DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN GREY'S ANATOMY, I wish I did.

Meredith turned pale. She was having a hard time breathing. She didn't know what to do. There he was, in the flesh, the man that attacked her. She didn't know what to feel, angry, or fearful.

Derek: Dr. Thompson, I need you to retract the area.

Meredith: (She didn't hear him, she was too busy thinking.) I have to do this. I have to be professional. Maybe he won't notice me. I can't take this. I knew this would happen eventually, but this is too soon. I can't cry. Don't Cry! Calm down.

Derek: Dr. Thompson, Meredith!

Meredith: Too late now. Yes, Dr. Shepherd. (He noticed her voice was shaky and she was pale.)

Derek: Are you OK?

Meredith: I'm fine.

She begins retracting. The gallery now has a few more people in it. Meredith does not look at Ray. She can just feel his stare burning through her body. She was feeling like a piece of meat in a lion's cage. She couldn't take in anymore, she had to look at him. She had to prove to herself that she could. Besides, he probably didn't even realize that it was her. She did a sideways glance. His eyes met hers. Eyes that are so cold, so vile. At that moment it all rushed back. She gasped, she felt like she couldn't breath. He smiled at her. Not a 'Hi, how are you.' smile, a cocky, I am in charge smile. A smile that said 'I didn't finish what I started'. She felt like she did all those years ago. He knew it was her, and he wasn't going to pretend he didn't.

Derek: Are you sure you are OK?

Meredith: I'm just tired, sorry. All this stress lately. (She was hoping by carrying on a conversation, she could some how forget that he was eyeing her up.)

Derek: So now I am going to do the (Medical). She you know why?

Meredith: Because the (Medical) is seperated from the (medical) which causes a (medical).

Derek: I'm impressed. I don't know why. I always knew you were brilliant. (She smiles.)

Ray: Dr. Shepherd, It has been forever since I've seen a Medial Facetectomy done. Do you mind if I take a look?

Derek: Not as long as the patient's anesthesia is OK. I would hate it if he woke up.

Ray: That won't be a problem. (He smiles. He walks over and stands right behind Meredith.) Oh, this is interesting! (He is right next to Meredith's head. He is doing it just to upset her. He starts to whisper in her ear.) You still look sexy after all these years. (His hand touches her leg.) I've thought about you a lot. (His had reaches up her behind and almost between her legs. She flinches and shuts her eyes.) That dumb jock boyfriend of yours, he never knew what he had. I could have appriciated you, I would have shown you what a real man is. So, Dr. Shepherd, why are you doing that? (He only asked to distract him, Derek goes into a lengthy speech.) Mer-honey, relax. I know you never thought you wanted me, but your body has always said yes. How about after this surgery, you and I finish what we started all those years ago? (He rubs her leg and then walks back to monitor the anesthesia.) Thank you Dr. Shepherd.

Derek: Do you see that? (He looks up at Meredith, who had a few tears falling. He just figures she is upset about Lois.)

Meredith: (With a shaky voice.) Yeah, I see it. He is lucky man. His quality of life will be much better now.

Derek: I think we've fixed the problem. Let's close him up. (Derek was just finishing closing him up before Ray reversed the anesthesia.) Good everyone!

Ray: So Mer, what do you think about what I said? (It was overwhelming. Everything he ever said or did flashed in front of her like a movie in fast forward. She couldn't take it. She was going to lose, she saw red.)

Meredith: What did I say to you?

Ray: What? (Looks at her like she is crazy.)

Meredith: Ten years ago, WHAT DID I SAY?

Ray: You said what you thought you had to. But I know what you were thinking. (He gives her a suggestive look. Derek is looking at her, he has no idea what is going on.)

Meanwhile up in the gallery:

Ellis: Oh shit! (Her eyes bug out.)

Cristina: What? (She was so busy watching Derek, she didn't notice what went on.)

Ellis: This is bad... (The nurse in the back, had seen what happened but she wasn't talking. Dr. Jenson is a good friend of the Chief's.)

Back in the OR:

Meredith lost it, she lunged at him. It went so fast, she punched him as hard as she could in the mouth. Everyone gasped. She had lost her mind. She was attacking a doctor for no apparent reason. Derek was shocked, he had never seen her like this. One of the scrub nurses grabbed Meredith to stop her.

Meredith: I'm fine, I'm fine! (She acts like she is done.)

Ray: (Touches his lip, which is bleeding.) You whore, I always knew you were crazy bitch!

That was it, that's all it took. She was going to do just what she had told him she was going to do ten years ago: She was going to kill him. She lunged at him again. This time Derek caught her in mid air. She started kicking, swinging, twisting her body and throwing herself. She was determined to free herself from Derek's firm grip. She had to get him, he had damaged her. She spent along time being fearful, not wanting to be touched or have personal contact. Everyone was in chaos. This had never happened. People ran out of the gallery and started telling everyone what had happened.

Meredith: I will kill you!! Do you hear me?

Derek: Meredith, quit it. What the hell is wrong with you?

Meredith: He- He- (She started to shake all over. She was having a hard time breathing. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't catch her breath. She paniced. Everything went black. She collapsed, and fell out of Derek's arms and onto the floor.)

Derek: (To Ray.) What the hell is going on here?

Ray: I don't know, she just went nuts. You saw her. (He began to take the patient out of anesthesia. He had a towel on his bleeding lip.)

Meanwhile in the hallway:

Nurse Betty: You missed it! (John is in Lois' room listening.) That intern lost it. She attacked the anesthesiologist. She punched him, right in the face.

Nurse Jo: Who was it?

Nurse Betty: Thompson.

Nurse Kelly: I heard she knocked him out.

John paniced. It hit him, it was Ray. He knew someday it would happen, she would meet up with him. He briskly walked towards the OR, he knew where it was. He could just sense it. He started jogging.

Nurse Virginia: Sir, you can't go in there. That's off limits!

He kept running. He went in the scrub room, there she was. She was on the floor of the OR in the fetal position. He walked right in. He didn't care that he wasn't sterile. Meredith, his Meredith was in trouble.

Derek: What the hell are you doing in here? You aren't allowed to be in here this area is sterile.

John just ignored him and scooped Meredith up. He looked at everyone in the room. Their faces all in shock. Everyone could tell there was something more to this story. John looks over at Ray.

John: We are not finished.

Ray: Is that a threat?

John: You bet your ass it is!

John walks out of the OR with Meredith in his arms. Derek followed behind him. He was worried, really worried. He had John take her to an empty exam room. Everyone was watching him as he carried her. They could see the affection, the love he had for her.

Derek: I should have known, she was crying, Dr. Jenson was right next to her. What did he say to her? I need to check her vitals. I think she had a...

John: Panic attack? She has had them before.

Derek: What is going on here? She want crazy.

John: It's a long story, and not mine to tell. (He had one tear escape from his eye. Derek saw it. He knew it was bad. Derek checked her vitals, she was doing OK. He hooked up an IV. Suddenly Meredith work up.)

Meredith: She started to jump out of bed.

Derek: Meredith! Lay down.

John: It's OK.

She looked at him in the eyes. All of the sudden it all hit her, what had happened. She burst into tears and curled up in a ball. She felt like the world was ending. Lois had always been her rock. Now her rock was ready to fall off a cliff, and she felt like she couldn't handle it on her own. John got in the bed with her and spooned his body up against hers. She needed to know he was there for her. He knew what had happened all those years ago. He knew how she had trouble sleeping for months. He knew that she would lay in his mothers lap and cry for hours at a time. He knew her secret, and Derek did not. Derek quietly left the room, he knew there was nothing he could do for her.

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