Monday (September 5th)

Why was Rain here? I got up from the couch.

"What is wrong, Rain?" I asked him. He started walking towards me. I felt an urge to back up. I did. He still walked towards me and I still walked backwards.

I hit the wall and he stood right in front of me.

"What the rut do you think you're doing you dim hoover?!" Why was Rain yelling at me? I did not understand. I was scared.

"Rain, calm down. Please, this isn't what you think." Fluttershy said.

He did not turn towards her. "It's exactly what I think. You two were kissing. And I don't like that."

"What is wrong with kissing? It felt good." I told him. Why was he so angry?

His eyes looked like they were on fire and I felt something hit my stomach. I hunched over as the wind was knocked out of me. Something hit one of the scars and it was really hurting.

I looked down to see Rain's fist moving away from my stomach.

"Why?" I asked him. Why did he hit me? He was my best friend. I could feel tears going down my face. Why did he hit me?

He pulled his fist back and hit me again in the face. My nose really hurt and I lifted my hand up to it. It came away bloody.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked him. He did not answer.

Fluttershy ran up and grabbed his arm. He twisted it out of her grasp and pushed her back on the couch.

He kicked my ankle and I fell on my knees. He brought his fist back again and punched me again and again. Anywhere he could.

After what felt like forever he said something.

I was on the floor, very sore. I looked up at him.

"Get out, Light." He said in a whisper. I did not understand. "Why?" I asked him.

He did not answer. "Get out, before I kill you." My breath caught in my throat. When I did not move, he grabbed me and dragged me and threw me out the door. I did not know he was that strong.

"If I ever see you again, Light, I'll kill you. I promise." He said. Then he slammed the door.

I stood up shakily, and galloped. I noticed the moon out after awhile and the feeling in my stomach returned.

I stopped under a tree and collapsed. I tucked my legs to my body and could feel myself rocking and crying.

Why was Rain angry? Why had he hurt me? What did I do?

I could feel the moon beat down on me from all sides. I was so scared, I did not know why. Things were too much. Everything looked like something else when I looked at it. Every sound sounded like a timber wolf.

Fluttershy's POV

I tried to go after Light but Rain stopped me.

"You aren't allowed to see him anymore." He told me. I slapped him. "How dare you come into my home, beat my guest, and then command me on what to do."

He looked surprised by my outburst, but he didn't seem to care.

"I'm your older brother. You do what I tell you Shy. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. I can't believe I witnessed that." He scolded me.

"Don't call me Shy. And I can do whatever I want, whether you grant me permission or not. I'm a grown mare. And I can love, or hate, whomever I want." I told him. He never let me do anything when he was around. Well now, I'm putting my hoof down.

"You can't love him Shy. I don't want you with him. He is one of the dumbest ponies I've ever met. He's never even touched a mare besides his sister, willingly. He can't love you." He explained.

"You just can't face the fact that I love him, Rain. Now get out of my house before I make you get out of my house." I pointed to the door.

He looked angry. Before I knew it, my face stung and I was across the room on the floor. I tasted blood in my mouth.

"Don't you ever disrespect me like that again." He whispered. Barely contained fury behind his words.

"What is wrong with you, Rain? You were never this bad." I pointed out.

"Bad? Hehe, you think this is bad? I'm not being bad, I'm being a good brother." He responded.

"No, you're not. A good brother would support me. And a good best friend wouldn't let his best friend have a heart attack out of sheer terror." He just scoffed at me.

"I didn't ask to be labeled that idiot's best friend. He just clung to me. If anything, this helped me to get rid of him. He won't be coming back here." He explained to me.

This was a side of Rain I had never seen before. Something was wrong. There was something else behind his eyes that was never there before, and I was terrified to find out what it was.

As quickly as I could, I shot to my hooves and to the back door. I got it open just as he reached me. I opened it and slammed it shut behind me, into Rain's face. I heard a groan and took off into the sky.

"Where do I go?" I asked myself.

Twilight could help me. As quickly as I could, I flew to Twilight's house. I could hear Rain behind me.

I landed in front of the library and tried the handle. It was locked. I started banging on the door.

A light turned on upstairs. However, I felt Rain's hands wrap around my torso and mouth. But he was grabbing me awkwardly. His hand didn't come all the way over to my arm. It landed on my breast and it felt almost like he was groping it. I struggled as hard as I could.

I flailed my legs out and banged on the door as hard as I could.

The door opened suddenly and there stood Spike.

I pleaded with my eyes for him to help me.

He reached out and grabbed Rain's hand and twisted.

I heard a pop and his hand went limp after Spike let go of it.

Rain yelled and let go of me. I rushed forward and behind Spike. There was another dragon behind him and Twilight was just walking down the stairs.

When she saw my disheveled appearence and bruise she rushed forward.

"I'll be back for you Shy." Rain announced. I turned around and took off.

"Fluttershy, what the rut is going on?" Twilight asked. I rushed over to her and collapsed into her arms. I could feel the tears sliding down my face once the adrenaline wore off.

After I calmed down, I explained to Twilight, Spike, and the other dragon what had happened.

"We need to go out and find him." The dragon, who I learned was a female, stated.

"Yeah. There's not telling how this has impacted him. He needs support right now. Splia, could you stay behind in case Lightning wakes up?" Twilight asked.

Splia nodded and we stood up.

"I'll go alone, Spike, you go with Fluttershy. She shouldn't be alone and Light at least knows me." She stated.

I nodded. Spike and I left and went right. Twilight went in the opposite direction.

It took a few hours, but we eventually found him. It was almost dawn.

"Light?" I asked him. He was violently shaking and tears were streaming down his face. The blood looked like it had dried. He was rocking back and forth slightly and his eyes looked cloudy.

"He's terrified." Spike pointed out. I nodded.

"We have to get him inside." I told him. I knelt down beside Light, but when I touched him, he yelped and violently scooted away. The look of terror evident in his entire being.

He looked frantically between Spike and I. He also appeared to be hyper-ventilating.

I slowly reached out my hand to him. He seemed to whimper so I stopped.

"It's me, Fluttershy." I told him, softly. I reached out a little more, but this time, he didn't back away.

When my hand brushed his cheek, he leaped forward enveloping me in a tight hug.

I wrapped my arms around him and rubbed his back, letting him calm down.

"Wow, he's like an animal almost." Spike said.

I glared at him. "No offense intended." He held up his hands in a placating gesture.

It took about half an hour but Light finally calmed down. The sun was rising.

I helped Light stand up, but he still seemed somewhat out of it. He wouldn't let go of my hand.

I led him through town, following Spike. We eventually came upon Twilight's house. Spike opened the door and we walked in.

I set him down on the couch and cradled his head.

"I'm so sorry, Light. In the short time you've known me, I've put you through so much. I hope you can forgive me." I said in a whisper. Splia didn't say anything, just watched. Spike sat down next to her.

Twilight came back a few minutes later.

She saw us and smiled. She pointed upstairs and I nodded. She needed to check on Lightning.

"Rain hates Light." Light said after awhile.

"No, he doesn't hate you." I told him. Comforting him. Rain's betrayel must have cut him deep. If it hurt me this much, I couldn't imagine what Light was going through. It had seemed Light had loved Rain like a brother. I mostly just tolerated him.

"I want to see sister." He said.

"She isn't here right now but I could send her a letter." I told him. I was still rubbing his mane.

"Alright. I want to see sister." He said again.

"Spike, could you send a letter directly to his sister?" I asked him.

"Probably." He answered. "It might take some time though."

"That's fine. Light needs his sister right now. Apparently, I'm not enough." I regretted the words as soon as I said them. Light didn't seem to hear them, but I had still said them.

I realized that I was jealous, if not a little hurt, that I couldn't help him through this. I wanted it so much to be me that he called out for. That he needed. That he wanted.

"Can you write one and send it. Her name is Stella Weight and she looks almost identical to Light only more my size." I explained to him.

I realized Light was still shaking. He was still scared. Stella better get here soon. He seemed to be going into a catatonic state.

About an hour later, the letter was sent.

I kept comforting Light as best I could but he seemed to just be getting worse as the hours passed. About four hours later, Twilight walked in with Stella.

"Brother?" She asked as she sat down on the other side of him.

He barely responded.

"Light, it's Stella. Your sister." She said softly.

This time, he looked at her.

I could feel his breath catch in his throat.

He leaped out of my arms and hugged his sister. He pressed his face into her chest and wrapped his arms around her waist in an awkward manner.

I could see him silently sobbing. After she got over her initial shock, Stella wrapped her arms around him and started comforting him in her own way.

"I'm sorry, Fluttershy. I can see it in your eyes. It hurts you not to be enough." She said when she looked at me.

I looked down at Light. "He won't hear anything for a little while, so we are free to talk."

"How can you be so callous when your brother is having an emotional breakdown in your arms? Not to mention he had the stuffing beat out of him earlier, without fighting back." I chastised her.

"I've always needed to be strong for him. By now, it's second nature." She responded with a frown.

I decided to move past it. "I'll admit, it does hurt. I want it to be me that he calls out for. I want it to be only me that he needs. And I feel terrible for it." I told her.

"Don't. It's normal for somepony in love to feel that way." She smiled at me.

I looked down at my lap.

"Give it time. He'll come around. It may be a week or two before he is over this though. So I'm probably going to have to stay here. Is that alright with you?" She asked.

I nodded. I desperately wanted to switch places with Stella right now.

"You did an amazing job getting him this far. This was a monument to show how much he trusts you. From what I gathered in the letter, he was on the brink. And you brought him back. He loves you, but he just may not know it yet." She tried to comfort me.

After I thought the conversation ended, Stella spoke up.

"So, have you kissed him yet?" She asked.

It took me a second to register the question.

"Yes. It's actually what started all of this." Stella frowned.

"We better hope to Celestia he doesn't connect your kiss to Rain betraying him or he may never do it again."

I put my head in my hands. I may have lost both my brother and Light with one kiss.