The Return of the King
How the hell did I let this happen? We had it all sorted, the Physician was going to speak out against Gisbourne when the King came back, Gisbourne and the Sheriff were going to be brought to justice, and Marian would be free from marrying Gisbourne. Oh and we would be pardoned and get our lands back, not that I'm really that interested in that, but I know Much was. But now, that's all it's going to be, a thought, another dream for Much to dream. I've given up on dreaming, I have no need of them anymore. What's the use of dreaming when everything you've ever wanting slowly evades you, until it finally leaves? What else do I have to fight for now? The one thing that kept me going was the fight against the system for Marian, so that one day we would both be free to marry, as was intended. But now? No dream, no hope, no Marian.
Marian. Marian! My one true love that now lies dead in front of me. I still can't quite believe it. I keep expecting her to open her eyes and tell me to grow up. I would gladly hear her chastise me now. Marian, please, you can yell and shout and scream at me as much as you like, just please come back. I can't do it without you. I need you. I love you.
This is all my fault. I was the one that told her to go and rob Gisbourne rather than acquire wealth herself, and now look at us. Gisbourne, the man that I had just saved her from, still manages to take her away from me.
Why am I so goddamn stupid? It was obvious that Pitts was somehow working with Gisbourne, after all he did lie for him. Why didn't I see it before? Now we're all going to die. At least I would be with Marian.
NO!
I'm not going to let that happen. I will not leave Much or John or Djaq to face the mess that I have created. I am going to save them, and then kill both the Sheriff and Gisbourne. This is all their fault, not mine. If it wasn't for them then we wouldn't be living in a cave right now, and Marian would not be dead. I am not going to let them win. They've taken Marian, but it's the last person they are going to take from me. This ends, now.