Brothers in Arms
I don't really know what to say. I mean, everything's just gone so wrong. How can we go from something as amazing as securing fresh meat for everyone, to losing the only woman I ever truly loved? I felt so helpless. I just stood there and let Gisbourne take the last piece of hope out of my life. What else is there now? I know Much would rebuke me for even thinking such things, but I can't help it. Marian, my Marian, engaged to another man. And not just any other man. Sir Guy of Gisbourne. The man that's taken my home and lands, destroyed my village, forced me into an outlaw's life. Well I suppose he didn't really force me into this kind of lifestyle, but it's due to him and the Sheriff's actions that I am sitting alone in the middle of a forest, contemplating life without Marian.
Not sure how I managed to actually complete the wedding ceremony today. It isn't Eleri's fault, I know that, but I just can't stop thinking about the next marriage that's going to be held in Locksley, and the stupid necklace that started all of this. Maybe that's a bit harsh. If Gisbourne hadn't stolen the necklace and given it to Marian, if he hadn't set a trap, if Tom hadn't tried to steal from Knighton meaning Marian had to stay behind, if I'd only gotten there faster.
If, if, if! It's done now; I can't change anything about it. I'm just going to have to live with the fact that Marian is no longer mine, not that she could ever be owned, and my old life has gone.
At least I still have Much! Poor Allan, losing his brother after just finding him again. As much as I regret not being able to save him, I don't think Tom was ever really right to join us. I really meant what I said though, about family. For the first time in ages, I feel like I have a family. Granted, a rather dysfunctional and unusual one, but a family none the less! Never really knew what it was like to have a family. I know Father loved me, but he never really showed it. Guess that was the drawback of being Lord of a manor. Think the best thing he ever did was find me Much. He's like a best friend and big brother all rolled into one! Really don't know how I would survive without him, and he knows it!!
We did manage to do some good deeds, other than Eleri's marriage that is. Lucky George's luck has run out! Everything's been given back, and more besides. At least that's one over on the Sheriff, always helps!!
Suppose I should get back to the party before I'm missed. Time to go and celebrate the end of my life as I know it. Robin of Locksley is long gone. Say hello to Robin Hood, outlaw and peasant's hero.