'Wake up Bella. Edward's coming back' I quickly opened my eyes and Alice was smiling down at me.
'How long have I been asleep?' I asked as I looked outside. It was light out and I had a feeling it was the next day.
'30 minutes' she answered. I looked back at her and I laughed. I had expected to have been asleep for way longer than that.
'Where's Edward?' she looked at the door and then back down at me.
'He's right outside. He's coming up the steps' I listened and heard footsteps outside the house 'And now he's at the door' I heard the doorknob turn and I saw Edward walk in. He saw me and then he quickly ran upstairs.
'Edward, wait' I called. I got off the couch and ran upstairs. I ran to his room and tried to open the door but it was being held shut.
'Please Edward. Let me in' I begged. I tried to open the door again but it was still being blocked.
'No Bella. I don't want to hurt you again' he was on the other side of the door. I put my hand against the wood and I leaned my forehead against it.
'Edward, please' I said it as softly and as sincerely as possible. I heard the doorknob turn and Edward opened it. He was standing in front of me and I wrapped my arms around him.
'How can you be so forgiving Bella? I almost sucked you dry' I nestled my head in the crook of his neck and I inhaled his scent.
'It's because I love you Edward. I know the risks I'm taking by being with you now Edward and I'm going to let you in on a little secret' I brought my mouth next to his ear 'I'd rather die then be away from you' I whispered it into his ear and he quickly wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head.
'You, Isabella Swan, are the most unbelievable girl I have ever met' I smiled and hugged him tighter. He pulled me into his room and we sat down on his bed.
'Edward, do you ever think I could become a vampire' he looked at me and his eyes were charcoal black. I had never seen them this color and it scared me.
'ABSOLUTELY NOT' he yelled. It scared me and I couldn't help but jump back. I looked away and wiped some tears from my eyes. I stood up and started to walk out the door but he grabbed me and turned me around.
'I'm sorry I yelled Bella. I could never damn you like this Bella. I won't do it' he dropped down to his knees and placed his head against my stomach.
'Then why are you dammed to this life?' I asked. He started to sob against my stomach.
'I thought exactly what you are thinking. It's not worth it Bella. It's not' he was sobbing heavier now and I started to cry. I had always cried when Edward cried. I could never explain it.
'I'd get to be with you like how Alice can be with Jasper' I said through the tears. He stood up and took my face in his hands.
'I just won't be able to see you in so much pain' he pressed his lips to mine in a forceful kiss. I wrapped my arms around my neck and when he pulled away I placed my head on his shoulder.
'I love you Edward'
'I love you too Bella'
We stood there for who knows how long. I never wanted the moment to end. I wanted to bask in it for eternity. I was with my Edward, his arms were wrapped around me and I felt so safe and protected.
'C'mon Bella. I want to show you something' he picked me up into his arms and carried me downstairs. We passed by Alice and Esme talking sternly to Rosalie. I laughed as he carried me outside. He stopped and swung me onto his back.
'What're you doing?' I asked as I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck.
'Just close your eyes and don't open them until I say so' I quickly shut my eyes and held them tightly shut. I suddenly felt wind begin to rush past my face and I buried my face in his shoulder.
The wind stopped and Edward loosened his grip on my legs. I slid off his back and opened my eyes. I was standing at the edge of the forest looking at a clearing with a huge pool of water and a waterfall. I quickly ran over to it but stopped when I realized Edward didn't follow.
'Come on Edward' I said. I searched the darkness for him but I couldn't see. For a second I thought he had left but then I realized he would never do that. It wasn't like Edward to do that.
'Don't freak out, ok?' he said from somewhere in the darkness. I nodded, hoping that he would see it. I continued to search the forest until I spotted him. He walked slowly out into the sunlight.
When the sunlight hit his skin it sparkled. I mean, his skin literally sparkled, like thousands of tiny diamonds were embedded in the surface. It was like looking at a star. He looked beautiful.
'Wow' I muttered. He walked over to me and smiled.
'Do you want to go for a swim?' he asked. I looked at him and then at the water.
'Sure' he smiled and walked a little closer to me. He kissed my cheek and then pushed me into the water. I managed to grab hold of his arm as I was falling so he ended up in the water with me.
'Thanks a lot you jerk' I said as I started to swim back to the edge of the pool. I started to climb onto the grass but he grabbed hold of my leg and pulled me back towards him.
'Where ya goin?' he asked. He pulled me to him and pressed me against his chest. I rolled my eyes at him and he pressed his lips to mine. When he pulled away I pushed him and started to swim around.
'I thought you were getting out' he said as he swam next to me. I flipped onto my back and just floated around.
'I decided to stay and enjoy this' he floated next to me. He took my hand in his and we just laid there. I watched the clouds go by and we started to name the little pictures. We did that until it got dark.
'Are you cold?' Edward asked. I nodded and he helped me get over to the edge. When we got out the wind instantly hit me and I was freezing. I started to shiver and Edward wrapped his arms around me.
'Hold on, Alice told me I should bring an extra shirt, I'll go get it' he ran off and was back in a second with an extra shirt. He handed it to me and I started to take off my shirt when I heard something behind me. I ignored it and took my shirt all the way off. I heard a loud growl behind me and I turned around. Jacob was standing there, staring at me.
'What're you doing here Jake?' I asked. I quickly put on Edward's shirt and walked over to Edward. I looked over at Jacob and looked away quickly. The look only lasted a second, but it chilled me more than the freezing wind.
'What were you doing with your shirt off Bella?' he asked harshly. Edward grabbed me and pulled closer to him. Jacob snarled and Edward growled.
'Stop it. Both of you. Jacob, Edward and I were swimming and I got cold. He had an extra shirt so I was changing into it. That's it' I let out a sigh and rested my head on Edward's shoulder.
'Bella, can I speak to you?' Jacob asked. He looked from me to Edward 'Alone' Edward looked down at me and nodded. I walked over to Jacob and we walked into the forest.
'What did you want to talk about Jacob?' I leaned against a tree and folded my arms across my chest.
'Do you still love me Bella?' he asked.
'You know I do Jacob. I just love Edward in a different way. I want us to be friends Jacob. I've always wanted us to be friends' he took a step towards me and looked me into the eyes. Pain and love very visible in his.
'Why did you have to choose him over me Bella? Why?' his voice was full of sadness that it hurt.
'Because Jacob. I love him. I loved you too but I couldn't let go of my friendship with Edward. It hurt to tell you that I chose him. Believe me' he kept taking steps closer to me until he was about a foot away from me.
'I still love you too Bella' It came out in almost a whisper. He closed the space between us and pressed his body against mine. He brought his lips to mine in a forceful kiss. I didn't move even though I knew I should. It felt like I was glued to that spot.
'BELLA' Edward roared from behind Jacob. I managed to push Jacob off of me and I fell to the floor. I couldn't help but start balling my eyes out. I heard Edward and Jacob fighting but I couldn't see anything. My eyes were too blurry and pretty soon I couldn't hear anything either.
I closed my eyes and laid down on the ground. Soon I felt myself being picked up and carried away. I didn't open my eyes to see who it was. I didn't really care.
'Bella, what were you thinking?' I heard my angels voice ask. I cradled my head against his chest.
'I don't know Edward. I'm so sorry' I started to cry again. I buried my face in his chest and let all my tears out.
'It's alright Bella. It's alright. Don't cry' he said sweetly. I tried to smile but I couldn't, knowing the thoughts that were running through my head.
We made it back into the house where everyone was asking what happened. Edward ran past them and up to my room. He laid me on my bed and sat down next to me.
'Why did you let him kiss you Bella?' he didn't look at me. He put his face in his hands and just shook his head.
'I don't know Edward. I don't know what I was thinking' you're lying. You know exactly what you were thinking. You wanted to do things with Jacob. How could you do that to Edward? HOW?
'SHUT UP' I yelled. It startled Edward and he looked at me curiously.
'I didn't mean you. I meant--- never mind' I rolled onto my side and mumbled things to myself.
'I still love you' he said. I smiled a fairly small smile but it was a smile nonetheless.
'I still love you too' I felt him lay down behind me and he wrapped his arms around me. He pulled me to him and placed his head on my shoulder. He whispered soothing things into my ear and I fell asleep to the sound of his sweet voice.
post next chapter tomorrow.