A/N: Mara is fourteen now…more about that in the next chapter. I mentioned Acelan in the last chapter? He's a character belonging to Starlight and Notebook—so thank you very much for giving me these ideas! Please review!
--Shocking realization--
I have a father.
Years gone by and I feel stupid
All this time, thinking,
really believing,
that this falling is merely my fault
because I'm a bastard.
(Not true.)
Sitting at my window, seeing stars
When it's not night
And the mother that hates me finally tells me.
No small talk.
Just this.
When I start crying she just shrieks.
How could I be so stupid,
stupid, she wants to know?
All this time he's been at home,
the home that she's never been
that I'll never go to unless
I want to die.
How could I not have known?
You're a mongrel,
she hisses at me,
and I'm so scared I willingly fall.
Straight to Ecl.
My personal Hell.
But my haven as well.
I run through the ice and I'm tripping over my feet
While my body rocks back and forth in real life,
an empty shell
I hear a distant scream and wonder if it's me
But no--I realize that's
my mother.
Not hate,
I realize, no.
She's frightened.
Of me.