Hey everyone! I finally got the second chapter done. Thanx for the reviews
and thanx to Brilover for the ideas, I just might use them!
Home is where the heart is
I wake up to the suns rays reaching through the blinds and I feel considerably alone, probably due to the absence of a certain red haired woman. I bring my arm up to my face to shield my eyes from the sunlight and breathe deeply.
Bang, bang, bang!
"Bugger off!" I shout at the person hammering on the door. It didn't work, because the idiot came in and pulled my bedcovers from me.
"Come on, get up you lazy." came Sirius's cheerful voice,
"I thought I told you to Bugger off!" I said, putting emphasis on the swearing,
"And I thought I told you to get up." He replied in the same cheery tone. Help me! Maybe if I just stay here he'll go away. He must have known I wasn't going to comply with the request of getting up if the fact that he lifted the mattress up so I tumbled on to the floor was any indication.
"Bastard!" I growled at him, while curling into a ball.
"Now what was the spell for getting freezing cold water, let me think," he said. Great now I have to get up unless I want to be soaked and cold.
"I'm up," I say while I struggle to get to my feet. I turn to look at him as water drops on to my head, soaking me. I lift my head and see him laughing uncontrollably, God I must of looked a right state. I know we're supposed to be adults here but... "One piece of advice, run!" I chase him down stairs of the house, trying to avoid the other occupants as much as possible, Sirius however just banged into them knocking some of them over.
"What the hell is going on?" I hear somebody shout, which stops us both dead in our tracks. Not with what was shouted, it was the person who was shouting. Lily! I love Lily, I really do, but she has a really bad temper, one that you don't want to get on the receiving end of. At then it's like me and Sirius are back in school, because we each take turns on blaming one another, in an attempt the other will feel Lily's wrath. Some things never change.
"Whatever," she says defeated, "I'm too tired for this, just clean up the bloody mess, you guys have got water everywhere." Sirius opens his mouth to speak but Lily cuts him off, "I don't care, just clean it up!" we both comply, because Lily can be scary when she wants to be.
"How was your mission last night Lily," Sirius asks her once we're finished, I pretend to look intrigued, I mean it looks better if I've not seen her since before she left.
"No go," she replied settling into a chair, "have we still got to be at headquarters at eleven?"
"Yep," Sirius replies,
"Shit!" I say noticing that it was nearly the appointed time,
"That was why I was waking you up. Now go and bloody get ready."
It wasn't until we reached headquarters before we realised that something was wrong; first of all, unlike the usual things going on in the world we got through it, pulling jokes and there was usually smiles, but not today. There was a morbid silence the moment we got in.
"What happened?" I hear Lily say and I notice Sirius shake his head silently. We walked together quickly to the heart of our operation, where we hear the end of a gloomy speech, spoken by Dumbledore to other members of the order.
".She will of course be sorely missed, but at times like this we have to remember why we're here fighting, and no matter what, we can't forget that. We need to remember that even though it seems like we're not, at the moment, making a difference, I am here to tell you that we are. We can't give in; we won't let her death be in vain by giving into Voldemort and letting him win." He trails off to silence; he looks in our direction and moves towards us.
"I take it that you heard?" he said softly,
"Who?" Lily replies quietly,
"Stella Wainwright," he replies, oh no. She was only a few years older than me.
"What? But she took over from me last night!" Lily says shocked. I feel a sense of dread fill me; that could of easily have been Lily, if she'd stayed that little bit longer. no I can't think that, I say to myself as bile rises to my throat.
"I know Lily," Dumbledore replies, as Sirius puts an arm around her shoulders in a comforting way.
Lily moves out his grip and asks uncertainly "When last night?"
"We don't know; we just got the confirmation 20 minutes ago." Dumbledore says. After a moments silence he added quietly "I know you guys need a little space to digest this but the truth is we don't have the time." Lily leans backwards on to me for support.
Sirius then asks the question we're all wanting to know, but aren't brave enough to ask right now, "What do you want us to do?"
"There have been reports of suspicious activity around the North-west of England." Dumbledore replies while pointing to the designated area on a map, "I just want to set up a small surveillance team and."
"Surveillance?" Sirius replies quickly. "Sir don't you think that."
"If you had let me finish Mr Black." Dumbledore interrupted, and Sirius blushed, making me glad that I hadn't rushed in with that response too. "I'd tell you that, I wanted you three to go in first and make sure it was safe to send one in. I wouldn't mind sending in Peter or Remus but the less people going the less suspicious it seems,"
"When do we leave?" I ask,
"As soon as possible." He replies and we all nod, "If there is death-eater activity I want to know before any Muggles get mixed up in it."
"How are we getting there?" Lily asks.
"If I send you in by Portkey they're going to know, because I'd need to set one up." Lily nods in understanding, "If there are death-eaters they're probably watching who goes on or off the knight bus, which leaves."
"Muggle transport," Lily finishes.
"Yes Miss Evans. I'll leave it to you to decide which method you want. Try to keep minimum contact with headquarters," he says. Then with a serious look he adds, "be careful."
We all head back to the house to get some stuff. While Sirius is in his room, I head to Lily's. I knock quietly on the door, no answer. I knock again and I swear this time I hear a muffled sob.
"Lily," I say opening the door quietly. She was sitting on her bed with tears falling freely from her face. I shut the door behind me and move to sit next to her, pulling her into an embrace. She moves so she can cry with her head buried into my shoulder. I whisper comforting words as I stroke her hair.
"Is this about Stella?" I ask, and I feel her nod. "Lily you can't blame yourself for what." I start to say but she cuts me off.
"When I found out it was her, I felt relieved." She says lifting her head to look at me. "I felt relieved that it wasn't me. That it wasn't me who was killed, that it was her instead. And I feel so guilty because I still feel that way." She finished and buried her head again.
I take a deep breath and say, "it's the same way I felt. I don't want to lose you Lil" Lily looked back up at me. "It's the same way anyone would feel. But just because we feel that way doesn't mean we wanted it to happen; nobody wanted it to happen and it doesn't mean that we don't care. We still need to carry on though; we still need to fight Lily and we can't do that if we're full of guilt and remorse."
"Merlin, I love you James." She whispers, while placing her head lightly on my shoulder. "Don't you ever leave me!"
"I'm not going anywhere, I love you too much." I replied with as much emotion as I could muster.
Home is where the heart is
I wake up to the suns rays reaching through the blinds and I feel considerably alone, probably due to the absence of a certain red haired woman. I bring my arm up to my face to shield my eyes from the sunlight and breathe deeply.
Bang, bang, bang!
"Bugger off!" I shout at the person hammering on the door. It didn't work, because the idiot came in and pulled my bedcovers from me.
"Come on, get up you lazy." came Sirius's cheerful voice,
"I thought I told you to Bugger off!" I said, putting emphasis on the swearing,
"And I thought I told you to get up." He replied in the same cheery tone. Help me! Maybe if I just stay here he'll go away. He must have known I wasn't going to comply with the request of getting up if the fact that he lifted the mattress up so I tumbled on to the floor was any indication.
"Bastard!" I growled at him, while curling into a ball.
"Now what was the spell for getting freezing cold water, let me think," he said. Great now I have to get up unless I want to be soaked and cold.
"I'm up," I say while I struggle to get to my feet. I turn to look at him as water drops on to my head, soaking me. I lift my head and see him laughing uncontrollably, God I must of looked a right state. I know we're supposed to be adults here but... "One piece of advice, run!" I chase him down stairs of the house, trying to avoid the other occupants as much as possible, Sirius however just banged into them knocking some of them over.
"What the hell is going on?" I hear somebody shout, which stops us both dead in our tracks. Not with what was shouted, it was the person who was shouting. Lily! I love Lily, I really do, but she has a really bad temper, one that you don't want to get on the receiving end of. At then it's like me and Sirius are back in school, because we each take turns on blaming one another, in an attempt the other will feel Lily's wrath. Some things never change.
"Whatever," she says defeated, "I'm too tired for this, just clean up the bloody mess, you guys have got water everywhere." Sirius opens his mouth to speak but Lily cuts him off, "I don't care, just clean it up!" we both comply, because Lily can be scary when she wants to be.
"How was your mission last night Lily," Sirius asks her once we're finished, I pretend to look intrigued, I mean it looks better if I've not seen her since before she left.
"No go," she replied settling into a chair, "have we still got to be at headquarters at eleven?"
"Yep," Sirius replies,
"Shit!" I say noticing that it was nearly the appointed time,
"That was why I was waking you up. Now go and bloody get ready."
It wasn't until we reached headquarters before we realised that something was wrong; first of all, unlike the usual things going on in the world we got through it, pulling jokes and there was usually smiles, but not today. There was a morbid silence the moment we got in.
"What happened?" I hear Lily say and I notice Sirius shake his head silently. We walked together quickly to the heart of our operation, where we hear the end of a gloomy speech, spoken by Dumbledore to other members of the order.
".She will of course be sorely missed, but at times like this we have to remember why we're here fighting, and no matter what, we can't forget that. We need to remember that even though it seems like we're not, at the moment, making a difference, I am here to tell you that we are. We can't give in; we won't let her death be in vain by giving into Voldemort and letting him win." He trails off to silence; he looks in our direction and moves towards us.
"I take it that you heard?" he said softly,
"Who?" Lily replies quietly,
"Stella Wainwright," he replies, oh no. She was only a few years older than me.
"What? But she took over from me last night!" Lily says shocked. I feel a sense of dread fill me; that could of easily have been Lily, if she'd stayed that little bit longer. no I can't think that, I say to myself as bile rises to my throat.
"I know Lily," Dumbledore replies, as Sirius puts an arm around her shoulders in a comforting way.
Lily moves out his grip and asks uncertainly "When last night?"
"We don't know; we just got the confirmation 20 minutes ago." Dumbledore says. After a moments silence he added quietly "I know you guys need a little space to digest this but the truth is we don't have the time." Lily leans backwards on to me for support.
Sirius then asks the question we're all wanting to know, but aren't brave enough to ask right now, "What do you want us to do?"
"There have been reports of suspicious activity around the North-west of England." Dumbledore replies while pointing to the designated area on a map, "I just want to set up a small surveillance team and."
"Surveillance?" Sirius replies quickly. "Sir don't you think that."
"If you had let me finish Mr Black." Dumbledore interrupted, and Sirius blushed, making me glad that I hadn't rushed in with that response too. "I'd tell you that, I wanted you three to go in first and make sure it was safe to send one in. I wouldn't mind sending in Peter or Remus but the less people going the less suspicious it seems,"
"When do we leave?" I ask,
"As soon as possible." He replies and we all nod, "If there is death-eater activity I want to know before any Muggles get mixed up in it."
"How are we getting there?" Lily asks.
"If I send you in by Portkey they're going to know, because I'd need to set one up." Lily nods in understanding, "If there are death-eaters they're probably watching who goes on or off the knight bus, which leaves."
"Muggle transport," Lily finishes.
"Yes Miss Evans. I'll leave it to you to decide which method you want. Try to keep minimum contact with headquarters," he says. Then with a serious look he adds, "be careful."
We all head back to the house to get some stuff. While Sirius is in his room, I head to Lily's. I knock quietly on the door, no answer. I knock again and I swear this time I hear a muffled sob.
"Lily," I say opening the door quietly. She was sitting on her bed with tears falling freely from her face. I shut the door behind me and move to sit next to her, pulling her into an embrace. She moves so she can cry with her head buried into my shoulder. I whisper comforting words as I stroke her hair.
"Is this about Stella?" I ask, and I feel her nod. "Lily you can't blame yourself for what." I start to say but she cuts me off.
"When I found out it was her, I felt relieved." She says lifting her head to look at me. "I felt relieved that it wasn't me. That it wasn't me who was killed, that it was her instead. And I feel so guilty because I still feel that way." She finished and buried her head again.
I take a deep breath and say, "it's the same way I felt. I don't want to lose you Lil" Lily looked back up at me. "It's the same way anyone would feel. But just because we feel that way doesn't mean we wanted it to happen; nobody wanted it to happen and it doesn't mean that we don't care. We still need to carry on though; we still need to fight Lily and we can't do that if we're full of guilt and remorse."
"Merlin, I love you James." She whispers, while placing her head lightly on my shoulder. "Don't you ever leave me!"
"I'm not going anywhere, I love you too much." I replied with as much emotion as I could muster.