Nevermore Sister
Pain of Memories
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She doesn't want to sleep anymore. She never wanted to close her eyes again. It was too damn painful. Every night she did so, she would see his face… both of their faces.
They haunted her dreams as well as her waking thoughts…
It hurt…
She wanted it all to go away…
Sleep won't come to her tonight. She wouldn't allow it. She stayed up. She read some of her father's notes on Alchemy. Not like she needed it. She was better than a State Alchemist was. But the lack of sleep would affect her tomorrow. Her job was energy demanding.
She would have to risk it all again. She would have to push through the pain tonight. She needed the money from her job. She can't survive without food, and she was already late on this month's rent. There was n way she was going to sell her bed… which was the last piece of furniture in her small apartment.
Finally closing her eyes, she clutched at her pillow to keep a hold of her sanity as the memories passed through her mind's eye. After a while, she went numb with them and fell into a sleep she knew would leave her spent in the morning.
It was times like this that she wished she never was taken away from her family. It was times like this she wanted to go to her brothers and be with someone who cares… so she wouldn't be alone.
But she liked being alone. It left her with her mistakes so she could deal with them. It helped her push on so she won't make the same mistake again. It'll keep her from going insane.
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A/N: Yes, very short. That's why I'm putting chapter 8 up as well. It's longer.