Story Four: Discovered!
Featuring: Touga and Shizuka
Song: Bush: Chemicals Between Us

I want you to remember
A love so full it could send us all ways
I want you to surrender
All my feelings rose today

Didn't Shizuka remember what we had? She looked at me, with such a bitter and remorseful look; I know she's discovered that I have been unfaithful to her. I just wish that she could forgive me, God, what a fool I have been. My head sinks into my hands which rest on my knees. She sits up on her side of the bed, she leaves. I can't blame her.

And I want you to remain
The power of children can amaze
I'll try not to complain
I know that's a pisser baby

I can't believe he tries to act like we are still a normal couple, I mean what the hell "Hey honey, I'm sleeping around with another woman and damn, wouldn't you know it she got knocked up! I don't care that we're married or have a son, I just care about satisfying my feelings and my…" I let the thought die. As much as I'm angry, I still love him, more than he will ever know. I peer into Sesshomaru's room. He's sleeping like an angel, I won't leave him in a broken house, and I'll stay, even if it kills me.

The chemicals between us
The walls that lie between us
Lying in this bed
The chemicals displaced
There is no lonelier place
Than lying in this bed

I lay down on the cream colored sheets, the house of my love for her, but now, it feels like someone put the Berlin wall in the middle. I don't know what to say to her anymore. She's such an ice-queen sometimes. She comes back in "Sesshomaru is so sweet when he sleeps. I won't leave, he doesn't deserve that." I can barely hide the fact I'm relieved, though she hasn't stated her intentions outright.

I want you to remember
Everything you said
Every driven word
Like a hammer, hell, to my head

He probably forgets the things he has told me, but how can a drunk recall his words? He turns out more like his father everyday and, it scares me. I don't want to live in that type of house; it seems he's only okay with his Izayoi. I know her name; how many times have I heard it moaned by a drunk and screamed in lust on that night when I came home an hour too early…

The chemicals between us
There is no lonelier place
Then lying in this bed
The chemicals displaced
There is no lonelier place
Than lying in this bed

I feel so caught, though Izayoi knew what she was getting into, I don't think she expected a baby, she's so upset and Shizuka is so angry, I doubt many people can say they have felt such isolation.

The chemicals between us
The chemicals between us
Lying in this bed

I sit on the small chair by the chest of drawers that I used to house my 'delicates'. I can't help it, tears form and I wipe them away. A little too hard, it feels like my skin is tearing and that only makes me cry harder. I don't want to see him, yet, I need him. Why couldn't life be easy?

We're of the hollow men
We are the naked ones
We never meant you harm
Never meant you wrong
I'd like to thank
All of my lovers, lovers, lovers

I look at her, I never noticed how frail she looks, there isn't much to her frame, seemingly very little muscle, has she been losing weight? I can smell the salt of her tears, she tries to wipe them away, and her claws leave raised red welts across her face. Her hair is not the long shining tresses they were when we met, what's happened?

The chemicals between us
The army of achievers
Lying in this bed
The chemicals displaced
There is no lonelier face
Than lying in this bed

He has no idea how I feel, how deeply I feel. He was the one for me and I knew if I didn't have him I'd go insane. I haven't been able to eat since I found out about him cheating on me, which has been a lot longer than he knows. Sesshomaru has seen this and I know it distresses him, but how can I eat when everything tastes the same? Life seems so dead if I can't have his love, what did I do wrong? What did I do? I shudder; my body can't produce enough energy to keep me warm. It's ok though, I see it like a punishment for whatever I did wrong. I look up, his eyes are fixed on mine, and I give a small smile but then my world turns black and…

The chemicals between us
The chemicals between us
The chemicals

She passes out; I reach her in the nick of time, saving her from the hardwood floor. She's so light, I can remember our wedding day, I know she weighed more then, she was glowing, I felt like the luckiest man on earth. I look down at her, her face, it's changed. I carry her to the bed and she opens her eyes.


The chemicals between us

I looked up at him, "I'm sorry."

"What for?"

"For whatever I did, whatever it is that I have done to make you leave me." My heart felt like stone, her words stung, she blamed herself.

"Shizu, it's, it's not your fault. Will you help; I have gotten myself into hell. Will you be the hand of redemption?"

I looked at my husband, he seemed so sincere, I can't refuse, and I have never been able to. I grab his hand and let myself fall asleep.