Max was still looking at Alec in amusement, Alec was looking just plain uncomfortable and Sam was looking between the two, almost as amused as Max at his brother's expression. Alec noticed this and the silence suddenly became almost unbearable and he asked Max the question that had been bouncing around in his head. "Why'd you kiss me, Max?"

Sam was shocked that his brother just came out and asked a question like this to a girl that was as hot as Max. He knew his brother was shallow, but judging by the desperation in his voice Sam was starting to wonder if that was just an act that his brother put on.

Alec was looking down at his hands when he asked this. He didn't want to see whatever expression was on her face because he was afraid that she would regret what she had done.

Max waited until he looked back up before she said, "I already told you it was because you came back. Even if you're just going to leave again."

Alec looked up abruptly, "I'm not…" But the words died on his lips as he realized that this was probably a lie. His life style would make him leave, even if he didn't want to. He also didn't want to put Max in danger by being around her. He knew the demon would come for her, especially if he got her pregnant. It was the Winchester curse and he didn't want to drag Max into it.

When he looked up again he saw Max smiling softly and a little sadly. When she spoke it was softly and there wasn't any hint of anger or bitterness in it, "Alec, you and I both know that you would have to leave some time. You can't stay in one place while people are out there that need your help from the things that go bump in the night." She smiled again and said, "And I don't blame you for it, Alec. You should know that."

His head jerked up, surprised, "You don't?"

She grinned this time, amusement dancing in her eyes, "I don't. After I read that note I wanted to kill you yes," She grinned wryly and said, "I've had a lot of time to think about it."

"Sorry about leaving you with just a note, my Dad needed my help."

She had moved over to the counter and was putting some water in a kettle, but when he said that she turned around, raising an eyebrow, "Oh, is that all?"

Sam was shocked to see his brother blush.

Dean cleared his throat, "Okay, I was a little afraid of what you'd do to me."

"I figured there was something else, 'cause I'm pretty sure that you know how to use a phone." She had turned back to filling the kettle again and despite the words her tone was teasing. But the words still had about as much affect on Alec as if she had yelled them.

"I'm really sorry Max, I guess I…I…" He looked over at his brother. He would admit why he didn't call her to Max, but he didn't want to do it in front of his brother.

Sam caught the hint, "I'm going to go outside for a bit of fresh air." He got a grateful look from his brother and a small smile from Max.

Once Sam had left Alec looked back to Max and took a deep breath. She sat down on the other side of the counter from him and gave him an encouraging smile. He said what he had to say in a rush, "I didn't want you to yell at me about how much you regretted it and how it was a mistake when it was one of the best nights of night." He took another breath and didn't look at her, "I'm sorry I didn't call Max, I didn't really want you to yell at me about how much of a mistake it was. I just… it would hurt to much." He still didn't look at her. He heard her stand up and come closer to him.

She turned the stool around so he was facing her and she slid her soft hand under his chin, cupping it gently. She gently pushed so he was forced to look at her. She was looking down at him with an emotion that he had never seen her look at him with…love. She sighed, "Alec, I love you and I don't regret what happened. Obviously my feline genetics tapped into what I had thought about you when I wasn't in heat. Alec, I was twenty miles out of town before I showed up at your place. I was already in love with you. I just didn't want to admit it to you."

Alec was shocked, to say the least, he couldn't think of what to say, but Max blocked out any thoughts of speech when she lowered her face to his and kissed him. Everything other than Max just disappeared. He thanked God for his transgenic ability of being able to hold his breath for so long because he really didn't want this kiss to end.

Eventually Max broke it off with a grin at his expression, "I think Sam might want to come in." She moved towards the door when Alec regained the ability of speech.

"Hey Max." When she looked at him he said, "I love you, too."

She grinned at him before opening the door and calling Sam back in. After Sam came back he looked between the two warily, judging by the happy expressions he figured that they had made up. Max had put the kettle on the stove and took it off when it started to whistle. She poured three cups and then turned to Alec, "Do you mind if I put something in your drink?"

Alec's head shot up, "What?"

She shifted her weight slightly, "It's not going to kill you or anything there's just something that you're going to find out and it'll just calm you down a little."

Sam looked over at his brother. He was sure that Dean would flat out refuse anything that was going to affect him or his reactions in any way. Which was why he was so surprised when Dean just nodded. Max smiled slightly and took a bottle of something out of the cupboard and put a couple of drops in Dean's drink she didn't put anything in her own or Sam's cups and handed them out.

Alec looked down at the drink doubtfully. Max smiled, "Try it you'll like it."

Sam was thinking that that wasn't why Dean looked so doubtful, but was surprised when Dean just sniffed it and started drinking it. Sam tried his own and was surprised at how good it tasted.

During this thoughts were racing through Alec's head at high speed. What does she need to tell me? Was she lying when she said that she loved me? No, she wouldn't do that. But I was gone for a long time, she could have found someone else to love. Like Logan or that Chase guy. God, I hope that it isn't something like that. Especially if it was Logan Cale.

Eventually the stuff that she gave him worked and he looked at Max somewhat calmly considering the thoughts that were flying through his mind. "So, do you use this stuff yourself?"

"All of the time. Chase uses it too."

Alec flinched slightly at the mention of Chase. "How did you stay so calm when we were at Crash? Did you have some of this stuff in you?"

"I haven't really had to use this in a while, after you left a friend introduced me to it and it really helped." She sighed, "I stay calm because I meditate and pray when most people sleep."

Alec looked over at her at the mention of prayer. "Do you believe in God?"

She met his gaze calmly, "Yes, I do. Do you?"

"Yeah, I do."

Sam looked between the two, surprised at their calm talk. How can they talk so calmly? What is the thing that Alec is going to find out and why does he need to be calm? Does she have another guy?

A/N: I know that I haven't updated in a long time and I'm sorry for those of you that like this story, I just didn't know that anyone was actually reading this until I looked at the stats. Reviews would help me update sooner smile and the reviews from X5 452 and 494 and DarkWolfYingFa really inspired me to write more. I'm sorry that this is so short and if it's weird I'm sorry. It's late and I'm kind of riding a natural high that I don't have to go to school tomorrow and I didn't have to go today and I didn't have to go on Monday either so I only had to go to school Tuesday and Wednesday. So I am really happy and I'm sorry that I'm rambling a lot (I'm tired) and for those of you that are getting sick of the apologies I am (I won't say it just for you.) Please let me know of any spelling or grammatical errors I have a headache and I'm tired at the moment and I also know that I have errors in my last chapter and I'll try to fix those ASAP. Glad you read!!! smiles