Edward and I have been dating for about two months now, and I still haven't told him what happened in Phoenix. I decided today would be the day. We were going to this beautiful meadow we discovered in the woods a couple weeks ago.

I was getting ready for the day, Edward was downstairs talking to Emmett about the upcoming football season. I rolled my eyes. I thought I looked semi-decent and started going down the stairs. I tripped on my own two feet, I was expecting to meet the floor but it never came. I felt some all to familiar arms around my waist. I smiled it was Edward.

"Are you okay?" He asked concerned.

"Yeah." I blushed, how embarrassing.

"Do you want to get going, love?"

"Sure." I was nervous to say the least, I wasn't sure how this was going to turn out. I just hope he wouldn't hate me for this.

We were on the way to the meadow, when Edward cupped my cheek and looked at my eyes.

"What's wrong, love?" He asked worried.

"Nothing."

"Yes, there's something wrong with you."

"Nothing is wrong Edward." He dropped it for now, I knew he was going to ask later and I would have to tell him then.

We were walking in silence. Edward would rub soothing circles on my hand. I would give him a reassuring smile and we would walk ahead. We finally got to the meadow I took a deep breath. We were holding each others hand.

"Edward, I love you." I had to tell him. I wanted to hear him say it one last time just in case this went all wrong.

"I love you too sweetheart." I smiled. He gave me his crooked grin. It felt nice to have someone that loves you.

"Bella? What's wrong?" I looked into his eyes and saw concerned written all over. I felt the tears welling up and getting ready to spill any second.

"If I told you something about me that wasn't good would you hate me?"I blurted out.

"I could never hate you Bella."

"But this is something that could hurt our relationship." I started crying. The images of the night I got raped popped in my head.

"Shh.. Bella don't cry. I promise you I won't leave." He picked me up and put me on his lap. I sobbed on his shoulder. I looked into his beautiful emerald eyes and there was pain written all over his face. I got off his lap.

"Edward, I just want to tell you I love you so much." He stepped toward me but I backed away every time he came closer to me.

EPOV

My Bella was crying and I couldn't do anything about it. Every time I would step closer to her, she would back up. This was just exactly like the dream I had 2 months ago. The animals were making noises, but this time I could hear what Bella was saying. This wasn't a nightmare this was reality.

"Bella. Don't cry. I love you so much. Whatever you have to tell me won't hurt us." I promised I loved Bella more than anything, that anything that happened between us wouldn't hurt us.

"Edward..I just don't want you to treat me different because of my past." It broke my heart into pieces to see her like that.

"Bella, I promise just tell me what is wrong."

"Back in Phoenix... I had a boyfriend and he..." I felt I was going to die with the suspense. I swear if he hurt my Bella in any kind of way I will hunt him down and break him limb by 01

"He..." She continued to sob. I wanted to hold her in my arms and tell her everything was going to be okay.

"He.. raped.. me.." Her voice cracked and she fell on the floor it was so quietly that she probably doubted I heard her. I was shocked. Was I hearing or correct? Was this all a horrible nightmare?

I got closer to her and gathered her in my arms. I put my chin on her hair and let her cry everything out. I was still in shock. I heard her started to sniffle and I looked at her worried chocolate eyes.

"Edward? Do you hate me?" She croaked.

"Bella. I could never hate you, I love you to much."

"Really?" There was happiness in her eyes again.

"How do I have to prove it to you that I love you more than anyone?" She giggled and she layed her head on my chest. We just lied down on the grass in the meadow. I just couldn't believe it. That someone would take advantage of her like this.

"Who was it?"I asked her venom laced in my voice. I was going to find him and hurt him horribly.

"He was my old boyfriend. Renee never met him.. she only knew we were dating." I could hear the pain in her voice.
"Bella, please tell me his name." She flinched, I guess she was expecting that question with so much authority.

"His.. his.. name was James.." She sounded defeated, she started crying again.

"James...?" I asked I was going to find him and he was going to pay for the pain he had caused my angel.

"Saunders" I was going to find this James Saunders and cause ten times the pain he causes Bella.

We stayed the whole day in meadow just thinking. I just couldn't believe it. I might never be able to believe it neither.

It was finally getting late and I didn't want Chief Swan to hurt me for bringing Bella home late.

We were in my Volvo now, I looked to see Bella and she looked upset again.

"Love, what's wrong now?"

"Are things going to be different between us now?" I could hear her voice crack. I tilted her head to look at me.

"Never, I love you Bella. Don't ever forget that." I meant it. Her eyes were welling up with tears again and she had a watery smile. I pressed my lips to hers and she threw her arms around me and sighed contently. I smiled against her lips and her tongue was begging for entrance. I granted her the entrance she was asking for and our tongues moved together in synchronized motion. After a while the kiss was getting to heated up for Bella and I and we broke apart. We were both gasping for air. I smiled knowing the effect I had on Bella.

We finally got to Bella's house and I didn't want to leave her here but I knew I had to.

"I'll see you tomorrow, love." Her eyes lit up knowing I would be back tomorrow.

"Bye Edward, I love you."

"I love you more!" I shouted back. She giggled, she looked so cute when she giggled.

Bella and Emmett's birthday was coming up soon and I already had the perfect gift for Bella. I knew she would love it.

I got inside my house and went straight to my room. I just couldn't get it in my head. I just couldn't believe this happened to my Bella.

I decided to text Bella.

To: Bella

Frm: Edward

Love, I miss you so much. Do you need a ride to school?

-E

I smiled. I just hope things don't become awkward between Bella and I because of what she told me.

AN: I'm not truly satisfied with this chapter, the story is not over yet though! Anyways review and tell me what you think about this chapter. By the way I will be closing the poll on 24th of Friday!

-bewithoutyou9