DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN GREY'S ANATOMY, I wish I did.

Ellis: So, how would you like to grab a cup of coffee with your Mom?

Meredith: I would like that. (They walk off.)

Ellis: I feel like I'm getting to know you for the first time. I am, I am getting to know you, for the first time. (She was rambling, very unlike her. She was nervous.)

Meredith: We have a lot of catching up to do. (They walk up to the coffee cart.) I'll have a coffee, two cream, one sugar.

Ellis: (Laughs.) I'll have the same. We are more alike than I realized!

Meredith: I guess we are. (They grab their coffees, and go sit down.)

Ellis: How are you? How are you really?

Meredith: I'm OK. No, I'm not. (She felt odd. She felt like she could open up to Ellis.) I have a quite a bit of guilt.

Ellis: You will have.

Meredith: There were many things that I wish I had never done.

Ellis: But you did. You did, and it is OK. I'm sorry, Mer. I should have never convinced you to marry John.

Meredith: No. I don't regret it. I loved John. I will never stop loving him. We were OK. We were more OK than I ever realized until now. Things tore us apart. I should have never let it happen. I was the one who changed, not him. (Ellis' pager goes off.)

Ellis: I'm sorry, dear. I have to go. Let's have dinner tonight.

Meredith: I can't, Der- I have plans. Maybe sometime this week?

Ellis: I go home tomorrow.

Meredith: Well, maybe next time.

Ellis: Yeah, maybe next time. (Ellis was surprisingly sad. She wanted to spend time with Meredith.)

Meredith sat there trying to absorb what had just transpired. She never thought she would be able to connect with her mom. It was like her mom had melted after a twenty year freeze. She needed her. She never thought she would say that, but she did. She needed her mother.

Cristina: So what the hell was that? Everyone is talking.

Meredith: That was my mom, being nice. It was almost scary.

Cristina: Everyone is saying Ellis Grey has gone soft.

Meredith: Oh, well wait until she hears that! She will be back to alienating me in no time at all. It was just...

Cristina: This is weird. Are you OK? I mean that is your mother, the one you hate.

Meredith: Well, I guess we'll see. I am not going to get my hopes up. She did ask me to dinner. I was in shock.

Cristina: What did you say?

Meredith: No. Derek is cooking me dinner.

Cristina: (Raises her eyebrows.) So this thing with you and McDreamy...

Meredith: It's intense.

Cristina: Seriously?

Meredith: I have never felt this way.

Cristina: A lot of the nurses are talking about it.

Meredith: I'm not surprised. The tragedy of my husband had worn off, now they are back to gossip.

Cristina: You should seriously think about not calling him your husband anymore.

Meredith: Why?

Cristina: You just should, especially if things are moving on with Derek.

Meredith: Derek doesn't care.

Cristina: Believe me, he does.

Meredith: OK. (Rolls her eyes.)

Cristina: So the sex, is it hot?

Meredith: Cristina!

Cristina: Come on...

Meredith: It's unbelievable. I'm strung out on McDreamy.

Cristina: Nice.

Meredith: I gotta go.

Cristina: Me too. Burke has an aortic aneurysm to do.

Meredith: I'm jealous. I have charts.

Cristina: Have fun with that!

Meredith: It's better than being at home!

Meredith began working on the charts when she got a page from Bailey. Bailey wanted her to go to the pit. The pit was better than doing SCUT. Meredith was waiting for an ambulance to come in. She started having flashbacks of John. The feeling she had that day when she saw him on the stretcher, was like someone had pulled the rug out from under her. She started to sweat, she felt like the apocalypse was coming. When they pulled up and the doors open she held her breath. She knew John wouldn't be in there, but the feeling, the worry was intense. They brought a little boy out. He had a broken leg. It was a very nasty break, the bone was sticking out. She pages Dr. Torres and took the patient up.

Meredith: It's bad.

Callie: Yeah, it is. Poor kid. Get an x-ray. How did he do this?

Meredith: He was playing superman. He jumped off of his roof.

Callie: Kids, I don't know about them sometimes.

Meredith: Yeah, I know.

Meredith scrubbed in on the surgery with Callie. The way the break was, it took a lot of time. They had to put several pins and small plate in. Meredith was shocked when she got out of surgery and it was two hours past when she told Derek she would be home. She still had to take the patient through recovery. She would be there another couple of hours. She wanted to call Derek but she didn't have time. Callie had her running all over the place. After a few hours, she finally got to go home. She tried to call Derek but there was no answer. It was late, he probably gave up on her hours ago. She pulled into the garage. There was no car in the driveway. He wasn't there. When she went in the house, it was dark and quiet. There was a note that he knew about the surgery, and he went home. He had put her dinner in the refrigerator. She looked it there. It was lemon chicken, which she loved. Her heart sank. He wasn't there. She wanted him there with her. She wondered why he hadn't stayed. She ate her dinner alone, and then headed up to bed. She laid there for a few hours. She couldn't sleep, not without him. She jumped out of bed and threw some things in a bag. She had to be up in four hours, but four hours of sleep were better than non. She needed Derek. She hoped in her car and drove there quickly. When she pulled up to the trailer she saw his car. The trailer was dark. She got out of her car and went to the door. It was unlocked. How safe, she thought. She walked in and saw him sleeping, or at least she thought. She jumped into bed.

Derek: What are you doing here?

Meredith: You left me alone. Don't you know I'm afraid of the dark?

Derek: (Chuckles.) No, that I did not know. How was the surgery?

Meredith: It was good. Dinner alone was great. The life of a surgeon. (She wraps her arms around him.) I'm tired.

Derek: Me too. I haven't fallen asleep yet.

Meredith: Why is that?

Derek: I don't know, it's never been a problem. You have ruined me.

Meredith: I tend to do that.

Derek: I have a hard time believing that.

Meredith: Well, goodnight.

Derek: Goodnight. Hey Mer-

Meredith: Yes.

Derek: I love you.

Meredith: (She smiles.) I love you too. (They were both asleep within five minutes.)

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OK, small update. I can't let go. I tried. I am going to keep going. It will have an end, but I will build up to it. It will be a lot of fluff, and less drama. Let me know if that's OK. I could compile it into a summary in one chapter and end it. Up to you guys.