A Time to Weep

Chapter Two

Jake carried me as he ran. I couldn't stand the smell of him, and I was trying to push him away.

"Jake! Let go! I need to-STOOPPPP!" At this, he put me down, I mumbled a "Be right back," and took off. I needed to quench the sharp, burning sensation in my throat, and he wasn't making it any easier.

Right after my transformation, a million different sounds came to me at once. My hearing was the best it's ever been, to say the least, and I could hear every sound around me for miles. The birds, a rustle in the grass, and heartbeats. Many, many heartbeats, and Jake's was the closest. It was too overwhelming.

Then came the smells. And, once again, Jake was there. There was no way to describe his "werewolf" smell, as I'm sure mine was most unappealing to him as well. But above all that, I could smell his blood. I don't understand how Edward could be around me, because I was in agony. His blood was so tempting, and I could imagine mine smelled better to Edward.

As I ran, I tried to pick up the scent of an animal, any animal, so I wouldn't have to burst from the pain. Once I found one, I tried to think how I would do this. Of course, Edward had never told me the details of hunting, and why should he? He had no intention of putting me through this, and now I was on my own.

So, what was the best way to put an animal out of this misery? Break a leg, and let if focus on that instead of the blood flowing out of it's neck? No, it would still be in pain. What else could I break (and I can't believe I'm thinking about this right now) and how fast would I have to be. I bet I am pretty fast, but is it fast enough?

Then, a deer was in front of me. Instinct kicked in, and I ran to it. I quickly broke its neck, sunk my teeth in, and drank. It felt so good to get rid of the ache in my throat, that I didn't care how vile I probably looked. I didn't care if the blood ran down the front of me, or if anyone saw me. There was the deer, and me.

As I felt the deer going dry, I brought my head up from it. Oh, I thought, that's how you do it.

As I thought this, I felt something tugging at my mind. It felt like someone was looking, inside my head, as to where I was and what I was going to do next.

Hey, get out of there!

And then the feeling was gone.

"Edward, I don't think she's in here." Alice said for the millionth time. "I've been checking to see what her future holds, but nothing is coming. It's like something, or someone, is blocking me seeing anything. It's so strange. Edward?" I hadn't really been paying attention to her. Bella had to be here. Where else would she go, besides home, and we had already checked there!

"Alice! We can't give up. I know she's here somewhere, in this forest."

"I know you want to find her, but we've searched everywhere, and still no sign." I couldn't take her pessimistic thoughts any longer, so I ran.

Jacob was still where I had left him.

"Well, that was fast. Why are you standing so far away? Oh my god, why are your eyes red?" He advanced towards me.

"Stop! Don't come any closer. I have to explain." He looked confused. There was a war waging inside his head. Did he really want to believe I was a vampire? No, but he had to face the inevitable.

"Jake, I'm a vampire. That's why my eyes are red, that's why I'm standing so far way, and that's why I got back so fast. My eyes will be like this for a while, you smell too tempting for me to be closer, and I run probably as fast or faster than you now. " Whew. I had gotten it out, and yet I was still freaked. This was as new to him as it was to me, and I still had trouble believing it as well. He still looked confused.

"There are so many questions, Bella. How…?"

"Well," I started, not really wanting to talk about it, "Edward… well you see he bit me while we were, um, doing things teenagers do." He blushed. The blood! No, Bella, don't. Jake is your friend. I took a step back and hurried on. "He left me there, which I have no idea why, and then you found me three days later. I must be a mess."

"So, why did you just leave?"

"I, uh, I was…you know." Suddenly, realization dawned on his features and he looked embarrassed again.

"Jake, I know you can't help it, but stop blushing, please." I added the last part to sound more…human.

"Sorry." I tried hard not to breathe. "I have more questions." I nodded for him to continue. "Well, forgive me for asking, but why did Edward leave you? I thought you too were in love." He added bitterly.

"I don't…know." The feeling you get when you want to cry built up in my throat, but then I remembered that one, I couldn't cry, and two, I was trying not to think about Edward anymore. He had ruined me, and torn my heart in two, again. Then, I felt the tugging again. Someone was trying to get inside my head. Stop! I willed it to go away, and before the command was out of my mouth, I felt normal again. Wow, that was weird.

"Oh, Bella, I just remembered the treaty." Jake said in a pained tone. I gasped as I remembered too. Oooh, bad idea. I inhaled all the smells around me, and discontinued breathing altogether. Edward was right; not breathing was the most uncomfortable feeling ever.

"Yeah." I would have to give one-word answers now.

He noticed my discomfort. "Are you okay? I mean I know I probably smell bad, but it can't be as horrible as it looks." He gestured to the grimace on my face, and took a step forward to console me. I took one step back, and he sighed in exasperation.

"You know this is going to be hard to deal with. Somehow, the gang will find out that you are a vampire, and the Cullens will have to pay." By the end, his voice was low and filled with hatred.

"Jake, I know this is hard, so I'm gonna leave. I'm going somewhere where I'll be safe." I even surprised myself at these words. When had I decided this? I knew I had to get away from Jake and all the werewolves, but I especially had to get away from Edward. I couldn't be around him. How could I face him when I hated what he had done to me? And it's not the fact that I'm now a vampire. Well, I'm not going to lie. I wanted to make this change for him, and now he's not even going to be with me forever.

I reveled in his stupidity. I know I was egging him in when we were kissing, but I thought he had had more self-control. Maybe he was tired of holding it all in, and he wanted to see how far…No! Stop. If I keep trying to side with him, and then I'll get nowhere.

"But Bella, I couldn't let you just leave. I feel responsible for you now. Where are you going to go?"

I thought about it for a few seconds. Where could I go? Then I remembered Italy. The Volturi had said I would make a wonderful edition to their team. Maybe, just maybe…

"I'm going to Italy."

Just as I started saying this, that feeling arose in my head, and I suppressed it with my mind this time.

Aro paced the floor as he waited for Caius to enter. They had matters to discuss.

"Aro! What a lovely day, don't you think?" Caius, finally, entered which as much bravado as Aro usually has. Something is up.

"Caius, my dear friend, you know something."

"I do, indeed. It's Bella, Aro. I've heard from my sources that she is coming here, to Italy. Edward has changed her."

Aro gave a light gasp. "And so soon! I am delighted! Well, we must welcome her with the utmost respect and pleasure. She will most likely be here soon. Let's get a move on."