AN: My chapter uploaded! Yay! I am seriously happier than a fat kid with a big cake. xD haha. Okay. Well enjoy the chapter.
I guess I should include a disclaimer while I'm at it.. ha
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight nor the characters sad as it is, I do own Mariah and Josh though! haha.
"Okay Bella, I'll be there soon." She hung up after that. I was just laying on the couch thinking of ways how I was going to tell Alice, nothing came to mind then I heard the doorbell ring. I went to go get the door it was Alice she had a tub of vanilla ice cream. I eyed it curiously.
"I thought we might need this later." She said chirpy but there was hint of condolence.
"Thanks Alice, this means a lot to me." I told her candidly.
"Well, do you want to eat the ice cream right now or later?" She asked.
"We can eat some while I tell you..." I suggested
"That's fine." Alice agreed. I grabbed to big bowls and put big spoonfuls of ice cream in them. I put the ice cream in and we both sat on the dining room table. I wasn't sure how to start this so I started with something simple.
"This is the first time, I've ever been able to open up since what happened in Phoenix. This is very had for me to tell anybody. I couldn't even open up to my own mother she was my best friend basically..."I told her tears already welling up.
"Bella, you don't have to tell me what happened. I don't want to force this out of you." Alice said her eyes only showed condolence. I swallowed loudly and decided it was now or never.
"Back in Phoenix, I had a boyfriend I liked him but I wasn't in love with him." You can do this I kept on chanting to myself in my head.
"He called one night, he wanted to hang out he was having a small get together at his with our friends Mariah and Josh." Tears were falling freely now. This wasn't even the worst part either.
"I believed him, he picked me up at my house, on the ride back he kept on grabbing my inner thigh I told him repeatedly to stop but he wouldn't." I was trembling with anger. I looked up to see Alice and she looked speechless. I have never thought I would see the day Alice would not know what to say.
"He had a smirk planted on his face, he told me he loved me, that I was the best thing that ever happened to him."I sniffled. I wasn't sure if I was able to go on... I took a big breath and decided I would feel better telling someone.
"We were sitting on his couch, his parents were never home. I asked him what time Josh and Mariah were coming over and he laughed. He said he lied. I felt angry that he lied to me. All of sudden he pinned me down on the couch he said you have no idea how long I've been waiting to do this, he whispered sickeningly in my ear... " I felt void of any kind of emotion I only felt the tears falling endlessly. I felt like my voice was dull.
"He ripped my shirt... that I was wearing that night, he had his hands firmly on my sides he left bruises of his hands all over my body... Then he unzipped his pants and mines ripped off my undergarments... then he thrust into me violently..." I started crying hysterically it hurt to think about it but to say it out loud... felt ten times worse.
"I yelled frantically looking for help the whole time but he lived on the outskirts, he had no neighbors that lived nearby. After it was all over I ran, I fell constantly I didn't care I just wanted to get the hell out of there." I started sobbing and Alice just held me while I broke down. I felt vulnerable.
"Bella, I'm so sorry. I didn't know. I wish it never happened to you." Alice said softly tears falling down her angelic face.
"He... used... me Alice..." I cried. Even though I felt vulnerable, I felt like this enormous weight was off my shoulders I felt peaceful.
"It was my first time... I'm not pure, I'm worthless." I cried frantically
"Bella don't say that, it was his fault none of this is your fault; you'll never be worthless you mean so much to all of us, to Edward, Emmett, Rose,Jasper, and me. Don't ever doubt that we all love you so much. He's the one that is causing you all this pain but he didn't deserve you that selfish, dirty pig!" Alice said sincerely.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to break down Alice. It just felt so good to let it all out, my biggest shame." I told her tears still falling freely. I felt grateful to have such an amazing friend like Alice.
AN:There is my story! I am so relieved I got it uploaded. I am so sorry for the delay of this story. I will have another chapter up tomorrow. Thank you all for your support it really meant a lot to me!
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