DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN GREY'S ANATOMY, I wish I did!

Meredith awoke from her much needed rest. She felt a lot better. She hadn't slept well in a while. She was surprised when she looked over at the clock and it was already five o'clock. She laid there for a few minutes and then decided that Derek deserved a real meal. She went into the refrigerator and grabbed out a pack of pork chops, and started cooking. She was definitely getting better in the kitchen. She was just finishing up the meal, when Derek walked in.

Derek: I'm home. (He yelled, and then walked into the kitchen.) You cooked. (He walks over and kisses her.)

Meredith: I did. I figured you deserved a warm meal. I hope it's alright, this is my first time with pork chops.

Derek: I'm sure it will be great. Do you need any help?

Meredith: Nope. The table is set, food is ready. All you have to do is eat!

Derek: Well this is nice. (They sit down and start eating.) It's good, too.

Meredith: Thanks.

Derek: So the nausea is gone?

Meredith: Yep. It just went away, today.

Derek: Amazing...

Meredith: (Trying to change the subject.) So how was the hospital?

Derek: It was fine. So, what did you do today?

Meredith: Me? What did I do? (She says nervously. She begins pushing her food around on the plate.) You know, stuff around the house.

Derek: So you stayed home all day? (He raises his eyebrows.) Here, in the house?

Meredith: That's what I said, isn't it? (She retorted, dropping her fork.)

Derek: That's funny, because a nurse saw you at the hospital today.

Meredith: I don't know how. (She looked down.)

Derek: Funny thing is, I saw you too. Just as you were walking out. You saw Addison today.

Meredith: I don't have to tell you everything I do, every minute of the day, Derek! (She snapped.)

Derek: I just don't understand why you lied to me.

Meredith: You know what, I'm not really hungry. (She throws her food in the trash and starts to walk to their room.)

Derek: Meredith! I'm not-- (The door slams.) Damn-it.

Derek sits at the table, eating his food in silence. I wonder what she was doing at the hospital. She saw Addison. What could they have talked about? She can talk to Addison on the phone. They didn't have lunch. They never went in an exam room either. What if something is wrong. Damn-it, why does she have to be so damn secretive? He did the dishes and decided he had to go in their room. He had to face her sometime. He went into their room, and saw her lying in a ball.

Derek: Meredith.

Meredith: I don't want to talk.

Derek: I love you Mer, I do, but what the hell? You have been moody and irritable. Not to mention sick, for a long time. What is wrong with you? Why would you have to talk to Addison? Oh my God, do you have cancer?

Meredith: Nothing is wrong, Derek. Just leave me alone.

Derek: Why do you have to be so fucking secretive? I feel like I'm living with a Goddamn CIA agent! Since we've been back from the honeymoon, you have been totally different. You're-

Meredith: What? Not the woman you fell in love with? You should have waited for someone else to come along, Derek. I'm sure they would have. There are plenty of nurses at the hospital, if you'd rather screw one of them.

Derek: I'm taking a shower...

Meredith: That's right, Derek. Just walk away.

Derek: I have to, I have to just walk away at this point. (He goes into the bathroom.)

Meredith: I should just tell him. I could run in there right now. I could say "I'm Pregnant", but what would that do? Maybe he would be elated, but maybe, just maybe, he wouldn't. I have time. All I need is a little more time.

Derek: I don't know what to do with her. I can't be around her when she's like this. I can't deal with her moodiness, and negativity. I feel like she could snap at any moment. She obviously doesn't love me enough to talk to me about this.

Derek comes out of the shower, and sees her laying there. He doesn't have the patience to say anything. He doesn't want to say anything he will regret. She is feeling guilty about not telling him. She is really afraid of how he will react. If he was upset about the baby, she couldn't handle that. Derek lays down on the bed. They lay back to back. They never sleep like that. He is always spooned up against her. Not tonight. He is just too mad.

Meredith woke up early. She was immediately feeling nauseous. The morning sickness was like a routine now. She quietly made her way into the bathroom, and began vomiting. She hoped he didn't hear her. He didn't wake up, and she wasn't waking him up. She had no idea what time he had to be to the hospital, and quite frankly, she didn't care. She managed to eat a couple of crackers, and she headed on her way, without him.

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Meredith walked into the locker room, flinging the door. She walked straight to her locker and threw the door open. Everyone just watched you. You could see the steam coming out of her ears. She hastily threw her scrubs on and slammed the door.

Alex: What's wrong with you?

Meredith: Derek's an ass. (She seethed.)

Cristina: What did McDreamy do now?

Meredith: He-- Never mind.

Alex: He obviously did something.

Meredith: Nothing I want to tell you. (Bailey walks in, and gives assignments. Meredith and Cristina get assigned to one of Addison's cases. They walk off together.)

Cristina: So...

Meredith: What?

Cristina: Are you? I mean, I know you are.

Meredith: I am. I came to see Addison yesterday. Derek found out, that I was here.

Cristina: So you told him?

Meredith: No!

Cristina: You will have to.

Meredith: Maybe I could go somewhere...

Cristina: Seriously? You are kidding, right? Like leave the country?

Meredith: Yeah...

Cristina: You are delusional... So, McDreamy. What did he do?

Meredith: He basically said he regrets marrying me. That I am secretive and moody.

Cristina: And you aren't?

Meredith: Not generally. Just right now. Right now, I guess I am.

Cristina: But he doesn't know why. You can't blame him.

Meredith: Just shut up, okay?

Addison: Are you my interns?

Meredith: Yep.

Addison: So how are you... (She whispered.)

Meredith: The nausea medication is helping. (Addison gives her a look.) Oh, Cristina knows. She is the only one that does.

Cristina: Oh, about McBaby? Yeah, I know.

Addison: Oh.

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Meredith was running to get labs for Addison. She was thankful that she hadn't ran into Derek yet. She took a detour to the surgical board. She noticed that he was in surgery. Part of her was jealous that she wasn't in the operating room with him, but at the same time, she knew she couldn't be. As she was on her way back from the lab, she rounded the corner, running into Chief Webber.

Richard: Meredith, how are you?

Meredith: I'm good.

Richard: You're feeling better?

Meredith: Yes, I am.

Richard: So Derek is still turning me down? I haven't heard from him.

Meredith: Turning you down? What do you mean?

Richard: Oh! (He looks shocked.) He didn't tell you...

Meredith: Tell me what? (She raised her voice.)

Richard: As you know, I am retiring.

Meredith: Yes...

Richard: I offered him Chief, he declined.

Meredith: He what?

Richard: I gave him a week to change his mind. He would make an excellent Chief.

Meredith: I will talk to him.

Meredith just walked away. She was fuming. He didn't even tell her. How could he not tell her? He always wanted to be Chief of Surgery, and now, now he is throwing it away. She felt horrible. He can't even tell her what is going on in his life. They are married. You share things with your wife. The more she thought about it, the angrier she got. She stormed into the scrub room, grabbing a surgical mask. The automatic doors open, and everyone looks up at her.

Meredith: Derek Shepherd!!

Derek: Can I help you, Doctor ShepherdI am a little busy here. I am in the middle of a patient's brain. (He shouted with anger in his voice.) I can not talk to you right now.

Meredith: When you are done, FIND ME! (She walks out, throwing her mask in the trash, and ripping the door open.)

Doctor Eisley: Do you always let your interns speak to you like that, Dr. Shepherd?

Derek: I do when they are my wife.

Doctor Eisley: Oh...

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Meredith could hardly work she was so mad at him. Addison's surgery was a good one. When they were done, Cristina followed the patient through recovery. Meredith went down to the pit. She was very disappointed when a head trauma came in, and she had to page Derek. She knew his surgery was done by now, and he never came to find her. Finally he came down to see the patient. He glared at him as he walked in the room. He checked the patient over and then looked at her.

Derek: You need to run an MRI.

Meredith: Fine. I don't want on this case if it's surgical. (She answered.)

Derek: Dr. Shepherd, I need to speak with you.

Meredith: And I needed to speak with you earlier. I am busy now, sorry.

Derek: Now! (He walks over and grabs her arm, pulling her into another room.) If you ever come into my OR like that again, Meredith.

Meredith: What? What are you going to do?

Derek: Your lack of professionalism is unbelievable. I had Dr. Eisley, from New York in there. Do you know how you made me look? What the hell is your problem?

Meredith: My problem? Seriously, Derek? Oh I don't know, maybe because you were offered Chief, and you declined. But that isn't even the worst part. You didn't even fucking tell me, Derek.

Derek: It has nothing to do with you. It's my decision.

Meredith: You're right, it is. I don't know what we're doing here. If you can't tell me that. This, me and you, is a waste.

Derek: I don't think I am the only one here with a secret.

Meredith: That may be right, but right now, I am not telling you. Right now, I don't want to see your fucking face. I think you need to find somewhere else to stay tonight, because you are not coming home.

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So they are both mad. They both have secrets. It doesn't help that Meredith feels like crap, and goes off at the drop of a hat. Damn Derek is so brainless!