This is for Mikachoo! You know sometimes you look for inspiration and it can be right infront of you all the time and you never knew it. Sometimes it can feel like its the wrong thing to be doing and that it just wasn't meant to be... but you'll never know unless you give it a chance and believe me... chances are what lives are built on. So um... take that chance sweetie! Otherwise you'll spend the rest of your life thinking what if? XxX
They arrived back at Jacks apartment and after inviting Kate inside, Jack decided that it was time for Abbys' nap. Picking up the little girl and letting her sleepy head fall to his shoulder they began to walk to the spare room. Jack gently placed the sleepy child down on the bed and began to remove her patent leather shoes and undo the plaits from her hair, watching as the curls fell from the bobbles and framed her face making her look even more angelic. Kate stood in the dorrway watching him carefully pull back the sheets and pull the up to cover the small child as she fell into a slumber instantaneously. He didn't leave straight away, just spent a moment staring at his beautiful niece and wondering if Claire had been this sweet as a child and wishing he could have known her then, he would have loved her so much, he always wanted a sister.
"She's beautiful isn't she..." Kate said, intterupting Jacks thoughts. He stood up and walked over to the door.
"Gets it from her mom, we all know Charlie won't take any credit for that..." he joked and it achieved the desired effect... Kate laughed. "... So um, How long are you staying?" Jack asked, trying to change the subject of family and kids, but noticing that as soon as the words had left his mouth Kates expression became serious.
"I was thinking of staying for a while..." she revealed "... I don't know how long though, I guess it all kinda depends"
"Well..." Jack said looking around his house, that didn't seem as lonely as it did that morning "... you're welcome to stay here, as long as you want". Kates smile reappeared.
"That would be great... I um, haven't really thought about that yet but again like i said it all depends, you might want to keep that offer to yourself until we have talked...But you have a great place" Kate said trying desperately to change the subject. Jack noticed the switch in topic and decided not to push her, Kate would talk to him when she was ready. She looked around his place and couldn't help but smile at what she saw. Everything was just so... Jack. From the sleek black leather sofa and the glass coffee table in the living room, to the glass dining table and leather chairs that made up the dining room even the small office she had walked past a few minutes ago that was covered wall to wall with pictures of him and his friends screamed class.
Kate smiled noticing a picture above the fireplace in the living room, a man and a woman on a sandy beach, palm trees swaying melodically in the background and water around thier ankles. They had thier arms wrapped around each other and huge smiles on thier faces. Many people had commented on how great the couple looked together, how in love they looked. They didn't know the truth, the didn't know that it was the last time those people had seen each other and they didn't know they wouldn't reunite until two years had passed.
"How did you get a copy of that..." Kate asked motioning to the huge frame, Jack looked up, nodded and smiled ".. didn't the magazine take that picture? Why did you hang it in your living room?" she finished, sitting herself down on the sofa and looking intently at the picture.
"I remembered how beautiful you looked that day, when they told you your charges were to be dropped and you ran over to me and threw your arms around me... How could i not have that moment captured. I hung it in here because everytime i think of you, and i wonder if you're happy... this helps me. It helps me to think of how you were... we were".
Kates head dropped at Jacks honesty, she brought her hands up to her face and rubbed her forehead gently, her eyes closing.
"Now look at me... that day was the best day of my life and I messed it up by making bad choices..." Jack moved closer to her and bent down to her height. He reached out for her hands and wrapped his own skillful, surgeons hands around them, looking into her eyes.
"You didn't make bad choices Kate... you've ended up here haven't you?, You're healthy, you're not on the run anymore and you're happy..." he noticed Kates head jerk up at this last remarka nd he looked deep into her eyes as he asked her "... you are happy aren't you... he is treating you right?"
"Is who treating me right?..." Kate replied, knowing who he was talking about but not wanting to come right out with it. Jack tilted his head to the side and gave Kate a pessimistic look, she let out a deep breath "... Jack, I went to Talahasse with Sawyer, I stayed at his place for a month..." she gbegan but Jack cut in, standing up and bringing his hands to his sides.
"You don't have to tell me this..."
"... Then I moved out... we were never together like that Jack, not like that..."
"Then why did you leave with him..." Jack asked almost shouting but remembering the small child sleeping not too far away. He had promised himself that when they did eventually cross paths again that he would be man enough to ask her this "... Why were you holding his hand and getting on that plane... Why Kate?"
Kates eyes filled with tears as she stood up, her eyes still locked with Jacks as she tried to hold her own.
"He had hold of my hand, because I told him not to let go... I knew that if he did, It would have been you I was sitting next to on that plane home and I needed to fix myself first..."
"I don't understand..." Jack admitted, shaking his head and sitting himself down on the coffee table. Kate sunk to meet his gaze once more and placed her hands on his.
"I never had anyone care for me the way you did Jack, and I didn't know what to do... I had to find out who I was as a free person before I could let myself fall into anything else..."
Jack laughed and stood up off the table, walking over to the fireplace his eyes transfixed on the picture that hung above the fireplace. He let out a sigh he hdan't realised he had been holding and storked the back of his head before turning back to face Kate.
"I have spent the last two years wonering where you were, if you were safe... loved... and i tried so hard to track you down, i thought that maybe stuff between you and Sawyer had gotten serious and you didn't me messing it up. So i gave up. I stopped looking and i became godfather to these two amazingly beautiful children... but you were always there, in the back of mind and occupying all but a small art of my heart that i gave to them. Everytime i look at that little girl in there, I can't help but think about how unfair life is..." he said, his tone becoming more serious and the tears now falling from his eyes "... That should be our child asleep in there Kate... It should be our daughter I take to yoga, dance recitals and sleepovers... it should be our daughter that I kiss goodnight and it hurts that it not".
Jack looked at Kate and noticed that her eyes were filled with uncried tears threatening to make an appeareance. She stood up and walked over to him and grabbed his hand with hers pressing a small photograph into the palm of his hand. Looking into his palm he saw his own eyes staring back at him, from a freckles splattered face with Jet black tendrils tied up in pigtails. He felt his heart skip a beat as he looked up from the picture to Kate even more bleary eyed as she nodded to him before whispering
"...It really should be"
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