Hello, Everyone! I hope that Everyone that celebrates it had a great Thanksgiving! I also want to wish a Happy Hanukkah to those that celebrate that as well.

Thank you to Darcysmom for betaing, and to you guys for reading! It means a lot to me.

Well, I won't keep you guys waiting. I'll see you guys at the bottom.

Enjoy!

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We ran all the way to the house, slowing down as we came up to the drive way, the gravel crunching under our feet. It felt weird being back here. Odd. Ever since that first day I saw Bella, I had always thought of the Fork's house as home, but now, being back here after everything, It didn't feel so much like home anymore. Looking at the house, it felt empty. Missing light and family. But most importantly love.

I didn't want to believe it before, but I think now I knew that it was Bella all along. She was the one that made everything better.

She made that house a home for me. She made me feel whole, even though most of the time I didn't think I deserved it.

Carlisle often pondered if she was our missing piece, if she was the one that held the family together. And I think now, looking back on all those months with her, I think she was. She brought our family closer maybe and made us happier, even Rose. Though, she will never admit that. I caught glimpses in her mind from time to time of good thoughts towards Bella.

The moment I chose to leave was the moment the family fell apart. I tore every one apart. I cut the strings that held all of us together.

Bella made that big of an impact on all of us. I didn't realize it until now.

And that right there, that realization, makes me wonder just how much I took for granted when I was with her.

It breaks me, shatters me to pieces.

I took her for granted.

Another regret to add to my list.

I threw her love back at her, didn't accept the precious gift she was giving me.

Another regret to add to my list.

I took every kiss, touch, caress from her and threw them all back in her face each and every time I refused her more.

Another regret to add to my list.

I am sure there will be many more regrets. I know I have so many more waiting to crawl up out of me. So many more.

Jasper opened the front door, the smell of dust and stagnant air assaulted us as we walked in to a scene of furniture covered in white sheets.

And I am hit with memories, memories of her being happy here. Of her embracing Esme, talking to Carlisle, laughing with Alice, playing around with Emmett, and trying to get Rose to talk to her.

But then I remember her birthday, me flinging her into the wall, the blood dripping down her arm, and then me holding Jasper back and my heart breaking. Because I knew, I just knew I would have to be the one to walk away.

I think deep down I also knew that despite me feeling I was doing what was best, I was making a monumental mistake.

We took our time uncovering the furniture and opening up the house. It was eerily quiet, and honestly not the same.

I missed her. I missed her so fucking much!

A sob escaped me as I fell to the ground, my knees hitting the floor hard, and all I could hear was Jasper's voice fading out.

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The Missing was reviewed on Bookishtemptations this morning, and allthingsHHH wrote a lovely review! It made my morning, really.

Also, The lovely Einfach_Mich made TM a really nice banner. For those that want to see it, I will be posting it on my twitter, which you can follow myheroin1. (I occasionally will post tiny teasers there, too.)

Thank you all for reading. I look forward to your thoughts!