A/N: More thoughts of Geordi's. Thanks to those who read and reviewed last chapter! I know the chapters are a bit short, I'm sorry.
A memorial service for Data. An absent friend? He's not gone, he's dead. Can an android die? He was never truly alive, he was like the Computer. There but not truly human. But he was so close, everyone came to think of him as human. He had a personality that no other android could ever have.
When I was little I never imagined that I could be on a starship, much less the Enterprise. That was great enough but getting to know Data was the best part.
Can I still work in engineering without him? Sure, there are more than capable people down there but none are going to ever measure up to Data, the way I was able to discuss with him and figure out a problem, the way I was able to figure him out little by little.
Silent toasts from all of us, to one of our dearest friends.
Data told me about that day in the holodeck. I wish I could've seen him whistle. He never did get the hang of last part of "Pop Goes the Weasel." I always hated that song as a child. I never knew why.
But I had so many other memories of him. I've tried to remember all of them but it's hard. I remember Tasha and him together. Who would've thought…
And Lal. Poor Lal. If she was here maybe it wouldn't have made it so difficult. Maybe not. Who would want to tell the poor girl that he father was gone? I don't think the Captain would want to. After all, Lal had emotions, she might have blamed the Captain for Data's death. After all, Data did sacrifice himself to save the Captain. Where is that emotion chip? I swear he told me that he had to take it out because it started to malfunction again.
More memories pass among us. The last time I saw Data was when…Oh God. No, no, no! I sent him to his death, didn't I? I was the one that launched him! Oh dear God. I'm to blame aren't I? No one blames the Captain because it wasn't his fault. It was mine. For the first time in quite a while that I've actually wished for my VISOR back. It hides tears and emotions that well up in my eyes.
Counselor Troi is staring at me. Is she sensing how I feel? Does she just feel my sorrow or my sense that I betrayed my best friend? She just shook her head at me. She doesn't know. She could never know how guilty I feel, how guilty I am! I could've talked him out of it! I should've given Data another prototype of those emergency transport devices. How could I have been so stupid?
More pointless toasts, what do they matter? Data's not here.
A/N: So? What did you think? Should I put more? Please review with any thoughts you have!