Shattered Mind - Part 17 – (Month 6 / 1hr later)

Month 6 / 1hr later

Lying in his bed, still wrapped in Donnie's arms for over an hour now, April wondered if Donnie would ever let her go, she stared at the ceiling in deep thoughts, she worried of Donnie's brother's well being, for this she couldn't get any sleep.

(I hope they are ok…)

With a sigh, she shut her eyes, trying once more to get some rest, for the brothers would be exhausted in the morning, meaning she would have to watch Donnie, surprisingly sleep crept in without out warning, wisping her away.

Sweet dreams filled her head that became heated more by the moment as an alluring aroma tickled her beak.

Suddenly she could feel something warm and wet run across her neck, with a moan that escaped her, it felt so good, she opened her eyes quickly wondering if she was still dreaming or not.

Realizing she was fully awake, April flashed over her shoulder, to notice that Donnie was wide awake, still holding her, yet tighter than before.

With another lick he got her on the cheek, that small, insignificant lick had an unusual big impact on her, shooting shivers of pleasures down her body, which she quite enjoyed.

(Wait, what am I doing!)

Startled by her reaction towards him, April desperately tried to get out of his grip, failing miserably as she realized she couldn't.

Not because he was stronger than her, no it was worse, her body didn't want to respond.

Her brain said one thing; her body did another, as she found herself pressing closer into him wagging her tail wanting more.

Confused, April became scared, she didn't understand why she was acting in this manner.

(This is all wrong, what am I doing?)

Tilting his head, Donnie studied her, sniffing the air looking at her oddly, he must have caught the fear that was coming from her, or something in that manner.

Slowly he came close to her neck with his beak, brushing against her skin softly, chirping to her, asking for permission to continue what he was doing.

Each chirp hit her hard, as her fear was overpowered by an uncontrollable lust that she didn't have the faintest idea where it came from or how to control it.

Bubbling from her own throat, she couldn't stop herself, releasing a couple chirps of her own to answer him.

(This is a dream, right? Why can't I control my own actions… Why do I feel like this? I want him so badly…)

Confusion clouded her mind mix with her feelings, it worsened when Donnie continued showing his affections, with licks and kisses.

Lightly brushing her cheek with his thumb, he licked her neck, while slowly moving his other hand down, rubbing her tail gently, she gasp for air closing her eyes, enjoying every stroke, lick and kiss.

With his other hand, he rubbed her arms softly as she coo to him in response, everything he did, felt right, felt amazing, the urge grew inside her, overwhelming her to the point she lost all thought of reasoning as she pressed her lips against Donnie's, feeling them, tasting them.

(mmmmmm)

She couldn't control herself anymore as she started to kiss and lick him, enjoying every second of it.

His smell was so sweet, so exhilarating that she gave up altogether not caring anymore, indulging into her sexual needs, twisting her tail around his, Donnie chirp excitedly as he took that as a sign that she was ready for him to make love to her.

Huffing, April let the rollercoaster of feelings play their course as she was in complete bliss, Donnie nuzzled into her satisfied that he pleasured her, as he fell back to sleep, exhausted from the couple hours of constant mating.

She too feeling weak and tired, couldn't sleep as the bliss started to fade and the realization of her playtime with Donnie came into full view.

(I can't believe I just did that… why did I just do that?)

Staring at his peaceful face that was in complete bliss, feelings of guilt washed over April as she slowly got out of bed; luckily Donnie didn't notice or stopped her.

April felt dirty, disgusted of herself in taking advantage of Donnie like this.

She was to be the responsible one here, the one that was watching over him, yet she let herself to lose control, over her own lust.

(How could have I done that to him…)

Shaking her head she wanted to cry, she wondered if this was classified as rape, did she rape Donnie?

She knew she had something to do with his lustful behaviour… but was it truly all her fault?

Leaving the room, she figured he would be fine; she needed a shower to clear her mind to figure out what happened and if she did indeed do something she couldn't bear to think of.

Outside his room, the lair was quiet, noticing no one was back yet part of her was happy to see that, she didn't want one of the brothers to know what she has just done, although at the pit of her stomach she worried they weren't home yet.

(No, I can't think the worse, I really need a shower. What am I going to do? Do I tell Leo about this? Donnie no doubt will act differently around me… What do I do…)

Frantic, April quickened her steps, hurrying down the stairs entering the bathroom, shutting the door behind her.

Breathing heavy she knew she couldn't lock it regardless if she really wanted too, with a sigh, she stumbled towards the room where the showers were.

Hoping no one would think to take a shower, she turned on the water soaking under it closing her eyes, wishing it would wash away everything that just occurred.

Use to living with the guys she wasn't worried about someone walking in on her, it's not like she was human anymore.

Yet she hoped no one would come in, she wasn't sure how she would react seeing one of the brothers, she might start breaking down crying in the condition she was in at the moment.

Deep down, she was satisfied with the time she had with Donnie, she even enjoyed every moment, but the guilt hounded her, not leaving her alone.

Closing her eyes tighter, she leaned her head against the wall, letting her locks of hair fall in front of her face.

"April?" Raph voice came behind her in a worrisome tone.

Almost jumping out of her shell, April turned around quickly.

There at the door stood Raph who was full of mud from head to toe, he looked like he was mud wrestling.

"Raph what happened?" April asked, trying to hide she was upset over something.

"Trust me, you don't want to know, are you ok? Why are you taking a shower so late… well early…?" Raph came into the room looking for a scrub brush and wash clothes; he wasn't so embarrassed in coming in.

"I'm fine, Donnie finally let me go, he was all sweaty, so I thought it would be best to take a shower," she half lied for in truth Donnie did get sweaty, but so did she.

April watched him, as Raph looked into the shelves for the scrub brush, finally finding it, he looked towards April, she seemed upset was it because he was in there and didn't act on the fact she was in the shower?

"Huh, ok, can I take a shower or do you want me to wait until you're done. I can wait outside," finding what he needed Raph made his pile he would take for his shower, he really wanted to get clean, and he didn't care if she was in there, but if she felt weird for him being there he didn't want to push it.

Shaking her head, she didn't mind, "Go ahead Raph, as long you're comfortable, it doesn't bother me, I had Mikey walk in on me so many times that I got used to it," April chuckle lightly.

With a smirk Raph shook his head, "Damn purve of course he would, fine, I really need to get this shit off of me."

Taking the shower at the far end of the room Raph got his water ready, with his shell facing towards her, April noticed how dirty it was, it looked caked on, there was no way Raph was going to be able to wash it off on his own.

"So is everyone mucked up or where you the lucky one?"

Raph shrugged, "The lucky one, or more like Mikey grrr… damn idiot," with a huff Raph went under the water.

"Yep, you're right, I don't want to know… Raph you are aware that your shell is so dirty that your scrub brush will be useless, unless someone helps you?" April pointed out.

"Damn… ok, can you get Leo in here then, not Mikey, unless you want there to only be three brothers living with you."

Chuckling again April sighed, "I am content with the four of you, don't need to pick off your little brother. Why don't I help you?" April offered.

Raph froze as his face turned red, looking away quickly he mumbled, "If you want…"

Giving him an odd look April bit her lower lip, maybe she stepped over her boundaries on that question, "Sorry Raph, if I made you feel uncomfortable, I will go get Leo."

"NO… I mean, it's ok. You probably will do a better job than Leo and I really don't want to hear some stupid lecture from him anyways," Raph spit out quickly, turning towards her offering her the brush.

"Ok," with that April took the brush, cleaning his shell.

She was right, it was caked on, she had to press as hard as she could, just to see the color of his shell.

Brushing she could feel the heat coming off of him, the water was cool why was his body so warm?

Almost fully clean, then an aroma from Raph caught her beak, it was sweet, memorizing, stopping what she was doing, April panic, staring at his shell.

(Oh no, not again…)

Reliving the hours ago in her head, she felt her body become warmer, this was the same thing that started the thing between her and Donnie.

The room was silent for the only sounds were the showers, noticing April stop brushing, Raph turned himself towards her, as he studied her, he wondered why she stopped, she couldn't be done cleaning his shell yet, could she?

"April?" Raph got close to see what was the matter, as he looked down at her, she seemed distant, something was on her mind, she seemed odd to him yet there was something about her that made him want to get closer to her.

Her hands shook, the smell was still lingering and she could feel the little urge start growing within her, it worsened when Raph put his hand onto her shoulder to see if she was ok.

Slowly looking up towards Raph, he seemed confused, yet a spark in the back of his eyes was starting to show.

Raph nostril flared a bit, he tried to hide it as he turned red, with a gulp, Raph stood there frozen not sure if he should or not.

His hand started to trail down her arm, the feel of his gentle hand made her gasp for air, as she realized she stop breathing.

Looking her over, Raph moved in, kissing her, the exact moment that their lips touch, she started to melt, suddenly Raph grabbed her forcefully, pressing her against him tightly, passionately kissing her losing all control and thoughts.

Her tail started to wag, as she couldn't stop herself from kissing and licking his neck, Raph chirped in delight by her seductive touch.

Words lost, replaced by action and sounds of moans and chirps, Raph picked April up pressing her gently against the wall, positioning her, chirping near her neck he waited for her permission.

Giving it to him, Raph didn't take a moment to spare as he pleasured her deeply.

A raging lust took over as they became intimate, after both were satisfied; Raph brushed her hair away to access her cheek as he kissed her lovingly, then took his leave for his body called for sleep.

She stood there alone, staring at him leaving the room, her legs started to tremble giving in as she fell to the ground.

On the shower floor April gasped for air, closing her eyes as she started to cry, she did it again, she knew for sure she was the cause of it.

(What's wrong with me, not only I went for Donnie, I went for Raph too…)

Tears escaped her, then the shower she had on earlier turned off, as a set of footsteps came towards her turning of the water of Raph's shower.

Who ever it was loomed over her, surprised she felt something soft wrap around her, looking at it she noticed it was a towel.

Hesitantly, she looked up to see who it was, it was Leo; he had a sympathetic look on his face as he helped her up to her feet.

April felt scared she didn't want Leo near her, what if she does it to him what she did to Raph and Donnie, "Leo please you have to get away from me…" April looked away, ashamed, scared and overly disgusted of herself, she didn't know what was wrong with her, and if she did seduce Leo she couldn't live with herself for he was her best friend.

With a sigh, Leo made sure to talk calmly to her, "April don't worry, I have no attraction to you, nor does Mikey so please don't worry. I will make some tea, why don't you come with me."

April eyes full a tears, she looked at him unsure, her fear was overwhelming that she wanted no more then to run away before she lost control of herself once again, April sniffed, trying to get her words out between her sobs, "What do you mean?"

Leo put his arm around her, leading her out of the bathroom, "I will explain it the best I can when your nerves are not so bad."

Nodding April placed her head onto his shoulder, letting him lead the way, she still felt uneasy but she trusted Leo.

Bringing her to the table in the kitchen, Mikey had some tea ready, wondering if he should stay around or not, Leo indicated he was best to stay, Mikey sat down quietly.

Quickly realizing April looked wearily at him, Mikey shook his hands, "Don't worry April I don't think of you that way, you're too much like a sister."

April looked at the chair, still not understanding, yet she was a bit relieved by Mikey's words.

April took a seat, while Leo placed a cup of tea in front of her.

April just stared at it for a few seconds before taking a sip, it made her feel warm as she noticed her nerves started to calm down and her mind started to clear up.

Settled down, Leo finally explained, "April it wasn't your fault or theirs… yes, I know about Donnie, you can say… rrr… I could smell it."

"Why do you think it isn't… I don't know what happened… and…" April broke down in tears as her guilt swallowed her up.

(The worst part is I enjoyed it… There is something really wrong with me.)

Biting his lip Leo took a sip of his tea, "You're in… heat," Leo pushed the word out which wasn't easy for him to say.

Almost choking on her own tea, April eyes widen, "I am what?!"

"I think… no, Mikey and I think you're in some kind of heat. We have been noticing a smell from you for over a week now, and Raph and Donnie been reacting to it. But we weren't sure at the time what it was or realize it was even a possibility that you could go into a heat cycle. Donnie was the one that would have figured this out beforehand… Sorry, this is even new to us…," holding his cup Leo looked into it.

"Ok… if I am, why just them? You're males too?" April still couldn't believe what she was hearing, but it did make sense, considering how she has been feeling lately.

"That is because we aren't interested in you and you're not interested in us, that's what we figure. Raph and Donnie, is a different story. Sorry April we do know, you and Raph have been getting close and for Donnie, it's been there from the beginning," Leo said, he felt bad for bringing that up, for he felt it wasn't really his business, what April relationship was with Raph or Donnie.

Slumping into her chair April stared at the table, "I see… so other words I seduced them by my pheromones…"

"I think you both did," Mikey jumped in, he didn't like seeing April so depressed.

"Mikey is right, I believe you both did, so no, you didn't rape them or… do you feel they did to you?" Leo had to ask, for in his mind she didn't but does she feel they did to her though?

April sighed, looking up, "No, I know I was at fault for both of them, and the worst part is that I knew I should stop, or not go near them but I still…"

Not able to take it anymore, Mikey got off his chair going around the table, going behind April giving her a big hug to comfort her, "April its ok they won't blame you, we don't."

Looking over her shoulder April smiled sweetly to Mikey's optimism, "Thanks Mikey, but I still feel bad; it will take a bit until I feel otherwise… I need to talk to both of them, maybe then I will be ok."

"We'll leave that till the morning, April why don't you sleep in my room, this way you don't have to pass Donnie's or Raph's room. I don't know if you still are in heat or not, but not having the full smell of them will not take control of you. But the same time I think you not being near them is part of the reason you're not sleeping," Leo suggested.

"Are you sure Leo?"

"Yeah, I will bunk with Mikey so I am still in earshot. I have to make sure Donnie and Raph don't look for seconds, who knows how long it takes them to get your scent out of their system."

With a nod April got up slowly, she was starting to feel the pain of her constant sexual activities as she started to burn all over.

Settling into Leo's room, she could smell Donnie and Raph from there, it was more comforting, than alluring, not having the full scent overwhelming her, it didn't make her feel funny.

Leo was right stating she was best to sleep in his room, she felt calm as she fell fast asleep, less restless compare when she was trying to sleep in the lab.