Heading Stuff - same as chapter 1.
The Jack Files
Kerry is wrong. The Air Force isn't the only thing keeping us apart. It's our own fears that are keeping us apart. Pretty stupid. I'm a General for crying out loud, and I can't even tell the woman the I l…care about that I still care about her. Christ I can't even think of that word. Stupid. So stupid. But everyone knows that, Carter is the smart one in this relationship.
Relationship? Is that what we have? She's with Pete…I was with Kerry, but for 7 years before that…maybe. God this is so not the time for this, Carter's dad is really sick, he's dying, something about Selmak and toxins. Maybe I should go sit with her…I can't do what I want to do…which is to draw her into my arms, to stroke her hair, and to kiss her gently...maybe I could just…she looks so sad. She's in the observation room, and I just can't help myself. I put my arm around her…and oh god she's nuzzling my hand. Alright, I'm going to say it. I love her. I do. Not that stuff that Mills and Boon write about…but something so much deeper than that. The type of love that burns, the type of love where you would lay down your life for that person…take a bullet for that person, or let that person go if she didn't love you back. That's the ultimate in love. The ability to sacrifice your own happiness so that they can be happy.
Now that is stupidity. I'll be drinking myself into a stupor whilst Carter is off making babies and playing happy families with Pete the cop. Why can't I be happy too? Haven't I…we sacrificed enough in the name of planet Earth and for humanity. Well…I'll always be there for her. A promise. Jack O'Neill keeps his promises. And I have one other to keep. Jacob told me to take his daughter fishing. And this time, I'm not going to take no for answer.
Coming soon to a...computer screen near you...The Sam Files.