Chapter 10
Talking
I was lying on my bed, staring up at my ceiling, still thinking about what Jake asked me. It was stuck in my mind the whole night, and I had trouble sleeping just because of it.
It just felt so unreal. Jake wants to take a step further into our relationship, meaning what? That's what confused me. Did he want to move forward as in more kissing and holding each other, or did he mean… doing the naughty.
We're only sophomores so I highly doubt he wanted to do that kind of thing. I don't know I need to think about this more. I really need to talk to someone about this.
I sat up on my bed and went straight for my door. I wanted to see if Luann was here so I could ask her. As I went across of the hall to see if she was in her room, she wasn't. I walked down stairs to see if she was down there, but no one was there. I sighed. Maybe Lilly would help me out. I went to the house phone and dialed for Lilly's.
"Hello?" She said as wind blew into the phone.
"Lilly, do you think you can come over to my house?" I asked as I sat down on the arm of the couch.
"Yeah, I'll be there in a few." She said, and with that she hung up.
I sighed deeply. I'm slightly worried for what Lilly was going to do when I told her the news. Heck, I didn't even know what I was talking about when I said sure to Jake.
I walked to my kitchen to get me a drink. I needed to calm down, seriously. I took a soda from the fridge and took small sips.
This was just too confusing and I really needed to let it all out.
Soon, the door burst open with someone saying, "Guess whose here!"
I looked over to the door and Lilly stepped in, holding her skateboard in her hand. That answers why there was the rustling sound coming from her end of the phone.
"So what's up?" She asked as she came into the kitchen to get herself a drink.
"I need advice." I said as I took a box of cookies and led her up the stairs to my room.
"What's so important?" She asked as she followed me up the stairs.
"I'll tell you once we reach my room." I said and continued to walk up the stairs. Once we finally got to my room, I lay on my bed and she sat down next to me.
"So what's up?" She asked as she took a cookie out of the box. She chewed on the cookie and looked at me as I took a deep breath.
"I'm just confused." I said and she put her hand on my knee.
"Confused on what?" She asked and I put my arm over my eyes.
"You know, when you saw me and Jake yesterday at the beach right?" I asked and she nodded.
"What of it?" She lay next to me as she continued to eat the cookie.
I sighed. Did I really want to tell Lilly about what Jake asked me? I asked myself.
I turned on the bed and faced Lilly.
"Lilly, what does it mean when someone says that they want to take a step further in the relationship?" I asked and her eyes widened.
"Did Jake…" She started and I nodded my head.
"And without thinking, I said sure. I don't even know what he meant when he said that we should take a step further into the relationship. "I went on as I sat up on the bed. "Did he mean by more kissing and holding each other, or sex? I'm just scared." I pressed my hands against my face rubbing it.
Lilly stayed quiet so I went on.
"I mean, it's not like I wouldn't mind the kissing and such, but if he even considered sex I know for sure I'll be scared." I took a deep breath and bit my lip. "I knew I shouldn't have agreed. I'm just so stupid!"
I looked at Lilly and she gaped at me.
"Lilly, say something, I'm desperate here!" I exclaimed and she sat up and started to shake me.
"Miley, calm the heck down!" She continued to shake me until I finally calmed down.
"I'm just scared you know? I'm afraid that I'll mislead him or something." I closed my eyes and pulled my legs up to my chest.
"Well, all I have to say is that you go talk to Jake and ask him what he meant." Lilly rubbed at my back and I looked at her.
"You know how embarrassing that is? Gladly accepting it and then the next day ask "Jake, what did you mean by going farther into the relationship?" and then at the last minute back out of it. Oh gosh, I'm going all psycho on this!" I threw my hands in the air and then slapped my cheeks.
"Miley! Calm down" She rubbed on my back a little more before stopping. "Just take a deep breath and if you see Jake today, just casually ask him, "how far do you want to go" or something. Just don't think too much of it! If he wants sex, then I'd say dumb him, I don't even know how far your relationship with him is, but if it's just more of the kissing stuff, then stick with him. That's the rules I go with." Lilly laughed and I shook my head.
"Fine, I guess I'll do that." I said and took a cookie out of the box. She took another cookie as well and then I remembered something that Jake and I was talking about yesterday.
"What's going on with you and Oliver?" I asked and soon she started to choke on her cookie.
"What?" She cried as she coughed.
I patted on her back until she stopped coughing, with her face all red.
"What do you mean what's going on with me and Oliver, there's nothing going on with us!" Her voice was high as she said that. Her voice only does that whenever she lies.
"Oh come on Lilly, I see you two everywhere and you're always talking so quietly. For example, yesterday at the beach, you two were all getting cozy and close talking really quiet at Rico's. I tried to forget about it but I just had to ask what's up with my best friends!" I said. She looked down and pursed her lips, clearly embarrassed.
"Well…" She started and took a really deep breath.
"Yes?" I asked, but soon knocking from my window interrupted us. She sighed in relief and I shot her a look.
"You're going to tell me and I better get an explanation.' I said and she nodded.
I walked over to the window and opened it finding Jake.
"Why'd you take this entrance? The front is way safer." I helped him inside and as soon as he came in, looked straight at Lilly. He grinned.
"Well, I noticed no one was home and I knew you had to be up here so I decided to climb up and see you here with Lilly." He said and closed the window.
"Oh, okay, well, I'll see you two later. I better give you guys some privacy!" Lilly said as she climbed off of my bed.
"But-" I started.
"I'll tell you another time." She rushed to my door.
"Treat Oliver well now." Jake said and she stopped. She turned to look at Jake with her eye wide and face fully red.
"Uhh… yeah." She said and practically ran the rest of the way down.
"What was that about?" He asked as he put his hands around my waist, pulling me closer to him.
"I don't know, but assuming at what you said, Oliver and Lilly has a thing?" I asked and his grin grew wider.
"Oh boy, you wouldn't expect something like that happen between them." He said and I looked at him questionably.
"What kind of thing?" I asked and he pecked me on my cheek.
"You'll find out soon." He let go of me and walked over to my computer, sitting on my chair. I followed him and stood in front of him.
"Aw, come on please tell me! You came just before Lilly was about to tell me!" I whined and he chuckled. He gripped on my wrist and pulled me onto his lap. I don't think he's ever done that before. Maybe this is one of the whole, moving forward thing he asked me yesterday.
I shifted on his lap and he placed his chin on my shoulder before moving the chair closer to my computer.
"What are you doing?" I asked as he clicked the internet icon on my computer with the mouse and started to type. He had trouble typing in the URL box so I decided to get off him so he could type better
"No, stay here." He said, as he wrapped his arms around my waist. "I like the position we're in."
I blushed and tried to relax in his lap, but I couldn't stop thinking about the whole moving forward part.
"Okay." I sighed and leaned into his chest. He started to click a whole bunch of links on the screen.
"What are you looking for?" I asked and he started to type again. This time, I read what he was typing and he put in "lyrics."
"You're looking for lyrics?" I asked.
"Yeah, my partner doesn't really know what songs to sing. Most of the songs she chose were like not duets and she said that we just create one, but I wasn't really comfortable with that."
"Hey, do you think you could help me search for some lyrics?" I asked and he pushed at my sides, making me jerk.
"Of course I could." He kissed my cheek and I giggled.
"Then you're going to help me right?" I asked as I laced my fingers with his free hand.
"I said I could, not I'm going to." He laughed and I punched his shoulder.
"Please?" I turned on his lap and pouted.
He tried to keep a straight face, but he ended up laughing. "I can never resist that and you know it." He said just as he kissed me.
I was about to pull away as he deepened the kiss.
I was a little shocked, but then I pushed that aside I ran my hands through his hair. We soon broke away, gasping for air. My face fully flushed and his as well.
"Err." I said and he grinned.
"Good or bad?" He asked and I blushed even more.
"I…" I looked down at our hands. "Good." I bit my lip and focused my attention to the computer screen.
I could see from the reflection screen that he was smiling. He went back to the computer and started to scroll for songs.
"Any particular genre you looking for?" He asked and I shook my head.
"Did Mrs. Rodrigues tell you what she wanted and not want in the songs you pick?"
"Yeah, after school on Friday, I had to go to her class and she explained everything to me." He clicked on a link and started to read the lyrics and I read them with him.
"How is this song?" He asked and I shrugged.
"It's pretty okay." I said and he lightly squeezed my hand.
"This is hard."
"Well, school is hard. Did you know sophomore meant suffer more?" I said and he laughed.
"Oh really? Holy, we're going to suffer!" He teased.
"Smart ass." I rolled my eyes and we continued to surf the internet.
"Hmm." He sighed deeply as he clicked a few links.
I started to feel bored. All this looking was just not going anywhere.
"Jake, is this all you wanted to do today?" I asked. All he did was come in and sit at my computer. If looking for lyrics is what he wanted to do, then why'd he come? He could've easily done that at home.
"No, sorry." He closed the internet window and I moved on his lap to look at him. "Ugh, I just kind of got in an argument with my dad. I came to just… relax. Sorry." He sighed.
"What happened?" I asked and he shut his eyes.
"I don't know he just pissed me off." He said and I let go of his hand and I put my hands on shoulders.
"Don't worry about your dad. You two will make it work." I said and he nodded.
"Yeah, but I can't help but still think that he doesn't care about me you know? Now, my mom's the one that's home all the time and my dad still goes out." He confessed and I shook my head.
"Jake, remember what your parents told you a few years ago, they do care about you it's just their jobs!" I said and he nodded.
"Okay, sorry, I know, I'm being all emo again." He sighed and looked intently into my eyes.
"I never thought I'd hear you say that." I laughed and lightly kissed him "It will get better." I kissed his forehead. "Everything will get better."
He smiled at me. "You always know how to cheer me up and I love that about you." He nuzzled my neck and hugged me tightly.
"Jake, I wanted to ask, what is-" My phone started to ring and I stopped talking. I got off his lap and went to my nightstand to get my phone.
On the caller ID, it said dad so I answered my phone. Dad told me that he was going to pick me up for my interview with Tween magazine he told me about yesterday. I sighed and I told him that I was going to get ready. I got off the phone with dad and looked over at Jake who was sitting on the chair, looking at me.
"Hey, I have an interview to go to." I said and he nodded.
"I'll leave then." He got up and walked over to me.
"Okay." I watched him and he grinned, giving me a kiss.
"Thanks for helping me out." He hugged me. "I'll see myself out, you just get ready."
"Sure." I sighed and watched him walk out of my room. He's so amazing, but sometimes I feel that he's just too good for me.
A/N How was that as a chapter? Thanks for the reviews and reading.
Talkingorange: Yes, this is a Jiley.