Clue: No
Who would have thought two days ago that we would be celebrating as we are now?! Everything's just right! OK, so the Sheriff and Gisbourne are still in charge, and the King is still in the Holy Lands, and we're still living as outlaws in a forest, but aside from that everything's as it should be! Marian's alive and not married!! I'm not entirely sure why Marian is not dead, but I'm not going to question it! It's the best thing that has happened to me since my return to England.
Although, it wasn't all happy and joy. I still thought I had lost her. After getting her back, then losing her again, I finally thought that now she was mine to stay. Until of course, it was pointed out that our only chance of bringing Gisbourne to justice had been killed by Gisbourne himself. There was no way I was going to let the wedding take place. I didn't care what Edward was telling me about the Sheriff's plan to kill the King. At that moment, all I cared about was Marian and preventing her from leaving me again. I know it was selfish, but for once I just wanted to think about me and what I needed. I didn't just want Marian, I needed her. After realising what I'm like without her, I never want to go through that again. So I did the only thing I could think of, for the first time, I ran. I ran from everything I didn't want, from all my shattered hopes and dreams, all the people I love, to the one place that will soon not be mine at all.
Locksley.
I should have known that Much would not leave me. I felt guilty as soon as I said those things to him. It wasn't his fault, but I just wanted someone to experience the pain that I was feeling. Another selfish act. But at the time I didn't care, I wasn't myself. I'm not sure how long I sat there for, I just remember thinking about all that I've lost and the pain that accompanied it. After a while, I was so disgusted with myself for what I had become I had to leave. I needed to find Marian, to just find out.
Even now I don't know what I was expecting. Maybe for her to throw her arms around me and beg me to take her away, to save her from Gisbourne, because she loved me and couldn't bear to be apart from me a moment longer. Even then I knew that was unlikely to happen. But when she told me to grow up and that she was going to marry him, my already broken heart, shattered into tiny pieces. I was a broken man, what else did I have left? Much was unlikely to ever talk to me again, I didn't feel like, or want to be, a leader and Marian was out of my reach. So I planned to leave. I would spend my last night overlooking my home, and then I would leave it all behind.
Well that was the plan anyway! I always underestimate Much, and am still frequently surprised by him. I'll never know how he can be so forgiving, but I am grateful! Never again shall I treat Much as just another outlaw, he's more than a friend, more than a brother, he's my guardian angel! I've no idea where I would be without him, probably on my way to Hull, on my own, preparing to go back to the Holy Land and fight for something I have no interest or belief in. But now it's all changed!
No King means no wedding! Marian looked so beautiful! Even more so when I was kissing her! Only then did I allow myself to dream of hope again. But still had a job to do! Save the Nobles, and get out scot-free. Easy work!! Bit of fun!!
Now, here we sit, in our forest, toasting each and every person we can think of. Tonight is not for reflecting on our past pains or our lost loves, tonight is for looking towards our future dreams and new hopes. Tonight is for us.
TO US, THE MOST NOTORIOUS OF OUTLAWS TO EVER LIVE IN SHERWOOD FOREST AND PROTECT THE PEOPLE OF NOTTINGHAM!! TO LITTLE JOHN, OUR RESIDENT BODYGUARD!! TO ALLAN, OUR VERY OWN LIAR AND TREASURED PICKPOCKET!! TO WILL, OUR LIFESAVER IN THE FORM OF WOOD!! TO DJAQ, ONE OF THE LADS, AND MASTER ALCHEMIST!! TO MUCH, OUR AMAZING COOK, OUR CONSTANT REMINDER TO GET MORE FOOD, AND MY PERSONAL RESCUER!! TO THE PAST, TO NOW, AND TO OUR VERY PROFITABLE FUTURE!! TO US!!