A/N OMG! I am so sorry for the long wait! And omg Mar-Gar I am totally fighting the urge to not update this and go read ur two updates, lol, I'm updating just for you!! Lol.

Song: I Thought She Knew by 'NSYNC

Disclaimer: Scusi, che cosa ha detto?...Capisco Bennessimo! (The little wizard thinks I'm speaking Spanish!!! I am not. Lol.)

Lily Evans has always been different then the other girl I've liked in the past. Every other girl I've liked or dated for that matter, actually I've dated every girl I've ever liked (excluding Evans) they just can't seem to resist me, where as the only girl I've ever really liked (Evans) seems to have no trouble resisting me. That is just so frikin hilarious., has had several things in common. They were usually blond (unlike Lily), dumb (Totally unlike Lily) loved pranks (Do I even need to tell you?) and also never, ever, ever, never defended Snivellus. (I don't even understand how Evans manages to do it without puking. Seriously.) Anyway back to Lily. She is the opposite of every girl I've ever been interested in, hell she's actually the pinnacle of everything that would make me uninterested in a girl! However, I love Lily. She doesn't really seem to get it though, every time I tell her she laughs in my face and tells me to stop bugging her. I'll admit that maybe, just maybe, some of my, er methods, of getting her to uh realize her deep and undying love might not have been the, er smartest choices. But seriously, we must take into account that I asked Sirius for help on these exploits, and well Sirius quite frankly dates idiots, hyperactive idiots who like to look pretty, just like him, I will say this though they hardly fight and they do win quite a few nominations for hottest couple, and most likely to annoy the hell out of our professors with airheadness (is that a word? Lily wouldn't like that word I bet, but I think it has a nice ring to it) of the material. Sirius is a great friend though he mostly acts like an idiot, sure he's a bit spacey, but he is one of the bets in our year in Transfiguration (pains McGonagall to admit it, Evans as well, makes her sick.) Sirius also has this perception, like he notices things, when it matters anyways, he uses it mostly for pranks, but sometimes he uses it like he did yesterday with Evans. (A prefect heard their conversation, who told Remus, his fellow prefect, who told me.) Anyways like I was saying when he gets in one of those moods he notices things, like Remus was telling me that he apparently tripped Evans into admitting that maybe she doesn't hate me and could perhaps like me, which leads me to the ultimate point of my whole speech here, if Evans likes me then why won't she except that I really do like her? She says she hates me every day. And I thought I finally believed her, but now…I don't know, is it possible she does like me and that this is just an odd manifestation of the female psyche? (no I do not no what that means, Remus just said that and it sounded good.) So, if all that is true would it be advantageous for me to simply go and ask her out, again? Or is Remus, Merlin forgive me, wrong??? Good thing Remus will never read this, because wow would he flip if he saw his name and wrong in the same sentence.

She was my once in a lifetime
Happy ending come true
Oh I guess I should have told her
But I thought she knew

Lily always claims I treat her badly, but honestly, I don't see what I do wrong. I really would like to know. I'd stop doing it, I really would, Evans would be worth it, not that I can tell her that, she'd never believe me, I thought she understood that I really and truly do care about her but nothing I say to her seems to get across to her, and it's not like I haven't presented my feelings to her in a variety of ways. Take for example the time I gave Sirius an everlasting chocolate and coffee combo sucker (Remus still hasn't forgiven me, Sirius had to be chased through the school later he was shaking so much he looked more like a blur then a solid figure, they had to lock him in a quite room, with nothing dangerous in it.) to sneak up to the Astronomy tower lock the door and broadcast Lily Evans and James Potter forever, like literally, he spelled his voice loud, and kept repeating things like that over and over, it was hysterical. Uh, Lily didn't exactly find it so funny.

Flashback

"Professor, could I talk with you about this essay?" Remus Lupin asked.

"Lupin, you got an O." McGonagall said blinking at the boy astonished, so astonished in fact that she did not see a head of black hair tiptoe past her up to the Astronomy tower, (Students weren't allowed up there unsupervised.)

"I know professor, but I was wondering if you would go over some of the finer points with me? Peter needs some help and I'm not quite sure how to explain it to him, and well you saw his essay, Professor." McGonagall grimaced, she had seen his essay all right, not that you could really see it anymore what with all the red marks.

"All right, Lupin. Let's go to my office." McGonagall said leading the way not seeing James send his friend a thumbs up from behind a suit of amour. James then grabbed his broomstick and headed to the Great Hall which would still be empty, lunch wasn't for another fifteen minutes. Grinning he swung a leg over his broom and flew up into a corner of the Hall, out of sight. He waited silently for the signal, ah there it was. Peter came running into the hall toward the head table.

"Professor, come quick!"

"What is it, Pettigrew." Slughorn asked.

"Sirius was trying to help me with a potion and my cauldron exploded and some landed on him!!! He looked really pale! You have to come quick!" Pettigrew said looking anxious.

"Merlin, you haven't killed him have you Pettigrew?" Killing the heir to a pure-blood family, such as the Blacks, would not be looked upon favorably, whether the Blacks happened to like their son or not.

"Um, I think he was breathing."

"All right I'm going to need help on this!" Slughorn told the other Professors everyone followed him except Dumbledore who stayed to supervise the students. Once the professors had left and everyone was chatting excitedly, James lit the special firework he had designed together with Sirius and Remus, it wouldn't dissolve, it would follow the person it was geared toward (Evans, duh) for a full two weeks. It erupted into a bright pink heart with a silver arrow going through the center, written in the center in flowing script was I love you, Lily Evans, the future Mrs. James Potter.

"Oi, I'll kill you POTTER!" Lily screamed once she'd read it. Sirius heard the fireworks launch and enacted his part in the plan.

"LILY AND JAMES FOREVER! THE FUTURE MR. AND MRS. POTTER!!! DON'T THEY MAKE A CUTE COUPLE?? I MUST SAY THEY ARE THE CUTEST I'VE EVER SEEN. GIVE IM A KISS, LILS. KISS HIM. KISS HIM. COME ON JOIN THE CHANT EVERYBODY! I KNOW YOU NASTY SLYTHERINS ARE TOO BUSY MOPING ABOUT BUT GRYFINDORS I KNOW YOU'LL HELP, AND HUFFLEPUFFS YOU WANT TO ENCOURAGE LOVE DON'T YOU??? COME ON RAVENCLAWS GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THOSE BOOKS, TAKE A BREAK. KISS HIM! KISS HER! KISS HIM! KISS HER! KISS HIM! KISS HER! KISS HIM!" Sirius screamed from the Astronomy tower, yes screamed, and did I mention his voice was amplified magically on top of the screaming.

"KISS HIM, KISS HER, KISS HIM, KISS HER." The crowd screamed with their hands over their ears trying and failing to save their remaining hearing. Dumbledore however had curiously gone deaf and blind and was currently staring at the ceiling blue eyes twinkling madly.

"COME ON EVERYONE I KNOW YOU CAN BE LOUDER THEN THAT, RAISE YOUR GLASSES TO THE FUTURE POTTERS!!!"

"SIRIUS ORION BLACK I WILL KILL YOU!" Lily Evans shrieked loudly knowing he was nearby even though she couldn't see him or his evil friend, Potter for that matter.

"WHAT IS GOING ON IN HERE??" McGonagall screamed looking very angry with a pale Remus Lupin trailing behind her.

"HIYA PROFESSOR! WERE AM I?? YOU DON'T KNOW! BUHUHAHAHAHA! YOU CAN'T GET ME! LILY AND JAMES FOREVER, LILY AND JAMES FOREVER!"

"Sirius Black get over here now."

"NOPE I'M GOOD. LILY AND JAMES SITTING IN A TREE."

"Finish that sentence and your dead, Black." Lily warned glancing widely around the Hall for the unseen enemy.

"K-I-S-S-I-NG"

"BLACK!"

"Potter, where are you?" McGonagall called momentarily turning her attention from Sirius.

"WOULDN'T YOU LIKE TO KNOW WHERE HE IS???!!!" Sirius yelled.

"Listen, to me Mr. Black, you and Mr. Potter, and Mr. Lupin and Mr. Pettigrew have obviously worked together on this extremely stupid plan, stupider then most of your plans, it's creative I'll give you that, but you are going to lose a bundle of house points if you don't get down here now!"

"DON'T THINK I WILL, THANKS!"

End Flashback

You get the idea, right? It went on for awhile like that. McGonagall finally found me, Snivellus pointed me out, figures, and she figured out Sirius was on the Astronomy Tower, and when she finally managed to get past the sealing spell and the mouse Sirius had transfigured into a giant slab of rock and pushed in front of the door, she had to try to catch him on his broom. He was cackling madly the whole time. Once she got him down an hour later he had to be locked in a quiet room for a full three days before he could stop laughing, and by then we had a Quidditch match and she couldn't punish her star chaser, and beater right before a game, it was against Slytherin after all! Evans was so mad!

She said I took her for granted
Last thing I would do
Oh I'll never understand it
'Cause I thought she knew

What was I talking about? Oh, yeah, Evans. Well I'm always talking about Evans, aren't I? More specifically I was trying to get at the idea that no matter what I do Evans never seems to get that I really and truly due love her! She thinks I just enjoy following her around and annoying her! And I won't deny that I do, but I really do lover her and I want her to date me more then anything. I don't think I could take it if she keeps rejecting me. Evans has become so much a part of my life and I don't even no how it happened, all I know is that I am definitely in love with Lily Evans, and I think I will go insane, she says I already am, if she doesn't go out with me.

I thought she knew
My world revolved around her
My love light burns for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known

It's sort of scary how much a part of my life she's become. The moment I saw her I became obsessed, there's something about her that just draws you in like a moth to a candle, it's this feeling that you know you shouldn't but even more so you know that you have to, it's this indescribable pull, I can't even explain it, but I'm drawn to her. I don't quite understand why. I only really know that I need her to be in my life, and I need her to understand that.

A heart full of words left unspoken
Now that we're through
I'd sell my soul to have this silence broken
Oh I thought she knew
I thought she knew

There are so many things I wish I could say to her, they sound so eloquent (My word of the week, Remus taught it to me, he is simply insistent that me and Sirius, sorry Sirius and I, need to expand our vocabularies.) in my head, but whenever I want to tell Evans how I feel I end up trying to tell her with some kind of elaborate prank and she gets all mad and freaks out. I don't really understand why she doesn't get that I really do love her though, even if my methods have been somewhat questionable.

I thought she knew
My world revolved around her
My love light burns for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known

When it comes right down to it everything in my life is about Evans. Every time I actually try in class and get a good score it's to impress Evans, when I win a Qudditch match it's not just about beating the other team it's about impressing Evans. I care about her so much and I don't know how to tell her. Every time I've tried she gets madder and madder. It hurts every time she rejects me but I know I have to get her to go out with me, I can't imagine a life without her.

She was my once in a lifetime
Happy ending come true
Oh I guess I should have told her
But I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew

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