DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN GREY'S ANATOMY, I wish I did.

Izzie began pulling items out of the box. She didn't know what to make of it. The little pink onesie that said 'I love my Daddy', the tiny pacifier, a sonogram, little knit booties, a baby book. Then there was a card from Lois. Izzie couldn't believe it. John and Meredith had a child. There was a sign that said 'Bella', it probably hung on her nursery door, Izzie imagined. No wonder Meredith was so sad. How could she ever be happy, she lost her baby. Izzie was looking at the other various items when she heard footsteps.

Alex: (Looking at the items.) Oh my God, Izzie, you're pregnant? (Everyone's eyes bulge out.)

Izzie: No! (She hastily begins putting the things back in the box. Cristina walks over grabs the box.)

Cristina: What is this? (George comes over to investigate.)

Izzie: (Tries to yank it from her.) It's nothing. It fell. We aren't supposed to see this. Let me put it back.

Cristina: Like hell! I want to see it.

They all can't believe their eyes. No wonder Meredith and John had problems. Many people break up after the loss of a child. They all partly wished they had never come across the box. They couldn't say anything to Meredith about it. They were all talking about it when Derek walked in.

Derek: What the hell are you doing? (He grabs the box. They all look at him strangely. It was like he already knew. He begins placing the things back in it.) Where did you get this?

Izzie: From the office. It fell.

Derek: Put it back. (Izzie just looks at him.) Put it back! NOW!

Alex: Whoa dude. What the hell is your problem?

Derek: That is private. I can't believe you guys. (Shakes his head.)

George: It was wrong. I wish I hadn't seen it. No wonder Meredith is unhappy.

Derek: Have any of you tried talking to her yet?

Simultaneously: No.

Derek: Don't you think you should?

Alex: I'll go. (He walks upstairs.) Hey Meredith? You need to get up. Cristina is miserable. She is being even more sarcastic and hateful without you around. I can't stand being around her. I don't know what happened with you, but I'm sure everything will be fine. (No Answer.) OK then, I will just go. (Cristina came up next.)

Cristina: Mer, you really need to get your ass up. Everyone is so freaking happy. I need you to help me make them miserable. What do you say? Come on, come on. Don't make me beat the door down. Fine, I'm going. I won't damage your damn house. (George goes up.)

George: So Mer, we miss you. Everyone is asking how you are. We had this guy in yesterday. He was so funny. Every time we would say angioplasty he would bust out laughing. Then we would start to laugh. He had the funniest laugh. I guess you had to be there. Well, we miss you. (Derek comes up.)

Derek: I miss seeing your face everyday. I miss the smell of your hair. I miss your giggle and your tiny ineffectual fists. I miss wanting to kiss you in the elevator. I miss the looks over the OR table. Besides, you owe me quite a few dates. I miss you, Meredith. Please, I need you. (He started to cry lightly.) I miss you.

He composed himself and went downstairs. Izzie couldn't go up. She was so upset about the baby. She had given her baby away when she was younger. She couldn't imagine knowing that her baby died. At least Izzie's child was with a family. Not underground, dead. They all sat around talking about what they could do for Meredith. After a while they heard a car in the driveway. Soon after John came in. He sat his keys on the counter and his bags by the door.

John: Oh Hi! I didn't expect to see all of you here. (They all exchanged hellos.)

Izzie: I had them come over. I hoped they would be able to talk to Meredith.

John: And?

Izzie: Nothing, no change.

John: This has gone on long enough! She can't go on like this. (He walks upstairs. They all exchange glances, wondering what her was going to do. They could hear him talking.) Meredith, you need to come out. (No answer.) Damn-it Meredith! Get out here! Fine, you leave me no choice! (They hear a huge bang.)

Cristina: Did you hear that?

Izzie: Did he?

George: He just broke down the door.

John: Meredith, come on. You can't do this to yourself.

Meredith: Leave me alone!

John: No! This has gone on long enough! You haven't eaten in days. Get up. (He picks her up.)

Meredith: What are you doing? Get your hands off of me! (John starts to carry her downstairs.) Get your hands off me you son-of-a-bitch! (She starts to beat him with her fists. He just keeps going. Everyone is looking at him like he is crazy. What the hell is he doing?) I hate you, I HATE YOU. (He opens the back door.) Where are you taking me you bastard?

John: I'm helping you. Here, end your misery. (He walks up to the edge of the pool and throws her in. He just stands there waiting for her to come up. He started to worry, she wasn't coming up. Oh my God. What is she doing? The others are just watching in disbelief. Finally she comes up gasping for air. She climbs to the edge and pulls herself out. John just stands there and looks at her. She runs over to him and throws her arms around him and starts to cry.) I know, baby, I know.

Meredith: Oh John. I'm sorry. I want to live, I want to live.

John: I know you do, baby.

Meredith: I miss her. I miss her so badly. I didn't want her. I didn't want her. It was my fault. She died because I didn't want her. (She is sobbing. The others feel so bad. Finally someone got through to her. They all left quietly. They didn't want to disturb them.)

John: No, Mer. You can't blame yourself. We were young. We were not ready. I loved her so much. I did. I miss her, but this is the way it was meant to be. This was not your fault. Nothing that has happened was your fault. I'm sorry Mer, I am so sorry that you hurt so badly. (John carried her upstairs and ran a bath for her. While she was in the bathtub, he changed her sheets. When she got out they laid there together. She needed to be in his arms right now. After a while he made her some food. She had to eat, even if it was just a little. She looked terrible. Even in the few days it had been, she had lost weight.)

Meredith got up in the morning. She went down a fixed some breakfast for she and John.

John: (Still in his pajamas.) You, cooking?

Meredith: Hey! Shut up and eat. (She places the food in front of him.)

John: How are you feeling?

Meredith: Better. I need to deal with this. It's time. Besides, I need my job back, and I'm ready to fight for it.

John: I'm right behind you.

Meredith: I know you are. (She smiles.) How is Mom?

John: She is OK. She just wants to be home, alone.

Meredith: (Shakes her head.) Are you OK?

John: I am.

Meredith: Good. Geez, I need to get this house cleaned. Look at this dust!

John: It can wait.

Meredith: It can wait? You the clean freak, saying this?

John: OK, OK you need to clean like mad. Hell, I'm off, we can do it together.

John and Meredith spent a few hours cleaning the house. It was a mess. Mrs. White hadn't been there in so long. She still had some time off. Meredith had to do it herself. John made lunch and they were just sitting down when the doorbell rang.

Meredith: I'll get it. (Opens the door.) Chief! How are you? Come in.

Chief: How are you?

Meredith: I'm a lot better.

Chief: Good, good. Oh, Hi John.

John: Hello, Dr. Webber.

Meredith: So, how can I help you?

Chief: You didn't get my message?

Meredith: No, I need to get a new phone today.

Chief: Oh, well, I want you to come back. Dr. Jenson admitted everything. He has been fired and banned from Seattle Grace.

Meredith: I can come back?

Chief: We need you. You are a talented intern. I want you back at Seattle Grace, it's where you belong.

Meredith: (Smiles.) Of course. When?

Chief: Whenever you are ready.

Meredith: I will see you tomorrow, then.

Chief: Glad to have you back. (She goes to shake his hand. He pulls her into a hug.) I'm sorry, Meredith. I shouldn't have been so hasty about suspending you.

Meredith: (Smiles.) You didn't know.

Chief: I do now. I'll let you get back to your lunch. See you later.

Meredith shows him out. She runs into the kitchen smiling.

Meredith: Can you believe it?

John: I'm so proud of you. I knew it would work out. It always does.

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