Part 2 of Jealousy is a bitch
Thanks for waiting guys hope you enjoy xx
Emily's pov
After my shower I put on some denim shorts, a black singlet and my black and red flannel shirt. Entering the room, the bed was now empty and I smiled realising Ali had got up. Padding my way into the kitchen, i found Ali in my Rosewood sharks hoodie She must have found, and black shorts that barley covered her ass. Mmm you look cute babe I wrapped my arms around her placing a few kisses along her collarbone. "God Em you scared me" Ali jumped before relaxing into my arms and I smirked. I'm sorry you just look adorable in my top, I couldn't help myself. Ali smiled causing her dimples to show. "Hope you don't mind I wanted to wear something of yours this seemed appropriate". I smiled, I'm totally not complaining your the only person I know who can look hot in a sharks hoodie.
" Looks like we need to take a trip to the store, dad hasn't done the food shopping yet", Ali rolled her eyes as she opened the fridge, and I saw just how empty it was. "There's a local store a few blocks away you mind going for a walk"? Sure baby lead the way. When the two of us began walking, Ali hooked her arm with mine and I smiled. So what do we need? "I made a list while you were in the shower, we all ingredients to cook, and maybe some bread for lunch and popcorn to get us through the day, we can order pizza and my dad can go shopping properly when he gets back" I nodded, sound like a plan. When we arrived at the store Ali grabbed a trolly and I held her hand. We were almost done with only one thing left on the list when we were interrupted by a some guy. "Alison"? He question my blonde as if he wasn't sure it was her, when Ali looked up a huge smile appeared on her face. "OMG Ezra!" Ali stepped aside to hug him and the two held their hug a little longer then I would have like. "I can't believe it's you, I haven't we haven't seen each other since well you know"... Ali blushed how are you? How's Malcum"? "I'm good, he's good he's 7 now". "He's getting older then huh?" "yep you bet, How are you? how are things for you"? "I heard what you went through I'm sorry I would have called but I don't have your number". "It's fine I'm doing okay", Ezra glanced at me for a few seconds before noticing our hands that were still joined. "Well I I'd love to take you to dinner sometime maybe while your down in cape may", I bit my tongue not sure I was okay with that as it was clear that these two had some sort of a history. "Oh I don't know if that's a"... "oh come on look I will even ask Malcum to join us, it will be like old times I'm sure he'd love to see you". Ezra handed Ali his phone and she smiled. "Okay fine" Ali put Her phone number in before handing it back. "on one condition, I get to bring Em". Ali looked at me and I smiled when she brought our joined hands up to kiss the back of my hand. Ezra's eyes widen "I didn't... I mean I wasn't implying... Sure Emily your welcome to join us it's nice to me you". I nodded yeah it's nice to meet you too, I faked a smile and he smiled back. "well then I'll text you Ali, I better go and let you girls continue shopping it was great to see you again Al". Ezra stepped closer and kissed Ali's cheek before stepping around us and Ali couldn't even look at me. "So have we got everything Em"? Ali questioned wanting to change the topic and I rolled my eyes, yep let's go.
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The walk home from the store was quiet, Ali and I carrying a bag in each hand neither of us game enough to bring up the conversation we just had with Ezra. I desperately want to know who he was and why the hell Ali let him kiss her. I know it was on the check and I may be over reacting but jealous was quickly taking over. I mean even I could tell he's good looking which probably means Ali thinks so too. When we arrived back at the beach house, the two of us unpacked and I took a seat at the bench watching Ali get out all the things we needed to cook. "Are you really just going to sit there or are you going to help me"? Ali questioned and I rolled my eyes at her second attempt to avoid this conversation so I just went for it. You dated didn't you? How long? I question her and I could see her tense. Ali? just tell me. she sighed, "10 months I guess it was 10 months, we... We dated the summer I went missing" My eyes widen, But before I could say anything she cut me off. "That's in the passed now Em I promise, you have nothing to worry about". Ali grabbed both my hands and held them tightly. Ali he...I saw the way he looked at you, he's still into you and you let him kiss you. "Em" Ali whined. I'm serious Ali he looked at me and he saw us holding hands and he still had the guts to ask you to dinner. "Emmy relax I promise you I'm not into him anymore, I Love you, and like you said last night I'm the only one you want and you are the only one I want. Ezra means well, our relationship was different okay" Ali kissed my forehead before looking for a bowel. Different how? I question unable to stop myself, and who is Malcum? Ali turned around, "our relationship was complicated he has a son" He what?! How old is this guy? "Em it's not a big deal, Ezra and I met here in cape may, he had just recently found out that a girl he dated in high school fell pregnant and didn't tell him. When we started dating, Ezra had only just started having contact with his kid, he was four at the time and I was around a lot when he had to babysit. He's really sweet, he's the only other person I've ever been serious with other then you". Ali I'm not sure I really want to hear this, Ali smirked making her way over towards me. "Probably not but You will want to hear this part I swear, Things ended 2 weeks before I went missing. I'd been trying to fight my feeling I had towards you ever since the day at the kissing rock but I couldn't, and I finally admitted to myself I didn't want to fight it I was done fitting it. I liked Ezra believe me I did, he was sweet and kind, and everything a girl could want but he wasn't you. I feel in love with the way you make me feel, and I ended things with him as soon as I new, I just didn't tell him you were why.
My face soften as I listen to Ali's words. She... She loved me before she went missing? I questioned myself. You, you chose me? "Yep and that's exactly what I'm doing again now, I love you Em and I'm sorry about the kiss, I won't go on this "date" if you don't want me to". Ali pecked my lips a few time until I finally caved and began kissing her back. When we broke apart our foreheads met. You can go babe I can tell you want to see Malcum I'll just tag along with you like you said. Ali's face lit up. " thank you, your right I can't wait to see his kid, Now can we please do something fun mermaid? I mean seeing you jealous is cute and all but You said we could cook". Mmm yeah we can cook, hey how did you know I was jealous? "Because I know you better than you think, and you were silent the whole walk home same as me last night remember". Okay maybe I was a little but I... "Hey No need to apologise Em, everyone gets jealous.
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Pre heating the oven, Ali and I began to making brownies together and it was so much fun. The two of us made a complete mess, but the look on my girls face while doing it made me not even care. I hadn't seen Ali having this much fun in forever and I loved being the reason she was so happy. When the mixture was ready for the tray, we poured it in and set it in the oven with a timer. when I wasn't looking Alison dipped her finger in the mixing bowl, and wiped the left over mix on my chin clearly wanting my attention, and she got it. You did not just do that? I pouted and Ali laughed. "Actually I did Em what are you going to do about it?" Ali teased and my pout turned into a laugh before i picked her up so that she was now sitting on the bench. My hands brushed the exposed skin on her legs, as I pulled her closer towards me. When I felt Ali's legs locking around my waist I mimicked with my finger for her to come closer as if wanting a kiss, and she fell for it. Her eyes closed, and I took that as my chance to wipe chocolate on her neck.
Opps look now we are even babe. Ali cringed feeling the chocolate running down her neck. Let me get that for you, I smirked and Ali tilled her head allowing me access. When I swiped my tongue across Ali's plus point she moaned and I felt my stomach flip. The taste of chocolate mixed with Ali's vanilla sent made me never want to stop. "Mmm Em that tickles", I pulled back to see Ali bitting her lip and I did the same before running my finger across it to remove the chocolate, Ali then quickly took my finger placing it in her own mouth and used her tongue to lick it. when I pulled away Ali's eyes locked with mine as she grabbed my chin ever so softly kissing and licking the chocolate she had placed there a few moment ago. When the chocolate was all gone the two of us didn't move, our gazes was enough to know What we wanted. What had started out as a innocent cooking experience, had turned into something more, neither of us sure if we should make the next move, so You could say I was surprised when Ali was the one to do so.
Ali's pov
The kiss I just shared with Emily felt different then any other kiss we have ever shared. When I felt her soft pink lips hit the pulse point on my neck a tingling sensation went down my spin, and before I could stop myself I let out a moan. This seemed to enough my brunette actions. when she pulled away Emily thought she was going to get away with removing the chocolate herself, but I didn't let her, and when I looked up, Emily's eyes were searching mine, and I decided that she shouldn't have be the one to make the next move. Leaning my body forward, I wrapped my arms around her neck for support before crashing our lips together in a heated kiss. Emily let out a sharp intake of breath as she stumbled back a little pulling me with her. With my body now completely off the bench I held on tighter as Emily held me up and I brushed my tongue along her bottom lip. When she finally granted access her back hit the wall and The two of us fought for the lead. our tongues tangled, and I could taste the chocolate that was still in her mouth. when Emily moaned I softly nipped at her bottom lip before ever so slightly detaching for air. Almost instantly Emily's lips reattached to mine and this time I let her have her way as she flipped us pressing me into the wall all the while still hold me up. Her grip on my waist loosen as she trailed her hands along the fabric of her hoodie and edged her way underneath griping my bare skin as she began tracing patterns on my hips.
This movement cause my skin to for, goosebumps, and my hands to tugging on her hair, our lips only braking when I moved mine along her jaw and down her neck. When Emily tilted her neck, I smirked realising she was enjoying it. "Ali"... Emily huffed out some sort of response to my movement but I ignored it continuing my kisses and bitting down softly on the perfect spot leaving a mark. when I stopped, i looked into Emily's eyes before attempting to remove Emily shirt as it was now in the way. Emily realising my struggles, placed me on the ground detaching for only a second and helping me to remove her shirt, and the straps of her singlet top. As so as I was done, I pulled her against me by the waist my hand pulling her top down as far as it would go resting on her hips, revealing a red lace bra. "Babe we... You..." Em, I cut my girl off with a smirk. Please stop talking and kiss me, Emily gave into her mind and resumed kissing me this time reaching for the hem of my own shirt, and I was more than happy to remove it feeling the air around us getting a little hot. Lifting my arms above my head Emily tugged her hoodie and my t-shirt off in one swift motion, and I realised just how good she was at that. When her eyes left my face and our kiss broke, Emily stepped back slightly her hands still on my waist taking in the sight of my body and causing me to blush. Just as we were about to continue going further, we heard the timer on the oven go off and I sighed.
"We... We should stop", Emily whispered and I shook my head. I don't want to stop, "but we... We need to get that, they will burn". I don't care We can make more later. Emily smirked before kissing my check softly and pulling away, "we really should stop anyway before things you no get to heated". Emily pulled away picking up her top and throwing it back on as if none of that had just happen. I stood there stunned by her sudden change of mood and watched as she grabbed the brownies out of the oven, while still only in my bra and shorts. Did Emily only stop because of the food? Or did she really want to stop? Maybe I took it to far, maybe she doesn't want me like that yet? No of course she does she loves you remember? I talked to myself in my head as I'm left confused. When I heard Emily close the oven I looked up and caught her fiddling with her hands nervously, So I walked my way towards her. Why did you stop? I don't know about you, but I sure as hell didn't want to. Emily blushed, "Ali you know why, we could have burnt the house down besides I don't want...I mean I'm not... I just want to. Can you please put your shirt back on". I sighed a little hurt that she clearly wasn't into it anymore. Do you... Do you not want to do this with me? Is that why? Emily's eyebrows raised "what Ali no of course not I mean yes I want to believe me I so want I jus"... Em my dad's out, we are home alone remember. Emily nodded walking closer to me and wrapped her arms around my waist. "I know baby but I want it to be special, I want our first time together to be special". It will be special Em as long as I am with you. Emily kissed my temple and I rest my head in her neck. "That's sweet, but what I meant was I want it to be different, I want your first time with a girl to be something you can look back and think wow that was perfect, I would rather wait and do it the right way then give into my sexual urge now in the kitchen", And you think I'm sweet I lift my head to look at Emily who was blushing. You are such a romantic at heart Em and it's adorable, Emily shook her head. "I'm sorry I made you think I didn't want to I so want to, that's why I made you put on your shirt, I love you and I love knowing that you want this too, I've dreamt of this moment for so long, and I promise it will happen soon". I nodded my head not at all caring about the fact I would have to wait, because really for Emily I would wait forever, and I reached up on my tippy toes to steal one last kiss. It's fine baby I'm sure it will be worth the wait. "Oh you bet it will, that I can promise" Emily teased as she let go returning to the brownies and placing them on a plate.
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2 hours later when the kitchen was finally clean and the two of us had finished lunch, we finally settled in for our Netflix date. Although it is summer, the weather outside would state other wise and we could hear the summer rain. Placing a bowel of popcorn on the coffee table, Emily followed with the plate of brownies. "So what are we watching babe"? Emily questioned me and I shrugged my shoulders, I'm not sure lets see. I patted the spot next to me on the couch and Emily sat down allowing me to drape my legs over her lap as I settled my head into my favourite spot in her neck. Flicking through our options I smiled brightly when I found something worth watching. Clicking on the screen Emily smiled when orange is the new black appeared. Our favourite TV show happen to be having a marathon and I new we were set for the night.
Emily and I enjoyed watching our shower smiling, laughing and stealing glances at each other. And we were now up to season 3. So if you had to pick someone which ones the hottest? I question Em and she almost chocked on the popcorn that was now resting in our laps. "Ali"... Emily whined not wanting to answer. Oh come on Em look I'll even answer first, I'm totally team Maritza Emily frowned "that's so not who I thought you would pick", hey don't laugh now come on your turn Fields who's your pick? Emily blushed "well piper is pretty I guess" I smirked at Emily's shy admission pretty? I rolled my eyes "okay she's totally hot, she actually reminds me of you", my jaw drops open oh yeah how's that. Emily turns her full attention to me pausing the show. "Well you know blonde hair, blue eye, cream skins perfect body, I'd say looks wise your like piper but personality your more like Alex". I nodded not really sure if that was a complement or not. "But don't worry babe your much more sexy then her" i felt myself blush as Emily warped her left arm around my neck and kissed my check.
How am I like Alex? because I use to be a bitch and manipulate things to get my own way? "No" Emily took my hand and held it with hers. "Alex is very stubborn, but she's also confident and smart. she comes across as rude or cold to people who don't know her, but piper does. Alex had a huge guard up around herself to protect herself from getting hurt when they met, but that changed because piper was able to break through and see her soft side, the really Alex who is kind, and loving, and loveable. Alex's is loyal to piper and very protective of her. She opened up to her and learnt that it's okay to trust people just like you and me". Wow, I never thought about it like that I guess we are a lot alike, "yep and that's not a bad thing I promise". When orange is the new black finished, it was 6:30 and Emily and I decided to order pizza. The two of us then ate it in front of the TV watching Emily's favourite childhood movie the little mermaid. Half way through the movie, the two of us had changed places cuddling together with Em as the big spoon, and we were both Enjoying the quiet night in together when I received a text form Ezra.
( 1 new message) Ezra
Hey Ali it's Ezra, wonder if you and Emily are free tomorrow? I have Malcum with me till Tuesday.
I smiled before asking Emily if tomorrow was okay and texting him back. coming up with a plan of my own I smiled.
Tomorrow's great, how about we do lunch instead a picnic on the beach ( child friendly)
( 1 new message) Ezra
That would be great Ali, Malcum can't wait to see you, how's 12 by our old spot? Do you remember where that is?
12 is fine, I'm glad he remembers who I am tell him I can't wait either. we she'll see you then, and don't worry I remember our spot :)
Locking my phone and placing it on the coffee table I lay back down this time facing Emily instead of the TV. So, change of plans, Ezra and Malcum will be joining us for a picnic on the beach it's less date like and more kid friendly, if your lucky maybe I'll even join you for a swim. Emily face lit up. "That sounds perfect I can't wait to get in the water already". I laughed at how Much Emily loves the water. Your such a water baby Em, but I'm exited to it will be fun. Cuddling into my girlfriend I didn't bother turning around instead content on just resting my eyes in the warmth of her neck.
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Emily's pov
The next day, Alison and I packed up the left overs before making a few sandwiches and heading for the beach to meat Ezra. The sun was out and it was perfect weather for a swim. when I asked if She new where we were meeting Ali said at that her and Ezra have spot near a bunch of rocks and instead of feeling jealous I thought it was cute. Arriving at the so called spot Ali and I got there first and we set up the picnic rug before enjoying soaking up the sun. 20 minutes later we heard Ezra's voice, and when I looked up a mini Ezra was standing next to him holding his leg as though he was shy.
"Hi Ali it's good to see you again" Ali smiled. "you too Ezra", they hugged before she crouched down in front of Malcum. "Hey buddy I'm Ali remember me"? Malcum nodded. "Yeah, your daddy's special friend from when I was little right"? Ali smiled, "when dad said we were seeing you again I got really excited do you think we could build sandcastles like we use to? dad's still not very good at it". Ali laughed, "sure kid I'm sure we can do that, it will be fun. Looks like your father hasn't got any better huh"? Malcum giggled "nope". Malcum then looked from Ali to me, who's she"? Malcum questioned Ali and Ali turned around motioning for me to come over.
"Malcum this is my new special friend Emily", "Hi Emily it's nice to meet you, your very pretty" Malcum held out his hand as if waiting for me to shake it and I smiled. This kid was the sweetest and I could see why Ali was excited to see him. I took malcum hand in mine and shook it. Hi Malcum your very handsome for 7, "I know dad said I get it from him". The 3 of us laughed and Ali smirked at Ezra. "Way to brain wash your kid". "Hey I just mearly suggested that when people complement his looks the lest he could do was say he got them from me". "Oh yeah and I suppose when you meet a new girl you use that as your pick up like right"? "What no, I mean Malcum doesn't join me on my dates this is a rare exception".
"So Emily how did you meet Ali"? I smiled Ah we go to the same high school, we met in 6th grade. "Oh" Ezra's sighed before looking at Ali, "is she the Emily? the one I heard so much about". Ali blushed well considering I don't no another Emily yeah. I smiled, "Well then Emily it's nice to finally meet you, Alison never talked about her friends much when we were together except for a girl named Emily, and I think maybe there was a spencer? I smiled happy to know that I meant enough to Ali that she wanted to talk about me. Well I hope it was all good you heard, Ezra nodded "of course your on the swim team right? I mean Ali said you were back then" I nodded, yeah I'm still on the swim team I love it. Ali smiled "she's still the best swimmer in rosewood that's for sure" Ali kissed my check softly. "You have a great memory I can't believe you remember everything we use to talk about most guys would forget".
When Malcum got sick of kicking his soccer ball around he came back over to us. "Dad can I go in the water yet"? He questioned Ezra, but he shook his head. "Not with out me, you know the rules Malcum you can't swim and your mother would kill me if something happen". "But dad I"... "Soon buddy why don't you go climb the rocks"? Malcum shrugged looking uninterested, and before he headed off I spoke up. I can take him, Ezra and Alison both looked at me funny. "Really"? Malcum's face lit up, "dad can we... can I go in the water with Emily"? Ezra hesitated and I watched Ali place a hand on his shoulder. "Relax he's safe with Em I promise". "Okay I'll be in soon, oh and Emily maybe stick to where he can touch". I nodded got it you ready kid? I'll race you there. Taking off his t-shirt Malcum ran into the water with me only a few steps behind him the two of us enjoying the water, and leaving Ali and Ezra to talk.
Ali's pov
While at the beach Emily offered to take Malcum swimming leaving Ezra and I to talk, it was sweet of her and I ended up telling Ezra that Emily was the reason things ended between us because I figured he deserved to know. Ezra was glad I told him and happy that I was finally with the right person. When the sun was getting to hot we decided to join them in the water, and making my way out I noticed Emily had Malcum on her back and was spinning him around, while the kid erupted into a fit of giggles. I smiled, before talking, Mind if I join? I questioned them and Emily placed Malcum on the ground, when he saw Ezra her ran through the water and the two of them began splashing each other. Warping my arms around Emily's stomach I rested my head on her chest. I never new you were good with kids baby, I complemented my favourite brunette and she blushed. "I'm not", yes you are he's already become attached. You will make the best mum one day I can just see it. "You really think so"? I lifted my head off her chest, I know so and I hope that one day if I'm lucky enough we can have a mini version of you together.
I never thought I would ever want kids Em but seeing you with him has changed my mind. Emily smiled her dimples showing as she burst with happiness. "I love you so much right now you have no idea" Emily whispered before kissing me deeply, holding me closer against her skin as the wind blew and the waves crashed around our hips. When we broke apart our foreheads met, "I'd totally have a kid with you too Ali" Emily pecked my lips before the four of us headed out of the water to the sand. As promised I spent the next half hour building the best sandcastle I have ever made with Malcum before they had to leave, And with the cool change coming we did too.
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When we arrived home dad's car was in the driveway and I was a little surprised. Having spent the afternoon at the beach, it was now close to 6:30 and I thought he would still be at work. "Ah girls how was your day? Your home just in time I cooked dinner". My dad greeted us and I smiled. It was good, dinner smells great dad I'm starving. I placed my bags on the bench and took a seat. So you finally decided to shop? "Yeah I'm sorry about that Al, I was a little busy I also stopped by the chemist and picked up your scripts they were getting low. Dad! my eyes widen not liking the fact that he mentioned my pills in front of Em. "What Al it's important to make sure you renew them, the dr said"... I cut him off. I know what she said I just can we drop this, I looked at Emily and she looked concerned. Bye the way dad thanks for telling Emily I hadn't got that far yet. I stormed of to my room frustrated leaving Emily and my father in the kitchen.
Emily pov
When we arived home Kenneth was cooking dinner and it smelt great, I could tell Ali was happy to see him and she smiled brightly when she realised he had gone shopping for food. When he mentioned picking up Ali's meds, my eyebrows raised but I remaind quiet letting my blonde and her father talk. Ali clearly didn't want me to know what she was taking, but I wish she did because I'm a little worried. I shrugged it off when cece slipped last night but hearing her dad talk to her about it made it seem a little more serious. When Ali stormed off I contemplated following her but let her cool off first.
"Emily dear I didn't... I thought you new". I shook my head actually no I don't, but maybe I should, should I be worried? "No Alison's fine, she's not sick or anything she probably just a little embarrassed that's all, maybe you two should talk I've clearly said enough" Kenneth patted my shoulder, "I'm going to head to my den, I'll leave dinner on the stove for you guys when your ready". Okay thanks Mr D. "Your welcome, oh and Emily would you mind making sure she's taken them I know sometimes she doesn't always take them". I Nodding my head as Kenneth headed back downstairs an prepared myself before walking towards Ali's room. Knocking on the door, I Announced myself before walking in, finding my girlfriend lying on her stomach her face to the side, with tear streaks on her checks. she then looked at me before closing her eyes, as if doing so would hold in her tears.
Remaining silent, I joined Ali on her bed brushing her hair off her neck and began kissing the bare skin. I love you, I whispered softly and she remained silent for a while so I didn't force her to speak knowing she would when she was ready. "He told you didn't He"? No, I turned her around and cupped her check. He said I should talk to you, and Just so you know cece mentioned something about you taking pills, and not drinking alcohol last night. "She what"? Ali's voice raised. babe relax, cece realised the slip and didn't elaborated when I asked her what pills, she pretended she new nothing about it. Ali you don't have to be embarrassed, whatever it is your taking won't change the way I feel about you I promise, i'm not going to judge you. Ali smiled softly leaning into the hand that rest on her check.
"When I returned to rosewood, my father begged me to talk to someone about everything I went through. We fought about it for the first week, but eventually he said it wasn't an option and that I was going whether I like it or not. On top of everything I had been through, the news of my mother passing away had really gotten to me more than I thought, and while I was a little hesitant to open up to someone about how I was feeling I realised she new nothing about me and would only no what I wanted to tell her. My therapist put me on meds to help with my anxiety, she claims I have a server anxiety disordered, and that by taking them it will help. For the first week or so I was back, I would wake up during the night screaming and crying from a nightmare, which resulted in Jason or my dad staying in my room with me. They would take turns in sleeping on my chair, but when the tablets kicked in I didn't need them to anymore. My second lot of tablets are anti depressants, which my shrink prescribed me after paying me a visit per my dad's request two weeks before Christmas. I had locked myself in my room refusing to leave my bed or talk to anyone, the whole thing with you guys thinking I was A had gotten to me and she diagnosed me with depression. during my time in jail I remained on both medications and it was after a routine check up that they discovered I have low blood blood pressure, so that's what my other pills are for, I had a few fainting spells and for precortion I have to take them for another 6 months. Dr Sullivan, my shrink said last week if I feel like I want to I could start coming off my anti depressants and I do, so I've been lowering my intake. My dad however still think I need them. Cece found them in my bag when she paid me a visit over Christmas".
Wait who did you say your shrink was? Ali frowned "Dr Sullivan why"? Well it just so happen that I used to see her myself. "You did? But you are perfect, what could you possible need help with? I mean I am a mess, but you seem so put together". I smirked nobody is perfect Ali, I started seeing her after the police thought they found your body, it was with the girls we were getting texts from A and we thought talking about it would help, but Mona was A at the time and threaten to kill her son when she found out who they were from. She's nice, "yeah she's helped a lot with my mums passing". I squeezed Ali's hand. she's good with all that, I started seeing her again when Maya died. I stopped ages ago but every year on the anniversary of her death, she schedules a time for me and sometimes we just sit or other times she will listen to me talk. I like knowing she's there to talk to. Ali's grip on me tighten. "Em you... and maya, You never talk about her I mean you know you can talk about her right? I can't imagine what you went through. What was she like"? I looked at Ali and her gaze was full of love.
I still I think about her a lot, I mean maybe not as much as I use to but sometimes I'll be doing somthing and it will bring back a memory. She was beautiful Ali I think you would have liked her, she was the first person to accept me you know. she was patient, and kind, and always new what to say. she never pushed me to do anything or come out, simple encouraged me to be myself. our relationship was complicate, she was the first person I dated after Ben and when my mother found out she hated it, she couldn't except that I was gay so she found away to get ride of her by telling her parent she smoked weed. We lost contact for over a year, but when we finally reconnected things were better than ever. we date for around two month and she was the first person I slept with. we feel in love with each other and it was like a dream. Maya was always so strong and brave, she didn't mind being different at lest that's what she told me, but I was wrong. A guy she meet at true north began stalking her a little while before she went missing but she said she had it under control. as my last few memories I had of her returned I began to tear up. The... The last day I saw her was at Hanna's, we had a swim team party and I caught her smoking a joint after she told me she had stopped. she told me I wouldn't understand and she asked me to run away with her, told me she new a place but I could go, I could just leave my life in rosewood behind and she got mad, she was upset and I should have gone, I... Maybe I could have protected her.
Maya was reported missing two days later, and then I heard from her via text. she told me she was fine but not to tell her parent and I did, I thought by telling them I was doing the right thing but she didn't seem to think so. I received a email three days before she died explaining everything, that she was sorry, that she loved me and that she should have never left because we both would have had that night in Spencer's room as our special goodbye. All I wanted was for her to come home but she didn't. Her body was found behind my house the night we found out about Mona and that night will remain with me forever. Ali reached up to my face and dried my cheeks. "Em baby I'm so sorry! you didn't deserve to go through that, I wish I'd come back sooner". That night reminded me of the day they found your body, the two people I loved most in this world were dead and there was nothing I could do about it. aww baby C'mere, Ali pulled me closer and stroked my hair. "I'm not going anywhere ever again I promise". She whispered and I New she meant every word.
Ali your dad told me to ask, did you take your pills? He said sometimes you don't want to? "Yes I promise I took them with breakfast, now let's go eat I'm starving" I smiled getting up and following her into the kitchen, glad that her mood was already returning to normal. Hey Ali, "yeah Em"? I love you, I pulled her back towards me and she giggled, before turning around and wrapping her arms around my neck. "I don't think I will ever get tired of hearing you say that" she blushed and I pecked her softly on the cheek. well then it's a good thing I don't mind saying it, I can't wait to spend the next 10 day together just you and me. " Me too Em" Ali smiled before continuing to talk. "I promise to make this the best summer you have ever had".
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