Marissa's POV

As our lips touched I felt all my problems fade away. He had always had that effect on me. I smiled at him as we parted.

"I missed you" he whispered.

"I missed this" I said kissing him again.

"Marissa, I can't" He said pulling away.

"Why?" I asked confused.

"I...I am with somebody else" he said reluctantly.

"Oh. I'm sorry" I said feeling my cheeks burning.

"No I'm sorry. I just can't believe this. That night I wanted to tell you that I loved you. Then after I lost you I got closer to my girlfriend. But now I just don't know what to do now that your back"

"Who is she" I blurted.

"Taylor" he said knowing what I was about to say.

"Taylor Townsend! Woah! Things really have changed!" I said shocked.

"I know. I shocked myself"

"Well on another subject, what are you doing here? I heard you screaming at the door" I asked wanting to change the subject before he got into why he was with her. I just didn' think I could hear it.

Shit! I knew that I would lose him and now hes with Taylor! I thought to myself.

"I came after Volchok. We have been tracking him" Ryan said bluntly.

"Oh... Wait who were you tracking him with?"

"Your mom" he said looking down.

"Wow. You teamed up with Julie Cooper" I said shocked.

"Only so I could kick Volchok's ass for what he did to you"

"Oh how sweet" I said giggling.

"Riss" Ryan said.

"Yeah Ry" I said.

"I'm sorry about how I let you down"

"You didn't let me down. I have always let you down"

" Maybe a few times" he said smiling, "But I got screwed up after you died"

"What'd you do?" I asked intriqued.

"I moved out of the Cohen's house, I moved into this bar and worked their, I did drugs, I wouldn't talk to anybody, oh and I did some cage fighting"

"All that for me" I said smiling, "Then what happened"

"Then Seth brought Summer from Brown to help. Which she now is a activist. So you really screwed her over. Well Seth showed me how I had changed their lives and how I had to get over you and move on. So I moved back in but I wasn't over you or my revenge. Then Volchok came forward and I talked with him. Then I finally started to get on with my life. Then Volchok escaped and it all came back. Then Taylor helped me to get over it. Then Julie called me up with this address and said he was here. It all came up. We all came her to visit Sum and I came here and found you"

"Sorry I gave up that night. I thought I was gone. I just couldn't go on. My head hurt and I couldn't breathe and I just was so tired. I just wish I would have told you how I felt about you."

"It broke my heart Riss. You looked so helpless. God, I think it was the first time I had really cried in a long time" he said thinking back.

"Ryan I know your with somebody else but I just want you to know that I love you" I said.

"I love you, too" he said to my suprise.

"You do?" I said smiling.

"Yeah. Its just complicated"

"Isn't that how it has always been" I said smiling.

"Yeah."

"Where do we go from here?" I asked.

"I don't know but I do know I can't lose you again" he said smiling.

"Does that mean you actually want me to come back to Newport?" I asked.

"Hell yeah"

"Then I guess I have to get packed!" I said grinning, "Oh and Ryan. Thanks for finding me" I said hugging him close, never wanting to let go. I let go and went to go pack.

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