Author's notes: hey guys… I'm really sorry for updating really slow… anyway starting next week is our vacation and that means I have more time to write this story… I just wanted to thank you all for the support and reviews you gave me… I'm going to make something cruel again… please don't forget to leave a review… it really does help…
Dedicated to: "orange-ideas" her story crossing paths gave me that inspiration I really needed…. and to all of you….
samong for giving me an idea about one line of Natsume… thank you very much
Enjoy reading…
Chapter 13:
The game of heart and Mind
Open the Third card of Destiny: Perplexity
by: aeyteenicole
"Can love always wait for the person that it loves? Or it waits to learn to love someone else?"
As time changes, the wind that surrounds everybody changes just like how season changes its phase…. but in love does the wind change or only it was left untouched?
He was gone for a mere of two years, now he is back but will everything be the same as before? Will her love be the same as before? Or will a new confusion enters the scene…
"Why does my heart, yearns for you but my eyes searches somebody else…
Why does it keep on beating and calling your name when my head keeps on thinking of a different person...
My heart tells me it was you but My head whispered to me he is the one…
Now I am lost in this vast land called…
Perplexity"
his voice resounded upon the walls of this particular room, as the lights were still dimmed…
"What is he talking about?" Asked this auburn haired girl
As her eyes were fixed upon him, he looked back at her and as their eyes met…
She suddenly recalled, from a fragment of her past, words of this boy who is holding her hand tightly, words that are just meant for teasing became a sweet music…
"you're mine now, I have a claim for you" Natsume suddenly interrupted as he walks towards Mikan
"idiot" she thought
he then turned his gaze upon the old man who is sitting in front, without a doubt, Mr. Sakura found the situation quite interesting, his hands were clasped together and on his face was a hidden smirk painted.
Quietly, he waited for the next scene that will happen…
"Natsume, stop this non sense, everyone knows that, that girl you are currently holding…" Ryuu said as he nonchalantly walked towards them as his hands were placed inside his pocket…
"belongs to me" he continued as quickly he grabbed her other hand and pulled her towards him, quite lightly…
he smirked at his brother, he thought he has nothing against him, but he was definitely wrong…
"hn…" was the answer that surprised Ryuu "filthy rag" Natsume replied coolly as he gave his brother a sharp glare and smirk upon him…
Fixing his tie, to keep his cool, Ryuu turned his attention and like a gentle man, he spoke to Mr. Sakura…
"Aioshi-san, I know, that you can clear this situation for everybody" he said to him, he was confident that the old gentle man will side with him….
but…
After a few moments of silence, Mr. Sakura finally uttered his answer towards the two young Hyuugas…
"isn't this quite interesting, don't you think?" he said as he gently placed his hands on the table and took a sip of his red wine…
"Well now, if this younger Hyuuga claims that, he first owns my daughter, wouldn't that make things quite complicated" he said as he began his speech "what do you think shall we do?" he asked Mr. Hyuuga
"I have no problem, to whom your daughter shall be engaged or should I say be wedded, both of them are my sons" their father stated
Upon hearing these answers, from the head of both family's, Ryuu became quite furious as it was seen through his eyes… but he kept calm, because he knew, they still aren't finish with his speech…
"Does it mean, my engagement with Ryuu, will be cancelled?" Mikan asked his father
But her father's answer surprised her more…
"I can't say that" he replied to his daughter "… you see Natsume-san, I and your father came across with an agreement that my daughter will be engaged with the eldest son…" he said as he switched his attention towards this crimson eyed lad
with this, Ryuu recovered and got his cool back
"Natsume, now you know, stop with this insidious acts of yours" Ryuu said confidently
"Shut up, a filthy rag like you do not belong here… can't you see the old man isn't finish talking, moron…" Natsume flared back as he tightened his hold upon the young auburn's hand, as if saying, if things comes to worse, they'll just have to run and escape from this situation… and that's how his last resort shall be…
"That's right Ryuu-san, I'm not saying that your engagement is still on… I want to know what is best for my daughter… Now Natsume, tell me… are you ready to play a dangerous game?" he asked
Without a single doubt in his voice Natsume answered:
"I'm playin'…. and this is not a bet I'm bound to lose" he replied
the young Raven haired boy's reply, painted a satisfying smile upon the face of the old gentleman
"Will see…" he said in a tone that is quite puzzling "only two people who are meant to be can find each other, even though he or she shall be left in the middle of a vast land…" were his final words…
The snow kept on falling from the sky, as it gently landed upon the balcony of a certain building, as two young people quietly stood there and watch it falling…
"Hey, what are you thinking?" asked Mikan as she turned her gaze towards him
Natsume, who was leaning on a wall as his hands were folded together, he looked at her straight in her eyes… a mesmerizing gaze that is full of assurance…
He did not replied to her question, instead we walked towards her and from her back, tightly he enveloped his arms around her waist…
First believe-Hoku
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
Wrapping his arms around her, made her heart beat endlessly…
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
"This warmness that I am feeling, will it last or it will only perish…" she thought as she placed her hand on the pair of arms that are giving her this warm embrace, she felt her heart pounding
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
"It seems… a long time have passed since I felt this… just being with him, I can say without a single hesitation, that everything will be fine I can feel that I am safe..." she thought as she tightly closed her eyes….
So many times
When my heart was broken
She then remembered, the time when she needed someone to pull her up, he appeared and he pulled her up from the confusion she was feeling….
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
"I don't have any coward girl-friend" Natsume suddenly said as he switch his attention towards the person beside him and looked straight at her
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
"And as for your good luck charm" Natsume said
She remembered this special moment of theirs… but as she reminisced she heard him say something…
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
"I'm sorry" were the words he suddenly uttered
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
The snow kept on falling from the sky, but unlike before, this snow is full of warmness, it wasn't cold….
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
"Natsume" she said, as she felt that he tightened his embrace around her…
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
"I should've never left you…. I'm sorry..." he said to her, though his voice seems to lack that sweetness, she felt what he said was something he meant…
Fearing forever was a dream
but it wasn't what it seemed
She didn't uttered a word, she waited for him to continue what he is going to say… it is another side of him, that she never saw…
Placing your hand in mine
"for being such an idiot…" he continued "I am an idiot, for abandoning some one who helped me escape the past that kept on haunting me…"
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
"I am an idiot… I almost lost you because I am chained by my past and I am full of uncertainty before… I'm sorry" he said… his voice was full of regrets and guilt…
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
"idiot…" she said "Natsume, you are an idiot… What if I tell you now , that I already learned to love Ryuu" she asked him…
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
"Then, I'll make you fall for me again…. no matter what it takes… I'll have you back" he said to her without a single hesitation
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
She then smiled at him…
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
"Will everything be the same? or …" she thought
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
"Everything is still a blur" she told him "But… there's one thing I'm sure of.." she said as she turned her back and faced him
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
"You are here, and this isn't a dream… this is the reality… my reality" she said
His tantalizing crimson eyes looked straight at her amber orbs, he felt the warmth that he once lost….
How many wishes on a star.
"I'm never letting you go again" he whispered to her
Her amber orbs met with a pair of tantalizing crimson orbs…
With a rare smile painted upon the face of this stunning lad…
"Let's go inside now… it cold here…" he said to her…
But as they were about to enter the hall, a boy with a pair of deep blue orbs stood at the door…
"What do you need" Natsume demanded as he defensively held the hand of the girl standing next to him..
"I have no business with you… I wanted to have a talk with my fiancée" Ryuu replied
As Natsume heard his reason, he glanced at the girl who is standing next to him, he saw in her eyes, there is something she wanted to clear out. As he saw this, he tightened his hold upon her hand and slowly letting it go as he heard her say to him…
"its alright to let go…everything will be fine" the words she gave to him
After that, he trailed them off as they went towards the balcony, he wanted to pull her away from him, he didn't want to let her go that time, but her eyes asked him to do so… He knew that everything will not be the same as before, but he knew, no matter what happens, he'll never let her go again…
Rather than letting himself be buried by different thoughts and jealousy, he decided to leave the two alone, he has no choice; he doesn't want to hear whatever they might talk about…
Placing his hands inside his pocket he began to walk back at the hall…
"Its cold here outside, wear this" Ryuu said to her as he placed the jacket of his suit on her shoulder…
It was then followed by a deafening silence, as this boy stood behind her… he didn't uttered a word, so she decided to begin their conversation…
"Ryuu, what do you want us to-…" she said but she stopped when he suddenly placed his arms around her shoulders..
"Don't go… Don't leave me…" he said to her
This words gave more confusion to the young auburn haired lass… she heard her mind whispering to her, that he is the one, though her heart does not feel what she felt being with natsume…
"Ryuu… I…" she said to him in a very soft voice, but he hushed her
"don't say anything…" he said to her "Tell me… what do you feel?" he asked her
"What I feel… I am still confused… I don't know… my heart tells that, the one I love is Natsume but my mind contradicted and whispered something else…" she thought…
they were both then surrounded by a deafening silence, as she does not know the answer, it was then she remembered, what this boy, who is enveloping her in his arms, told her just quite a few months and a year ago…
Flash back…(Two years ago)
Months have passed, still she didn't heard nor received any news about the boy she loves… she tried forgetting and getting over him, but it was no use… her eyes have run out of tears to cry, but the pain he left still lingers…
"I can't play a happy piece in this paino" she said as she sat at the grand piano her mother left her… "How long will I be in pain..." she asked herself as she began to press the keys on the piano…
Once again she began to play this sad music, she then closed her eyes, in her mind she kept on seeing visions, of this boy whom left all of a sudden…The piece was full of melancholy that can make everyone who listens to it cry, not knowing what is the reason behind those tears… all of a sudden, she felt something wet fell from her eyes…she began to cry unconsciously, tears that can't be stopped…tears filled by sadness and agony…
But then her thoughts were interrupted, when she heard someone clapping his hands…
"What a sad music" said a not so familiar voice…
She then opened her eyes then gently wiped her tears…
"Is it?" she asked him back as she turned around a face him…
her eyes then, laid sight upon a young raven haired boy with deep blue orbs…
"both of them resemble that much" she thought as she forcefully painted a smile on her face…
he then began to walk towards her and stood next to the grand piano…he saw that she tried to hide the tears nearing her eyes as her head was bowed…
"hn…" he said "lets go out" he said to her
Without an answer from her, he took her hand and pulled her up and dragged her inside his car…
Everything was quiet as he was driving his car…so Ryuu decided to open the radio but surprisingly the singer who was singing was non other than Natsume…
As she heard his voice, tears began to near her eyes as she felt sadness and hurt just hearing his voice… quickly she turned the radio off…
"Don't you want to listen?" he asked her in an emotionless tone
"No… I would like to go home now…" she said to him
"You know, crying doesn't fit you" he said to her as he began to drift off back to her house…
"does it?" she asked him back
he then pulled off the car to a stop and gently he wiped the tears that flowed out of her eyes…
"Yes it does" he replied "just let me in and I can make you forget about him…just give me a chance" he said to her
This words from him quite surprised her, it seems he is trying to cheer her up but then it was an obvious futile attempt…
Weeks have passed, still his words lingers around the head of this auburn haired girl…
It was already morning but the sky was dark and gloomy, as rain began to fall from the sky…Slowly she opened her eyes, she then felt a very painful headache as her body was firing up…she felt chills all around, a fever just visited her…
having no choice but to rest, she watched the rain fall from her window, from time to time, Eloise who takes care of her, checks on how she is doing… Her fever has gone up, wanting to rest her eyes, she decided to sleep…
In her dreams she saw the memories she and Natsume shared together…unaware of it, she began to cry in her sleep, but she was awaken when she felt someone placed a wet cloth on top of her forehead… and that same person wiped the hidden tears that escaped her eyes…
"Ryuu, what are you doing here? aren't you suppose to be at school..." she said to him
but all she received was a sweet yet simple reply from him…
"Isn't it obvious… I wanted to take care of my fiancée" he said
"no need to bother, I know you have tons of important things to do" she replied…
"I told you didn't I… I will make you forget about him" he said to her
Strangely, these words from him placed a blush on her face as she covered it by her comforter and tried to hide it…
She's been sick for a week, and everyday he comes at her and takes care of her…a new feeling towards this boy, whom she never tried to look at blossoms… but still she was hopeful that one day the person she truly yearns for will come back, though she hoped it to be sooner or she might fall for this boy who is similar to him… too similar…
Everyday, he picks her after classes and they often go out to some places…she then learned to smile again, all the effort of him trying to cheer her up paid off…but this smile didn't last long…when they accidentally passed an appliances shop…
What she saw, surprised her as it took her attention…it was him, the one who left her, but the painful thing about what she saw, was that he is already with someone else…
"That idiot" she said then she began to run aimlessly…
"hey!" Ryuu called out but it was too late she was out of sight…
As she was running, she can't help but cry…
One for a sorrow- Steps
I wanted your love, but look what it's done to me
"I should've not let my hopes up… I'm such an idiot" she said to herself…
All my dreams have come to nothing
Who would have believed
"Why do I keep on crying about him… he is already with someone else…" she thought as she made a turn…
All the laughter that we shared would be a memory
Unaware of it, he feet took her to the last place she wanted to be in… she ended at the park where they first met…
I cannot count the tears you've cost me
If I could have seen
she was then filled by this memory that is comical yet painful to remember…The sky that was bright and calm, became dark and gloomy as rain began to fall…
And do you ever think of me
And how we used to be?
Kindly the rain wiped and masked her tears…She was drenched by the rain and soaked in her sadness
Oh, I know you're somewhere else right now
And loving someone else, no doubt
"Idiot… I should've stopped thinking about him… but I just can't" she said to her self
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too, too bad
"he is already with someone else…but still I wanted to wait…this is ridiculous" she said…
Are you breaking someone else's heart
'Cause you're taking my love where you are
"I s he really worth this pain?" she asked herself…
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too, too bad about us
"Am I suppose to wait? or am I just waiting for nothing.."
I wanted your love, but I got uncertainty
"That idiot…I can't understand him…he always puzzles me" she thought
I tried so hard to understand you
All the good it did me
"staying here should've given me beautiful memories and smile on my face but…"
Now all the places that we knew remind me of how we were
"Why am I feeling pain? its so painful… is he worth all of this pain and waiting?" she asked herself
Everything is just the same
But all I feel is hurt
"even though it's painful I don't want to forget.. it doesn't matter if he is with someone else right now… I believe that he'll be come back" she thought
And do you ever think of me
And how we used to be?
but all of a sudden the rain stopped from dropping at her, yet it isn't finish pouring out…she saw a shadow of a person, slowly she gaze at that person… to her surprise it was the boy whom promised and swore that he'll make her forget about her…
Oh, I know you're somewhere else right now
And loving someone else, no doubt
"You'll get sick again if you stay soaking wet… lets go back…it'll be troublesome if you become seek again…" he said to her
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too, too bad
"I didn't asked you to take care of me if I were about to get sick again…" she said still sobbing "If its troublesome then just leave me alone"
Are you breaking someone else's heart
'Cause you're taking my love where you are
"That I can't do…" he said to her "it's troublesome but I wanted to do it"
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too, too bad about us
"its funny…I am with this person yet I am thinking of him…" she thought
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too, too bad
"let's go now, before both of us caught a cold…" he said
Oh, I know you're somewhere else right now
And loving someone else, no doubt
With that she stood up from the bench…they began to walk side by side under that rain…she was still crying but she stopped when she heard him say again those words that surprised her most…
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too, too bad
"I promise if you let me in I will never make you cry…" he said to her
Are you breaking someone else's heart
'Cause you're taking my love where you are
All she replied was a complete silence, it is just easy falling in love but to force your self to fall is something else…even though she wanted to accept his feelings towards her, she can't…she is still full of uncertainty but she must try…
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too, too bad
"If only he could've said that to me… but I guess I should learn to like Ryuu…I just wish I don't fall in love with him…I am still hoping" she thought
End of flash back…
The snow was falling slowly as a young girls heart and mind is trapped in a confusion… but she must know what is real and isn't…
"I'm sorry… I just don't know the answer" she finally replied after a long silence…
Slowly he released her from his embrace then leaned on a wall… she glanced at him… there was nothing she can say to him… she is sure that her heart belongs with Natsume but why does her mind keep on thinking about Ryuu?...
Not far from them, somebody eaves dropped and heard what she said… the uncertainty in her voice, it was obvious she is still puzzled… he was leaning on the glass door as smirk was painted on his face…
"Natsume… what will you do now? how will you make her realize what she truly feels…" he said to himself as he stood in a perfect posture and began to walk away…
Author's note: hey guys thank you so much for supporting this story… this chapter should've been the last one but something came up… I don't want it to end that easy so I placed another twist but it wasn't cruel… do you think?
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