Hello! so i kept my word and had this finished by the end of easter but i swear something was wrong with my account here and it wouldn't let me upload anything till today! But here it is sorry for the long wait and Confused i swear a real and better explination is coming later! Right i don't own them but if i did you couldn't pay me enough to give them up which is probably why Dick Wolf still owns them!

Him-The minutes after

He wasn't sure how long he sat there. He just knew that when he snapped out of it he needed to get out of there and now! He got up and walked as fast as he could toward the doors.

"Goren." The voice echoed across the squad room.

Bobby turned not wanting to meet his captain's eyes.

"Goren I need to talk to you now."

He entered the office and slumped into a chair. The need to run, to get far away was still with him. But there was little he could do right now, if he wanted to keep his job. Did he? She was gone and he was alone. Did he still want a constant reminder of what he had lost?

"Are you listening to me!?" Ross said angrily jerking Bobby form his thoughts.

"No." he replied bluntly

Ross sighed he had imagined as much

"Look Goren I know you and her were great friends but...she just needed to...she just couldn't stay."

"Yep I get it." he said in an attempt to end the conversation and escape.

"Goren, It just all caught up to her. The kidnapping, the hostage situation, your...your fight. The stress it was too much." He looked and saw Goren was clearly only half listening. "She decided that she wanted to pursue a life as a circus performer." He added sarcastically.

"Uhu." Bobby added absent mindedly.

"Fine. Look I'm going to get you a new partner okay. Take a early weekend and go home okay?"

"Yep." Bobby answered and got up from his chair and left.

He had been sitting on his couch for hours now. Despite what Ross might think he had been listening. He had heard all of it. Even that stupid remark about a circus performer. But he couldn't of stayed, he needed to get out, to get away from everything that reminded him of her.

"I'm getting a new partner." the sigh filled the whole house.

Bobby didn't want a new partner. He just wanted her to come back.

"I don't care what Ross says." he shouted angrily at the tv. "I'm going to call her find out what the heck she is trying to do! Were partners she should of told me first! She should of come to me and talked! She should of let me in! She should of trusted me...She.. should of...of toled me.." he whispered as he tried not to break down into tears.

He had had many partners leave him before. But this one was different. This one mattered. And now what he had feared for years had happened. It was over and she was gone. This time, part of him seemed to know, she wasn't coming back.

He lay down on the couch and drifted off into misery, the phone contrary to his plan, stayed untouched all weekend.

AWWWWW!!!!!!! How i love to depress them! MUHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! well new chapter soon! (most likely tomorrow). Completly unrelated to the story but i want to remind you all to pray for the families of the victims of the V-Tech shooting.