Disclaimer: Don't own them. Never have never will, if I did I wouldn't be writing this I would be living it.
WARNING: I TEND TO SWEAR A LOT. JUST BE PREPARED.
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"Goodbye Petey." was all I could manage to say before closing the door behind me.
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I sat in my car in an abandoned parking lot as the tears fell freely on the paper in my lap. My hands shook violently as i began to write.
To Everyone,
I am sorry. I cant do this anymore. You guys are my heart and my soul, and you always will be, but i cant take the pain. It hurts to bad.
Daniels, you will always be my angel bear. I will never forget you. I have had some of the best times of my life with you. You have always been there to protect me, and you have always been my family. I love you like you were my big brother.
Alex, you have been like a big brother to me for as long as i can remember. You always knew how to make me feel better. For that i thank you, and i love you. You never fail to make me laugh, which most of the time i needed.
Chris Sabin, you will always be my little sweetheart, and i know you are going to go far. Your absolultly amazing inside and out.
Sonjay, i know we have just been getting close, and i am sorry i have to leave like this. You where there when i needed you most, and for that i will always consider you one of my best friends.
To Chase, i am sorry i screwed everything up for you. I never meant for it to turn out like this.
To AMW, you guys are true soutern gentleman, and you will never be forgotten.
Sterling, i doubt you will ever read this, but i am sorry. For everything. I should have told you how i felt, and you shouldnt have had to find out like that. I feel horrible for what i did, and I always will.
To team canada, you guys have been like family to me. I will never forget all you have done for me. I love you.
I am sorry it has to end like this, but its the only way i can see. I, i cant do this anymore.
Eternally sorry, and forever yours.
Adriana Wilson.
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I wiped away some of the tears as i finished the easiest of the three letters. This next one was going to be one of the hardest things i had ever written.
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To Petey,
You wont listen to me when i try to talk to you, so this is the only way i know how to get my message across. I want to tell you i am sorry. I never in a million years thought i could hurt you this much. When Scott told me what had happened, i thought i had lost you Petey. And i have never been that scared in my life. Even when i was fighting my own life in the hospital, nothing scared me as much, as knowing i might lose you. You have been my best friend, my roomate, and my family for so many years. But i screwed that up. And thats why i have to do this. By the time you read this i will be long gone. I'd tell you where i was going, but honestly i dont know. I hope maybe one day you can forgive me, and we can just go back to how we used to be. But i know that will never happen. I just want you to know i love you, and i will never ever forget you.
Love always
Adriana
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I folded up the sheet of paper with shaking hands and clumsily slipped it into an envolope. Once i had succesfully sealed it, i rested my head agaist the steering wheel and cried my eyes out. This isnt supposed to be how it happened. I was supposed to go back to TNA and be happy. But it brought me only pain. I couldnt go anywhere without screwing it up, and now i was losing everything i had.
I took a deep breath to collect myself knowing the hardest of the letters was yet to come. I could barely hold the pen my hand was shaking so violently. I took another deep breath and stedied myself.
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To AJ,
I am sorry AJ, i never meant to hurt you. I love you with all my heart, and i know that i always will. You are without a doubt the best thing that has ever happened to me. I need you more than you will ever know. But i cant do this. I cant take the constant pain anymore AJ. I love you, but you deserve better than me. You deserve more. Forget about me AJ, it will be for teh best. As i sit writing this, i know i will probably never see you again. That tears my heart into a million pieces, but so does the fact i know if i stay i will rob you of your happiness. I'm sorry its ending like this, i honestly do love you. But you have to move on. Please.
I'm sorry.
Adriana.
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As my car pulled into the studio parking lot my heart rate quickened. It was almost 10 at night, so i knew no one would be here till tomarrow morning. I slowly got out of the car, all three letters in my hand. I amde my way to the netrance only to find it locked. I should have thought of that
"Well hello Miss. Wilson." Came a voice from behind me, causing me to nearly jump out of my skin.
"Hi Mr. Lee" I said with a smile, realising it was only the janitor.
"I left something really important in my locker, do you mind letting me in?" I said with a smile, hoping he would buy it.
"Sure Miss Wilson." He said with a smile before unlocking the door and pushing it open for me.
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Wow ubrupt ending huh? Big chappy. Not in lenght but in info. Whats gonna happen? Reviews would be nice! I want to know how i am doing!.
-PA6