Okay guys I'm here with another post I know a lot of you were like Ryan hits Seth wtf? But it actually makes sense I still wanted Ryan to be Ryan you know the badboy Ryan and the one that doesn't deal with stuff…anyways now he has Sandy and Kirsten as parents and punching or fighting is simply not allowed by them! Thanks for the reviews guys! Here it goes! Love Noor

Chapter 9: The memories.

Ryan felt someone take him away by his arms. When he looked at who it was it was his father looking humid more then ever. Ryan didn't say anything he didn't say that he was sorry and he didn't say that his dad was hurting him he just looked back at his brother and felt guiltier then ever.

Ryan walked with Sandy, well he was actually dragged away with Sandy and into the living room. Ryan looked up at Sandy whose eyes were very dark and he his thick eyebrows were formed into a big frown. Ryan looked down again. What had he done? He never wanted to hit Seth, he would never want to hurt his family and now he had.

Sandy couldn't believe what had just happened. Ryan had hit Seth he had punched his own brother. Sandy had always said that punching or fighting would never solve anything and still his son had hit his own brother. Sandy couldn't think of one reasonable thing to say. He normally knew what to say, he would know what to do to make things right but lately he didn't know anymore. He didn't know how to help his family he just didn't know, and it killed him that he didn't know. Sandy sat Ryan down on the couch and looked at him with his disapproving look.

'RYAN! What was that all about!? Why did you hit your brother?' Sandy practically screamed at his son. He saw Ryan flinch when he heard him scream.

'I'm sorry daddy…' Ryan didn't know what else to say he knew why he did it, he just couldn't explain…it was hard to explain. Ryan could feel the tears start to form in his eyes.

Sandy looked at Ryan and saw how sorry he was and how guilty he felt. Sandy bent down on his knees and looked Ryan in his eyes now also seeing the tears that were forming in his eyes. 'Ryan you can't hit your brother or anyone for that matter…if someone is making you angry then talk.' Sandy's voice was gentle yet stern.

Ryan nodded and looked at his hands. What was he going to do? Was Seth going to forgive him. They were brothers surely he was going to forgive him he wasn't going to be too mad right…although he had every right too Ryan just didn't want him to be too mad.

'I'm really sorry dad…'

Sandy sat down next to Ryan he had gotten the point now he was just eight years old. He probably didn't mean to hit him…it was probably the heat of the moment. But that didn't mean it was okay…he was still going to get his punishment.

'It's okay kiddo…I mean it's not okay…but it's okay' Sandy smiled a little at Ryan and he smiled back sadly. Sandy held his arm around his tiny shoulders and scooped him up so that Ryan was now sitting on his lap. 'Do you want to talk about it?' Sandy asked gentle not wanting to push it.

'Not really…but when I do I will' Ryan said he hoped that that was enough he just didn't want to talk. He didn't know what to say he didn't know if he could say the words out loud. 'Do you think Seth is mad?' Ryan looked at Sandy scared of what he might say of how he might answer.

'I'm not mad…' Seth was standing in the doorway with Kirsten standing next to him. They had both heard the conversation. Kirsten had tears that were now pouring down her face freely. Ryan looked at Seth and let the tears go now. Sandy got up and let Seth sit down next to Ryan. Kirsten and Sandy both moved to the kitchen, still in ear shot.

'I'm so sorry Seth…I didn't mean to hurt you…I just…I'm just very sorry' Ryan was once again looking at his hands that were lying in his lap. He looked back up again when he felt someone elbow him in his side. He saw a smiling Seth sitting next to him and Ryan couldn't help but smile.

'Don't worry about it…that's what I'm here for…I'm just sorry Marissa got there when she did…because I was about to bring in the 'hurt' you know what I'm saying with a little bit of this and a little bit of that.' Seth was kicking his feet up in the air like a madman. But it worked because Ryan and Seth both laughed. 'Marissa is still here…she's in the driveway…' Seth suggested for Ryan to go.

Both boys got up but Ryan didn't go before hugging Seth. Seth hugged him back and heard an 'I'm sorry' and all Seth did was nod. He felt like a weight had actually lifted of his shoulders Ryan was opening up a bit. He wasn't exactly talking about everything but he was changing back to himself.

Ryan walked out front and saw her sitting on the end of the driveway. She had a white top on and a denim skirt topping it off with her head in a ponytail and her feet in brown ballerinas. Ryan sat down next to her. They were friends. They had been ever since they were a lot younger but now they could actually talk. They were both 8 well Ryan was almost going to be 9 but they could talk even if they were 8.

'Hey…' Marissa smiled at Ryan and he smiled back and nodded his head. She scooped her arms around his and looked back into his deep ocean blue eyes. 'Is Seth okay?'

'Yeah…' Ryan smiled at her and they both got up. 'You know there was this one time where grandma, Seth and me went on a road trip…we uhm were going camping…but grandma Nic didn't really like camping so we were driving to her and my granpa's house.'

Marissa looked at Ryan they were now walking down the little path to the beach they knew that they weren't aloud to go into the water. So they sat down in the sand and Marissa stayed quiet she just listened to him he was actually talking to her about his grandma he hadn't talked to anyone and she did want him to move on…today really scared her when she saw the red thing that was coming from Seth's lip she didn't know what it was at first but soon enough she knew it was blood and that was blood was flowing because Ryan had punched him all because he didn't open up and kept everything in side…Marissa wanted to help him and is helping him meant just listen she was going to do just that.

'And when we came there she had tents set up and made her living room look just like a jungle and we camped out just there…it was fun…she knew what we liked she was fun…and I…I miss her…I'm going to miss her…' Ryan had a now tears that were flowing down his face. Marissa grabbed Ryan's hand and didn't say anything.

'Boys I'm sick again…'she said looking at her two grandchildren that didn't really know what she was saying exactly. She grabbed both of their hands and moved them to her their bodies followed and they lay next to her.

'You'll get good again…' Ryan said and Seth nodded in agreement. Nicole shook her head sadly she kissed both of them on her heads and looked at them she looked at her curly dark haired sarcastic funny grandchild and then at her sandy blond haired grandchild with beautiful blue eyes, eyes in which you could get lost in. Ryan looked at his grandmother and shook his head and then looked at Seth who was still smiling and again shook his head at his grandmother.

Nicole looked at Ryan who was shaking his head and looked at his brother then shook his head again as if to tell her not to say anything that might upset Seth. Nicole smiled sadly at him and held both of their hands again squeezing them reassuringly. 'Not this time boys…not this time' Nicole said. Both Ryan and Seth had tears in their eyes.

What was she saying was she not surviving it this time? Was it all over? Was the cancer back or had it never went away…

Ryan could still remember the day as if it was yesterday. After that day he hadn't seen her anymore. She had died a few days after that but she didn't want her grandkids to come anymore she didn't want them to memorize her as a sick grandmother. She wanted them to remember all the good times they had. He knew what she had said to him she wanted to talk to both him and Seth separately.

'Take care of your brother Ryan…I want you to make me proud…I want you to go to college and be whatever you want to be…I want you to have a beautiful life and family when you're older a lot older…' Nicole said while smiling. Ryan was just staring up at her and didn't know what to say what was he supposed to say. He hugged her and she hugged him finally letting the tears go that had been building in both their eyes.

'I just really miss her' Ryan said again. Marissa squeezed his hand and lay her head on his shoulder both looking at the ocean and the sun that was setting.

'I know…' Marissa said still holding on to Ryan.

Okay so that was it I hope you guys liked it! Let me know by reviewing! Love Noor