snape is always insulting me…and yet I always insist on sticking up for him against James…why…? Is it possible that I could like…Potter…James…NO!…maybe…?

Sometimes I think that a true love can never be
I just believe that somehow it wasn't meant for me
Life can be cruel in a way that I can't explain
And I don't think that I could face it all again
I barely know you but somehow I know what you're about
A deeper love I've found in you
And I no longer doubt
You've touched my heart and it altered every plan I've made
And now I feel that I don't have to be afraid

I had sworn that I would be so blasé about everything and perfectly calm and focused and not think of anything besides school…well Potter it seemed had different ideas…maybe I was being naïve to think that I could get through school with my head down and my nose in a book just to prove I could me as good as any pureblood…not that I've managed it anyway what with Potter making me so mad with his lame come-ons. Are they really that lame…? Uh…yeah…okay they really are…but it's the thought that counts…right…? Uh…sure. Okay maybe…Potter…might be a…decent…gulp…person…maybe… look there's Potter. Maybe, I should like move so he doesn't like see me. I ducked behind a suit of armor as Black, Potter, and Lupin walked past. Potter still looked sad, Lupin still looked concerned, although that was the look her regularly wore when it came to Black or Potter but if my friends had their pension for getting into trouble I'd be concerned to…Honestly…and Black looked well angry but not with Potter at least. Probably with me, that seems to be his attitude around me lately…grr…I do not care that Potter looks upset…nope…I don't even believe me…okay…maybe I care…a little…or…a…lot…but that doesn't mean I like Potter…right? RIGHT???? Uh…Sure! The little voice responded annoying me some more.

Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny
And you can't move on even though you try
Ain't it strange when you're feeling things you shouldn't feel
Oh, I wish this could be real, oh yeah, oh yeah
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right , no no
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart, oh yeah

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