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"Evans, can I talk to you for a minute?" Black asked coming up to me. I stared at him for a second not answering. I was wondering whether he was serious (no pun intended) was this the guy who had just days ago been biting my head off for not going out with his best friend? And he wanted me to talk to him? "Lily, please?" He repeated giving me his patented puppy dog stare (I hear he's trade marking it.) I swear he must have been a dog in another life.

"Fine." I answered getting up and following him out of the common room I saw James's…no…Potter's head shoot up when we walked out. "What is it you wanted to talk to me about?" I inquired after we had walked out of the entrance hall and were now wandering the grounds.

"Look, Evans, I know you think James is this arrogant jerk but…"

"You're not on about this again are you?"

"Just listen to me for a second." Black pleaded once again wearing me down with that stupid puppy dog look. Now I know how he gets McGonagall to let him off punishment well that and Qudditch.

"All right. Fine. Talk. You have five minutes. Go." I relented.

"Have you ever seen the way he looks at you?" Black asked me randomly and I glanced up in surprise from where I was examining a butterfly which had perched on a nearby tree.

"What are you talking about?"

"Have you ever seen the way he looks at you? Do you ever see the way his eyes get wider and his breathing gets all shallow? Haven't you noticed any of that?"

"Uh…" I stuttered wondering how to respond to his words/

"He doesn't look at any other girl like that, Evans, just you and only you since first year. For Merlin's sake, he ran into a wall the first time he saw you!"

"I just thought he'd zoned out."

"James doesn't zone out. That's my territory. Does he fall asleep in the middle of class? Sure. But zone out? No. He is one of the most focused people you'll ever meet. Which is how he managed to keep asking you out time and again even though you only reject him. But he can only take so much. A person can only take so much, Lily."

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
you've built a love but that love falls apart
your little piece of heaven turns too dark

"He'll move on?" I say meaning it as a statement but it comes out as more of a question.

"No. He won't, Lily, you're it, he's been moping for days, and he didn't even blink when Snivellus…"

"Don't call him that." I interrupt automatically.

"When Snivellus…" Black repeated. "Yelled across the hall that Gryfindors were trash and we were all going to die when the 'dark lord' comes to power."

"…"

"I thought so, Evans. Not even you can think of some way to defend Snivellus for that, and yet James the staunchest detractor of all things Snivellus didn't even look up!"

"…"

"And you say all the time that James is an arrogant jerk and yet you don't really even know him, you've gone to school with him for years but you've never taken the chance to get to know him! What do you really know about James? What?"

"I know he's arrogant. I know he's a jerk."

"He might be a little full of himself sometimes, but James a jerk? Never. Did you know, Evans that James takes me in every summer because my parents hate me would soon curse me as look at me?"

"…" I stared into his dark eyes for a second it seemed so odd that Sirius the ever happy prankster was telling me that his life was hell and that James the arrogant jerk was the only thing that made it okay and it made me wonder if what Black says is true how could I say that Potter was a jerk?"

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

"Is it worth it?" Black asks and I turn my attention once more from the butterfly I had been staring at to look up at him.

"Is what worth it?"

"Is it worth it to keep insisting that James, who is perhaps one of the kindest people you will ever meet, is a jerk that he doesn't care about anyone besides himself? Is it worth it to keep pretending, Evans? I know you like him. But for some reason you can't just admit it."

"I don't know." I hear myself answer as though from far away.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
they're swept away and nothing is what is seems
the feeling of belonging to your dreams

"One day you're going to wake up and you're going to realize that it's too late, and you blew it. And when that day comes you're going to regret what you've done. You'll regret letting what could be the best chance at love you will ever get in your entire life pass you by. You'll regret it, Evans. I hope you wake up and realize that before it's too late, for you and for James.

"…" I didn't know how to respond to him. Was this seriously the same Sirius Black I have class with every day? The boy who bewitches chalk to right insults about our Professors on the board? The boy who put a spell on the stool during our sorting?

"I thought so."

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

"…" I really don't know how to respond to him anymore. I can't say he's wrong but I really don't want to say he's right. Because if he's right I've wasted so much time, and worst of all I've hurt James, who may not be the jerk I thought he was after all.

"Evans, do you know what your problem is?"

"No, but I'm sure you're going to tell me." I answer with a small smile.

"Yup, as a matter of fact I'm going to. You only listen to you head. I bet you came to Hogwarts with your whole seven years planned, didn't plant to get involved with anyone, planned to get straight A's, planned to be the best. But you didn't plan for James, and that is what scares you. He doesn't fit into your cookie cutter life style you've planned for yourself, so you push him away thinking that he's wrong for you. But the truth is that is why he is so right for you!"

"Um…" I looked at him shocked by the wisdom behind his words. I mean I knew he wasn't the idiot he pretends to be, he is beating me in Transfiguration after all not that I'll admit that out loud, not that McGonagall will admit it either. Sirius is top of our year in Transfiguration. Potions not so much. No one should let him near a potion. Ever.

And there are voices
that want to be heard
so much to mention
but you can't find the words
the scent of magic
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind

"Just go talk to him, Evans, you know I'm right. Throw away your pride and go talk to him."

"I don't want to."

"Just go. Evans, I know you don't like watching James mope anymore then I do, and I know you know that he isn't the jerk you thought he was. So just go, talk to him. You won't regret it, but you will regret not talking to him."

"Fine."

"Yes!" Sirius shrieked turning back into the happy Sirius everyone knows so well.

Listen to your heart...mm..mmm

Okay so Black was right. I should talk to James. And I will. Tomorrow. Or perhaps the next day. Maybe next week.

"Oh and Evans?"

"Yeah, Black?"

"You'll talk to him tomorrow morning before classes."

"Fine." I answer heaving a long suffering sigh.

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

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