"Prongs will you look alive," Sirius hissed at James.
It was Saturday night, they were in a restaurant with the two girl Sirius got them dates with. James had hardly said anything, he just kept thinking about Lily and how he wanted to here with her. And of course it didn't help that Lily and Clara were having dinner in the same restaurant.
"Huh… oh sorry," said James pulling himself out of his thoughts.
"Come on, you've hardly spoke to Bianca all night," said Sirius then he added in a whisper, "You'll definitely score tonight"
"I don't want to score tonight," James muttered to Sirius.
"How many times have you had sex since Harry's conception?" Sirius asked not bothering to keep his voice down now.
James just glared at him and got up, "I'm going to the bathroom!"
James walked towards the bathroom, and stole a discreet look at Lily and Clara's table. Lily wasn't there.
"Huh…what…" said James as someone pulled him into the coat closet.
Suddenly their arms were round his neck, as soon as her lips touched his he knew without a doubt that it was Lily, even though the closet was pitch black.
"Lily…wait," said James pulling away.
"Why? Wait how did you know it was me?"
"I kissed you every day for 8 years, trust me I'd know you anywhere."
"Oh… that makes sense, I guess," said Lily quietly.
"What is going on, Lily? What happened the other day, then this…"
"Um… I…uh," stuttered Lily stepping back from James.
"No, don't pull away from me. Just talk to me, tell me what is on your mind," said James, placing his hand on Lily's arms, which were started to flap.
"I don't know… I didn't like seeing you two," said Lily then she became aware that she was babbling, "Don't make Bianca, Harry's stepmother, he'll hate her"
"Don't worry," laughed James softly, "I have no intention of making anyone Harry's stepmother, ever"
"Good… it would confuse him…I guess," said Lily.
"You don't have to worry," said James then he whispered into Lily's ear, "I'm still married"
"Uh yeah I guess we still are… um…I'm sorry I don't know what I was thinking I just… what a mess… I'm sorry, we should just forget about this and before…. Yeah and I better get back… I'm sorry"
"Sweetie, stop babbling," he said putting his finger to Lily's lips, "I'm going back out there to make my excuses, you do the same and I'll meet you at the house in a few minutes, okay?"
"Um yeah okay," said Lily meekly.
"Okay then, ladies first," said James charmingly, as he held open the door.
"Thanks"
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"I thought you weren't coming," said James getting up from the armchair he was sitting on.
"Yeah, sorry. It took a while to say bye to Clara, it's been a while since we've seen each other," said Lily as she stood awkwardly in the doorway, "It's been a while," she said looking round the room, she hadn't been back in this house since she collected her things when she left James.
"Yeah, the place isn't the same without you. I can never remember what way the pillows go," said James indicating towards to couch.
"I see that, you've done them all wrong," she said then she went over and fixed them.
"Leave them, we have to talk. I haven't been able to sit on that couch since you left anyway," said James.
Lily looked down at the ground remembering what she had done, "I am sorry about that. I never meant to hurt you"
"How could that not hurt me?"
"I don't know, I just though that it would make us even, help me get over you and Kelly…"
"That didn't mean anything…"
"It did though, it did to me. You were my husband, and you just tell me one day that you kissed her. I… I could see the image of you two in my head every time I closed my eyes, you broke my heart each and every night," said Lily getting emotional.
"I'm so sorry… I never meant to"
"But you did. Every time you were at work, or with Sirius in fact every time you left the house, I always wondered where you were, who you were with… I was slowly breaking down and you… you didn't even notice."
"I'm sorry, I had no idea things were that bad. I thought I was doing the right thing by telling you, I wanted to be honest"
"Well I wish you had never told me,"
"I'm sorry, how many times have I apologized? Please, I know you still feel something can't we just give it another go?"
Lily took a step away from him, shaking her head.
"No, we can't"
"Why?"
"Because I can't trust you…. I won't put Harry through what we both went through. I can't do that to him, I won't"
"But…."
"No buts. It's not fair on Harry, on you, on me."
"And you think this is fair! I never know what you're going to do, kiss me or slap me"
"I'm sorry, but it's hard for me, having you back in my life. I don't know…."
"I love you. I love you so much, I never stopped and letting you walk out that door was the biggest mistake of my life, and I will always regret it."