Disclaimer: Anyone you recognize, i don't own. The nobodys your never heard of... yep them bitches is mine lol.

Omg. i came up with the idea for this chapter... and i just had to sit down and write. Hope you like it.

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I took several deep breaths. I wasn't sure what would be harder. Coming back after 3 years, or coming back after 12 hours. I had proved to myself again that I was incapable of making a good decision, and i always picked THE worst possible thing to do.

But as I thought about that, it really didnt make sense. I thought running away from home would be a bad idea, but if I hadn't I would have never have met Petey. He changed my life, and he was my best friend. I would have been a completely different person if I had never met him. On the flip side, he did hate me now.

If I hadnt told Andy how I felt and ran away, I may have never know how Andy, or AJ felt about me. AJ told me countless times about how my leaving and coming back was a real wake up call to him, that life was too short not to capitalize on what you wanted. But on that flip side, I had just walked out on the man of my dreams and told him to forget about me.

So now I sat in front of the apartment that we had lived in together for almost a year. The apartment he let me stay at when me and Petey had our falling out, the apartment where he told me how he really felt about me, the apartment where I had fallen asleep in his arms to many times to remember. And for the first time in my life, I was afraid to go in.

Finally I was able to force my shaking hands to remove the keys from the ignition , and open the car door. I swung my legs out the side and stopped again, to take a few more deep breaths. My stomach was doing back flips as I stood up, and my legs felt like Jello. I gripped tight to the railing as I climbed to the second floor.

My hands were shaking violently as I tried to unlock the door. The fact that I was wet from the rain didnt have that much to do with it either. I had never been this nervous in my life.

Finally I got the got the door open. I stepped inside, and tried to call AJ's name, but couldn't force the words to come out. The sight of the apartment alone had brought me to tears.

How could I even think about running out on this? This was the happiest I had been in a long time, and I was ready to just walk away and give it all up. My boyfriend, my house, all but a select few belongings that I had brought in my bag.

The sound of AJ swearing coming from the bedroom snapped me back to reality. My feet felt like lead as I made my way across the living room towards the open bedroom door.

I stood in the doorway for a few moments hoping he would just feel me there and take me in his arms, and tell me it was all okay. But it didnt happen. He had his back to the door, digging for something in the closet.

"A...AJ." I said barely above a whisper.

His head snapped around so fast I was suprised he didnt get whiplash.

"Adri..." He said, turning to face me.

"I...I wasnt thinking right..." I stammered.

"How. How could you. Just give it all up. Give me up?" He said tears forming in his eyes, but not falling.

"I...I don't know." I said, looking down at the floor.

"You don't know?" He said, his voice rising slightly.

"You don't know? How can you not know..."

"I...I couldn't handle it anymore..."

"So you should have talked to me about it! I have ears and a brain! I could have helped!"

"AJ...I'm sorry." I said, my flow of tears increasing.

"Thats not good enough Adri. God Damnit! You were just gonna give up all we had like that, and you come back and think sorry is gonna cut it?" He said, still standing across the room from me.

"I...I am so sorry AJ. I didnt mean to hurt you. I thought we would both be better off if i was gone..."

"You thought I would be better, not sleeping, wondering what the hell I did wrong to make you run out on me like this. Going over every fucking conversation we ever had, trying to figure out what I screwed up? You thought I would be better off?"

"This was never about you. I love you!"

"But you'd be willing to leave me at the drop of a hat." He said, a look of hurt crossing his eyes as he did.

"No! Thats why I came back. I couldn't go through with it. I knew I couldn't live without you." I sobbed, near hysterics.

"You know what. I don't think you really mean that." AJ said his voice turning cold.

"Aj..."

"No. Let me finish. You know what I was going to do today? I was going to take you to the doctors office, I was going to see you get cleared, so you could do what you love. Then I was going to bring you back here, I was going to make us a romantic dinner, and just when the time was right, I was going to give you this" He said, reaching into his pocket and pulling out a jewelry box. He opened it to reveal a stunning engagement ring.

"But you showed me something. Your not ready to commit to anything. I don't think you ever will be. So until you grow up, and realize that your actions effect other people, get the hell out of my apartment." He said, before tossing the ring box into the garbage can next to him.

I was to shocked to say anything. I sobbed harder, before just turning around, and walking away.

I soon as i stepped foot outside the door I slid down against the wall an sobbed. I cursed myself for being so dumb, before pulling my phone out of my pocket. I held down the number 5 till it began to dial.

A groggy voice answered with a "Where the hell are you"

"The apartment...please... I need you." Before hanging up.

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DAMN YOU AJ! I made myself sad with this one. Reviews would be grand! I want to know how you all are liking it!

-PA6