Chapter 15
Broken
Point of View: Sora
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Run...
Faster...
Don't look back...
And I obeyed...
I boarded the ship without a second thought. It was practically empty, for tourists didn't usually visit in the fall, and students usually don't travel about the islands much during weekends, or really at all. I walked the dock's railing, my hands leisurely hanging over them, and the rest of my body just leaning, the white bars being my only support. I looked into the tranquil sea of blue. My reflection glared back at me. I was in no mood to smile, no mood to really show any emotion, but I showed anger, sadness, and confusion.
I had taken Janice's advice. It took me a while to get over to Valencia Island, but it would be worth the wait. I was going to see Kairi, and tell her I loved her. It had been prolonged long enough. I'd tell her, despite what she might say, and then everything would be alright, because I knew she loved me too. But maybe I was wrong...
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-flashback-
I walked down the platform, no luggage in hand, for I wouldn't be staying here. The salty breeze ruffled my chestnut hair as I looked around. I felt ready. It hadn't been too long ago when I had met Janice's friends; it hadn't been too long ago since she told me to go see Kairi. I did as I was told, and I had quickly boarded the ship just in time to take me to her island. It would be an hour ride over, but I didn't care how long it took, as long as I saw her. I was determined.
6:00 pm
I wandered about the little island, seeking any signs that might determine where she was. Perhaps if by chance I might find Selphie or Tidus, and they might know. I walked on. This island was really different from Pearl, and our own home island. It was more metropolitan, while Pearl is edging more towards the sort of developing village kind of island, and our home island looks as an island in the brinks of civilization.
The sidewalks were bustling with people, going their own individual way to who knows where. The natives seemed to really know their way around, while I was just drifting about in the hopes of finding her by some sort of miracle. I sighed. This indeed did seem quite pointless, coming all the way out here, just to be disappointed. But nevertheless, I trudged onwards. I hadn't come all this way just to go home empty-handed. I was going to find her, no matter how long it took, and no one was going to stop me. I was determined.
I sighed as I reached the end of yet another sidewalk. There was no chance she could be out here now, it was... I checked my watch.
6:52pm
I sighed once more in despair. I passed by a little shop. Looking up, I read the colorful letterings. "Robinson's..." An ice cream parlor. I walked on, not giving a care in the world what shops or stands there were. They were nothing to me right now. All that mattered was Kairi.
I stuck my hands into the pockets of my jacket. The wind sent unwanted shivers up my spine, and I was grateful for my jacket...that Janice had forced me into taking along. My attire was black. I wore fingerless gloves, black with white crosses, forming an 'x.' My jacket was short sleeved and hooded, also black, lined with white. I wore a navy blue shirt inside it all, and the same chain still resided around my neck. I had stopped wearing my cheerful bright colors a while back, when I was back in Kingdom Hearts, and I guess it just stuck.
I groaned exasperatingly as my hands seized my spiky hair, attempting to rip it all out. This was so frustrating! How could I believe, how could I so easily deceive myself into believing I could find her in this city with so many people? Well, it's called hope. There was still a glint of hope that I could still find her out here in this wide world, and as long as there was still hope, I would still be out here, looking for her.
The rosy sun dipped into the platinum sea, a set of watercolor paints spilled across the sky, and fluffy clouds of orange and pink littered the pretty sky. I sighed as I looked at the lovely scenery. I remembered those days when we were fourteen, when I'd take Kairi all the way out to the pier just to watch the sunset with her. The beach—wait... I averted my gaze to the sea.
The beach...
If she really is out at this time...then she would have to be at the beach! There is no other place she could be, she has to be here! My pace quickened to a full sprint. My steps were slow and clumsy as soon as I stepped foot in the angelic sand. I looked around. No one was here. I took another step forward. Two outlines caught my eye. There she was! There was Kairi! I started forward, I had started to call her name but then something made me stop.
"No..."
There she was, kissing another guy. My voice immediately halted, and I felt it wither away. I couldn't believe it. There she was. There was the girl I had come all the way out here to find, and it turns out she already has someone. I turned away. This was no place for someone like me. We really were an item of the past. A single tear trickled down my cheek. I harshly brushed it away.
-end flashback-
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Angry blue eyes glared back up at me. I felt forgotten, no, wait, I was forgotten. She had someone now, someone who's taken my place in her life. How could this happen? This wasn't supposed to be how things ended! I wasn't supposed to be left alone at the end of this day!
"You weren't supposed to replace me!" I screamed back to the island as it grew smaller and smaller, gradually becoming nothing but a mere dot.
"Do you hear me?!" I cried out to the sunset, to the ocean, "This wasn't supposed to happen!"
Then, I just broke down in tears. I felt cold, empty. Like the embers that had kept me alive had been blown out. There was nothing left for me in this world. I wanted so desperately to just hurl myself into the sea. I wanted to die, and leave her to mourn for me...if she even had a heart left to shed tears for me.
Had she really forgotten me? Had she really forgotten about our promises? Our cherished memories? Perhaps...
I was nothing to her. I was just...
I wiped away the rest of my tears that littered my face. The ship pulled closer to Pearl.
...a memory...
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I slammed the door behind me as I entered my dwellings. I stomped into my room, not caring how loud I was. Once there, I slammed my door shut, and locked it. I closed the curtains, and blocked out any signs of light. The sun had set on me.
I threw myself onto the bed. My eyes closed. I've never felt so alone, so betrayed. I felt as if the world would stop turning, just on account of me. I felt...I felt...broken. I felt as if I were a glass cup, not quite so accidentally dropped against the cold floor, and shattered. Then, I was just carelessly swept up, and dumped into the trash. Yes...I was junk...
A knock came from outside my door.
"Sora?"
It was Janice.
"Sora? What happened? Can I come in?"
I groaned, exasperatingly, "No. I just want to be alone."
"But—" she started.
"Please, just leave me alone," I mumbled.
And she listened me. Her voice failed to return, to remind me of the pain of the reality, but in all truths, I was trapped in another dimension of lies and deceits.
I looked at my drawer. I still had her good luck charm...
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Janice stood outside of Sora's door. She didn't know exactly what, but something had gone terribly wrong, and she had to fix it somehow.
What happened, Sora?
She quietly walked back down the stairs.
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Author's Notes:
Guess what?! I finally found this fiction, that I've been looking for, for like, a year! I remembered when I first found this sight, I had read this story, that I thought was really sweet, even though it didn't get a lot of reviews. I just couldn't find it, so I kinda gave up for a while.
Then...day before yesterday, I looked up her penname, or at least the next one on the list, Witch Baby Nikki, and this girl had written a KH one, but I couldn't remember anything about the summary. It was titled, "At the End of the Stars," and I decided to look anyways, and then, in there, it said 'by Witch Baby,' and there I was saying, "Ohmigosh, this is it!" I so loved that story back then! It's actually really sweet! I remember feeling sad because I never finished reading the story...but it turns out, the story was never finished, nor was the sequel ever written, which is a shame, but I guess sooner or later you'll reach a point where you just run out of time or interest in writing.
Ooh, and yesterday, I also found this nice Card captor Sakura site! I used to love the show when it was on! Ahh...reflecting back makes me feel old...lol.
Damn...I forgot Lvkishugs knew where I live...
SO...the person in the shadows was Sora, oh yeah, and thanks for the cookie, Zanisha! Thanks to everyone who reviewed! You guys are so uber nice!
Ooh...I'm currently surfing the web, and I feel so evilly happy! Ahh...remember that girl I told you guys about? That gave me her names, then just took them all back? I see she's getting stressed out, eh? Aww...poor girl, a little busy? A lil' stressed? MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! -cough- Hmm...didn't I say I was over it? Well, you guys should know, I'm quick get over things...but I hold grudges. MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Okay...must calm down...fast. Ooh...I'm seriously starting to feel evil... I have a sudden urge to laugh until I will be considered by all to be totally insane......and so it starts. -starts laughing- And I'm seriously laughing; if anyone saw me right now, you'd say, "Umm...are you alright...?"
Okay, I'm starting to scare myself... And yet I'm still laughing... Oh look, I have all these goosebumps... Ohmigosh, I'm still laughing... Okay, I've seriously lost it... Okay, I'm in no condition to do reviews today... -still laughing-
Oh, and HisLight, there should be a button in your program under the drop down window 'insert' and it says 'symbols,' well, at least it does in mine... God this is a long author's note...
Okay, question: are there any bugs or insects that freak you out? (I'm not doing my regular 'question of the day' format just this once...cause I don't feel like it)
My answer: Just remember this: don't ever dig up a worm and hang it in front of my face; don't ever find a spider and let it loose on me. Some night this week, there was a spider on my little (I don't know what to call it)...it's almost like a bookshelf next to my bed, and there was a little tiny spider on this Border's bag I never got rid of, and I told my mom, just 'cause I'm terrified, and then, my mom forced me to get a Kleenex and squish it, and I kept saying, "Why can't you do it?" and you know what she said?! She said if she squished it, she'd press the squished spider on my head!!! So we made a deal, that I squish it, and she throws it away! And, finally I do it, and then I'm screaming, "MOM!!! MOM!!!" and I'm just bawling like a baby. Yes, I'm that terrified of bugs! And you know what else? When we were in second grade, my friends and I would dig in the grass, and there'd be all these worms, and sometimes, my friend would take one, and chase me with it!!! Sad, yes...
Ugh...my stomach's starting to feel queasy from all the laughing...
This has got to be the longest author's note I've ever written that's full of bull! Okay, plz review!
-me
(PS:
Poll:
Ten years from now, if I asked you about ffnet, what would be your reaction?
A. I'm still writing on it!
B. It was fun while it lasted.
C. I still go on to see today's fictions sometimes.
D. It was a waste of time! I hated it!
E. What's ffnet?
Me? I'd probably answer B.)
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