Heading Stuff - Same as previous chapter.
The Kerry Files
I can see it in his eyes. When she walks into the room, the light up…in a way that I can't do. Oh sure, he likes looking at me, he just comes alive inside when he sees her. Oh sure, it hurts to know that I will never be able to see him look at me like, that I will never get him to feel like that. But at the end of the day…I get Jack O'Neill, she may have his heart, but I get the rest of him. But the thing is…I'm not sure that is enough. I'm not sure I can allow myself to fall in love with a man who could never love me. I guess that's why I have to do this. Get out before I fall for him, which would be so easy…he's funny, and kind, well mannered…sure he may leave the toilet seat up, but every man has a flaw and if that is Jack O'Neill's only flaw then he's a pretty good deal…he's a dream basically, I can she why she loves him. I can see how easy it would be for me to love him. Maybe I already do though. And that's why I have to let him go. Because if you love someone enough, you'll let them go if you know that they can never be happy with you.
The problem with Jack O'Neill is, he doesn't think he's good enough for her. He is. He's better than Pete. Yes I know about Pete, Jack may have mentioned him…several times on our first date. I guess I should have gotten out then, but I thought maybe I could make him forget Sam Carter. Guess I was wrong. I can't…and could never, make Jack forget about Sam. Because she…completes him. I just wish they would realise it themselves. But…sometimes you just need a little push…a little reminder that love is sometimes right under your nose. Someone just has to make the first move. I'm the decoy move, I'm planting the seed. Because, God only knows, those two deserve happiness. And if it comes at my own expense…I guess I'll just have to live with that, because I may not love Jack O'Neill, but I sure as hell care about him enough to do this for him…for them.
-sighs- No Kerry bashing from me either...what the heck is wrong with me? Coming soon 'The Jack Files'...just got to write it up :)